Name of series: Glee

Couples: Rachel Berry & Finn Hudson / Rachel Berry & Jesse St. James

Warning: SPOILER!

Disclaiming: Glee does not belong to me

Story Summary: She wanted nothing to do with her current life, that is, if it meant leaving behind everyone she loved for another loved one, and yet, Is this love worth it? She smiled, of course it was.

Chapter: 1

Status: Incomplete!

She really tried to make it better, but how could she? All the feelings she ever had just had to come back up and explode right in her face, The love she felt for Finn, the love she feels for Jesse, the affection she holds for Glee Club.

She couldn't explain herself, but she tried, and Jesse had said it, he wanted nothing to do with her. He was never going to get over her video and she knew it. And yet she tried to kid herself, trying to convince herself he would see the light at the end of the tunnel, that he would forgive her, that he would love her back.

But it was not until he attacked her, that she realized just how wrong had she been, she had to live with her conscience now and all she could do was try to move on. And she would do so by proving herself, and by proving her power of will. Throwing eggs on her was the last straw, and she was ready to fight back.

The lights dimmed and Glee Club got into their positions, they were ready. They had rehearsed for this. They deserved this recognition. The curtains were pulled and she took one deep breath. It was time to show them all what they could do. And what Vocal Adrenaline would never surpass them in, and that was the passion and talent.

She turned to look at Finn now, the words he had just spoken would have to be evaluated later, her mind was shutting off. It was now just auto-pilot, it was just Glee club, Finn and her. And the passion she had felt for him. And the love for music, but above all, the love for those two men in the audience, her fathers. She had to show them just how good she was, and how perfect she could be.

They were the reason of why she pushed herself so much, they had given her opportunities, a life. Classes and coursed since she was 3, how could she fail? She smiled at Finn and nodded as the music started, Jesse was also somewhere in the audience, but now, that didn't matter. She was ready for all of it. Let the show begin! Was her only thought.

Highway run

Into the midnight sun

Wheels go round and round

You're on my mind

Restless hearts

Sleep alone tonight

Sendin' all my love

Along the wire

They say that the road

Ain't no place to start a family

Right down the line

It's been you and me

And lovin' a music man

Ain't always what it's supposed to be

Oh boy, you stand by me

I'm forever yours...faithfully

Circus life

Under the big top world

We all need the clowns

To make us smile

Through space and time

Always another show

Wondering where I am

Lost without you

And being apart ain't easy

On this love affair

Two strangers learn to fall in love again

I get the joy

Of rediscovering you

Oh girl, you stand by me

I'm forever yours

...faithfully

Oh, oh, oh, oh Faithfully,

I'm still yours I'm forever yours

Ever yours...faithfully.

She smiled as she tried to catch her breath. They had done it, the first part was down, now… the other two… she took a quick look at Finn, making sure he was fine too. And another one for the cast, a quick scan, making sure everyone was in their place. They were, had she ever felt so proud of them.

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He clapped along with the audience, she was spectacular, as always. His little princess was making the light shine on her, and he hoped she still would after leaving for his plan. His darling agreed with him, and they both wanted that insufferable woman out of their Rachel's life. Biological mother or not, she had no rights over Rachel until she turned 18, and that was a long way to go.

They watched their princess shine and excel their own expectations, he turned to look at his lovely husband, they just smiled at each other. She was more than ready.

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He smiled inwardly, she had been great of course, and he was secretly proud of her. After all, she was his Rachel. The rest of his group were either silent, or clapping out of respect. My eyes just kept on looking at Rachel. The way we ended, the way I dumped her, the eggs, the screamming, the tears. I regret it all and I wished I could have done it differently, but with this performace, she showed me she was proving herself. And I saw her eyes scan the audience, and finally stop.

I tried to find too, however she was searching for, but he was out of my reach. And I surprised myself by standing up and some of my friends looked at me with a 'What-the-heck-do-you-think-you're-doing' look, I just shrugged. "I need to use the bathroom quickly", and I ran to the exit. I needed air and mind as well, a trip to the bathroom. I saw her on the way, she was pacing on the hallway, and I stopped to get a peak at her.

She was wearing the same dress she wore on stage, and she still looked beautiful, but I knew she didn't care about that this moment, I was about to approach her when I heard a male voice too. "Rachel Berry, you were magnificent", I narrowed my eyes at that one, she loved that word when applied to herself.

I walked quickly, but saw the man hugging her, she was smiling, and some tears were running down her cheeks, "Thank you Daddy, you have no idea just how much that means to me!" I scoffed, I could have said that too.

"Where's Mommy?" she asked and I heard no response. But then again, Rachel's life was always perfect wasn't it? She was as perfect as she could, and I hated that too.

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Gregory was there, but where was Lucas? Had he seen me too? I had always called Gregory 'daddy' and Lucas 'Mommy' but I always felt it backwards. And yet, I never did anything about it. Sometimes I wished I met my biological mother, but then I turned and saw my fathers, whom I still owe so much, and it makes me doubt my birth mother could ever been as good to me.

I walked back to the backstage where the rest of the Glee cast rested, my hand was taken and my surprise was more than enough to make me yelp. "Oh Dear, did I scare you much, Rache?" he said and I smiled, my heart slowing down, and yet I felt disappointed, it was just Lucas. "Oh, sorry Lucas. Yes, you took me by surprise, that's all". He just smiled at me and my disappointment fled out the door. I was a very lucky girl.

Next thing I knew, I was left alone in the bathroom. Crying silently to who would never help me, and for once, I wished I wasn't Rachel Berry, the singer, the Glee Club Star, the ex fan girl of Finn, the one with a broken heart from Jesse st. James… I wished I was just Rachel, with no special talent.

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I was more than nervous, I had told Rachel, or almost, that I loved her. And my heart was still pounding in my chest, was that normal? I didn't know, but why was she taking so long? Well, she was a chick, so that meant she was probably in the bathroom.

I always wondered what chicks did in the bathroom, like, why did they need to go in groups? Maybe they did some stuff they needed help with… but then ho- concentrate Finn! I scolded myself. Rachel was late. Rachel was never late, as in…she'd kill something before that. I was pacing myself, and I saw Mercedez, "Hey Mercedez, did you see Rachel around?" she shook her head and continued to talk to Kurt.

I looked at Quinn, she was dozing off on Puck's shoulder and I smiled, even if I wasn't the father, I still wanted to help her. But then again, back to my current problem, I stopped pacing and I just asked out loud, "Has anyone seen Rachel? She's late". I said, as in to try to make a point. It was then when they started freaking out. Finally.

It wasn't until half of us left to get Rachel that we saw her coming out of the bathroom, rubbing her eyes. I saw the redness around them and I knew it was from crying. She froze when she saw us and her head just went low. Wow, I've never seen her do that before.

She kept her head dipped low and passed us all, walking fast into the room where the other half waited in, when the rest of us followed, I saw Mercedez and Quinn giving each other a weird look.

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Something was wrong, as in a very-very way, as in Kurt wearing simple jeans and a grocery store t-shirt with no accessories whatsoever, Rachel had been crying. Okay, you might not get it, but Rachel berry never cries. She did not cry for Finn, or Puck, or even Jesse and heck, girl. I thought someone died.

Quinn and I exchanged looks and I saw Finn seeing our small exchange, poor boy, he probably thought we were thinking of ponies or something. No offense to Finn, but he's not the smartest cookie on the pan. Quinn followed, her Prego steps faltering a couple of times. She was getting big, and that reminded me of talking with the other girls into making her a baby shower.

We walked into the room, and saw Rachel sitting. As in on the couch. Just sitting, not bossing everyone around, not practicing her winner speech, not listening to music or other's presentations… just sitting.

Quinn, Tina and I instantly went to her side, don't misunderstand me, I've never particularly liked Rachel, but she was a friend now. And she was obviously depressed, and it went further that any boy problem. This was serious.

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I sat next to Rachel and saw the look on her face, the glazed eyes, the red rims around her eyes, and no, she wasn't doing drugs. She had been crying, and hard. My baby kicked inside my rounded belly and I winced, but Rachel had a bigger problem now. My hand squeezed her shoulder and she bit her lip. I turned to Finn. "Get every guy out, except Kurt". it wasn't long until we were all alone.

"Now Rachel, you're going to tell us why you're so depressed. And no more lies". I watched her take a deep breath. And her next words shocked me to my bones, "I… I just wish for once, I wasn't Rachel Berry the Glee star, or the dancer, or the talented woman", under normal circumstances I would have rolled my eyes at her modesty, but I let her be for once, "and just wished I were just Rachel. No talents, not pressure. No tears."

This was big, and something nudged my conscious, telling me we were all going to be shocked for what she would say next.

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Glee doesn't belong to me, but my ideas, my imagination and this story does. Hope you liked it, first TV series story! Look for the next chapter, it should be out soon too. Please review and let me know what you think of this.

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