Warnings: Smut in the future. Also Xemnas is very OOC mainly because this story ignores what we learn about him in Days, 3D, and BBS (it would be way to creepy for me otherwise). So yes, he is more interested in regaining his heart in this version.

Disclaimer: Don't own, otherwise Saix and Axel would have still been friends, maybe even more.

He was wet and exhausted.

Spending three hours teaching the newbie the ropes was NOT fun. Especially when you are constantly being drenched instead of the target. Fortunately for the Demyx, it made it hard for him to summon his fire and set the annoying brat on fire.

Axel threw open the door to his room and flopped on his bed, not caring that he was getting the sheets wet. He still needed to write up his report on the review mission that he went on and give it to Saix. He wasn't looking forward to writing the report, but the sooner he wrote it, the sooner he would see Saix.

Saix….

Axel knew Saix before becoming nobodies, when they still went by the names of Lea and Isa. They were best friends as kids and they were inseparable. They knew each other since kindergarten!

Isa had always been the most important person in Lea's life. He would do anything to make sure that Isa was happy and keep him by his side as his best friend. When he was thirteen though, Lea discovered how deeply his feelings ran for his friend. He began to crave more out of their relationship, and wanted to push it further.

He was in love with Isa.

But Lea didn't pursue this new development. He was too much of a coward, afraid that Isa wouldn't return is feelings and want nothing more to do with him if he found out. It also didn't help that Isa was straight. The only relationships that kid was ever in were with girls (though Axel had to admit that those didn't last very long).

Regardless, those feelings never left Lea, and ten years later Axel still had those feelings for Saix, even though Saix bought the bullshit about no heart no feelings that Xemnas told him about.

Sighing Axel got up from the bed and changed into a dry set of cloths, throwing his wet ones into the hamper. He then proceeded to write up his report, all the while noting his complaints about their newest member. That kid was such a coward!

Twenty minutes later and he was walking down the hall to Saix's office. He was thinking about dragging him out of that stuffy office of his. They hadn't spent any time together outside of work the past couple of months, and Axel was starting to miss his best friend.

The thing about Axel was that he usually had a tendency to barge in without knocking. Saix always found it annoying and would ask him every time to knock before entering with no success.

This time Axel regretted not knocking.

The last thing he expected to see was the Superior pinning his SIC to the desk, with their tongues shoved down each other's throat.

The sound of papers hitting the floor snapped them out of their make out session.

It took Axel a second to realize that HE was the one who dropped the papers, and that they were now looking at HIM with unreadable expressions.

"I…umm…uh…." Was all he could stutter out as he quickly picked up his fallen report before running back to his room.

Pacing his room Axel desperately tried to make sense of what he just saw. When did this happen? How did it happen? Didn't they both believe that they were incapable of feeling? Wasn't Saix straight?

As the questions rushed through his mind, he couldn't help but 'feel'…betrayed? Odd, shouldn't he be jealous? It wasn't like Saix was his to begin with. And yet Axel felt like his friend was betraying him just by being with Xemnas. Xemnas was the one responsible for the destruction of their home and the loss of their hearts! What could possibly be appealing about that man?

The sound of knocking on his door interrupted his thoughts. Good, he was starting to get depressed. Maybe it was Xigbar that was coming to visit him. He was a cool guy to hang out with. The only downside was that he knew EVERYTHING that was going on so Axel had to make sure he didn't do anything that would result in black mail material.

Opening the door, he found himself face to face with the last person he wanted to see at the moment.

"Saix, what can I do for you," he said rather awkwardly, his mind drifting back to what he saw earlier.

"I'm here to collect your report on Nine," Saix said, his face expressionless as usual. It was almost as if Axel didn't walk in on them being intimate.

That bothered Axel more than he cared to admit and he just barely held back his growing temper as he went to retrieve his report. When Saix reached out to grab it, Axel pulled it back.

"Axel…"

"How long Saix? How long were you with the Superior?" He had to know. If it was recent, then maybe he could handle it, but if not, then why did he have to find out this way?

"I don't see how this matters," Saix huffed. He was starting to get annoyed with the redheads antics.

"I'm your friend Saix; friends tell each other everything."

"My personal life isn't your business," he growled out. He really didn't feel comfortable discussing his relationship with Xemnas with Axel.

"Well considering that I saw you with the man shoving his tongue down your throat I don't think that matters anymore," Axel snapped back. He was just barely able to hide the hurt as his eyes started to sting. No! He wasn't going to cry in front of him!

Saix, on the other hand, was struggling to keep his temper in check. It didn't help that Kingdom Hearts was shining through Axel's window and if he wasn't careful he could slip into berserk mode. He already felt himself start to slide into it. "We have been together for two months, are you happy now." Oh yeah, he was starting to lose control.

Two…months…? Was that…was that why they hardly saw each other? Did Saix really prefer spending all his free time with Xemnas?

"I…I don't get it. I thought you didn't like guys that way."

"Not guys, just him." Saix admitted. He managed to calm down slightly, but not by much. He really need to make sure that he didn't say something stupid out of anger. As Isa, it always bothered him when the other got hurt, and it still bothered him now as Saix. It bothered him more than it should and he always wondered why.

Just him. Those two words echoed in Axel's mind. He felt a small part of him break. One some small level he always hoped that one day Isa would return his feelings, but that just died. Did he really have no chance with him?

"Why didn't you tell me?" Axel choked out. He was trying really hard to hide how upset he felt right now. He didn't want Saix asking him any uncomfortable questions about his attitude towards all this. If the blunette would believe that he was upset about not being informed about his new relationship then he was safe. "Does anyone else know about this?" Xigbar excluded.

"No we haven't told anyone, and we would appreciate it if you don't tell anyone else," Saix hissed at his friend. Crap, he was beginning to lose his control. Dammit!

"You didn't answer my first question: why didn't you tell me?"

"Just because we are friends doesn't mean I have to tell you everything." Oh crap, he really needed to end this conversation now. Please just accept that as a valid answer.

"I tell you everything," mostly.

"Well we didn't want people knowing!"

"You mean you don't trust me to keep a secret?!"

"You are one of the biggest gossips I knew growing up!" Crapcrapcrapcrap!

"I only gossiped to you! And I would never betray your trust!"

"Because if you did you would have been alone and friendless!" That was a very low blow. Had Saix been himself he would have never let this fight escalate and get so out of control. He would have just apologized for not saying anything and changed the topic just to end the stupid argument. Unfortunately thanks to the light coming from Kingdom Hearts through Axel's window he was just barely preventing himself from berserking, and right there and then he was unable to care that he crossed the line. And he just kept going. "Because of you I was constantly getting into trouble and no one else wanted to be my friend growing up! And it is also your fault that I lost my heart! If you hadn't been so insistent on sneaking into the castle then we would have been able to escape the heartless that day!" Had he stopped there, then their relationship would have returned to normal approximately within a month. But that wasn't the case, and with the next thing that came out of his mouth, they would never be able to go back to the way it once was.

"I never should have befriended you that day! That was the biggest mistake of my life!"

Axel felt like he shattered into thousands of tiny pieces; the one person he ever cared about hated him; blamed him for everything that went wrong in the others life. Shoving the report into the other with enough force to make the other stumble, he slammed the door and locked it. Feeling his eyes start to burn up he knew he had to get out of there before he broke down. Opening up a portal, he ran through it to god-knows-where and closed it behind him so no one could follow him.

Saix just scowled at the door before stomping back to his office. Had he been in his right mind he would have immediately sought out his oldest friend and apologized for everything that he said, telling the other not a word of it was meant. Instead it would take several hours for him to no longer be in a berserk inducing anger to realize the consequences of his actions and by then his pride would keep him from apologizing.