It had always been like this, as long as he could remember. His people dying, starving and begging for food.

But why was he the one? Couldn't it have been his brother?

But then again, it was his own choice. He couldn't possibly let his own brother nor his people experience the pain he was going through.

A soft sigh left the North Koreans lips as he closed his eyes. Leaning back on the chair as he tried to ignore the pain dwelling in him.

Since his people were suffering, so was he.

The lack of food wasn't anything good, but it was his bosses' choice. And he had to listen to his boss, whether he wanted to or not. And of course, he knew that his boss knew the best.

He opened his eyes again, just to gaze out at the big field, his own soldiers marching. It was dazzling, beautiful. This was the way it should be. But why did it feel so wrong?

Oh if they just knew what was hiding outside these borders.

His boss, had told him that all the other nations wanted to fight them, wanted to start a war. Because, North Korea was powerful and they all longed for that power.

But he knew it wasn't the truth, it couldn't be true.

There was a lot more nations more powerful than him.

''North Korea.''

He turned around, just to see his boss smiling at him, hands behind his back, a smile, how long ago was it he last saw a smile? But his boss smile wasn't the one he longed for. it was cold, and hard. No emotions what so ever.

Immediately the nation stood up, bowing before questioning ''Yes, sir?''

''The soldiers seem to be weak. They're not working hard enough'' The boss mumbled, staring out the field with cold eyes.

Weak..

Of course they were weak!

They barely got any food at all!

''I see.. What shall we do about it?'' the nation himself asked his boss, being sure to keep his voice steady.

His boss sighed. ''We will just have to train them harder.''

Again.

His boss had been keeping saying that as an answer the last three months, or was it five? he really didn't know, but it didn't matter.

''Understood, sir.'' North Korea said and walked over to the marching group.

His boss huffed. A cocky smile on his face as he watched the nation make his way to the group, the group immediately stopping as they saw the nation approaching them.

The rain was smattering against his window glass as he sat alone in his living room.

The only sound heard except the rain was the clicking of a gaming control.

He sighed, obviously bored by the weather and the game. He had already managed this game several times, and he couldn't think of anything better to do.

The nation stood up and made his way to the kitchen, fetching a glass of water.

He sat down at the kitchen table with the water glass in front of him and flipped up his phone. Maybe he could call someone? Like China or Hong Kong? The nation scrolled down his contact list, as he came upon a name he hadn't thought of.

North Korea.

He grimaced as he clicked on the name, to see the telephone number. Should he really call his brother..? He knew what his boss wanted. But.. North Korea was his own brother, and he couldn't possibly do something like that…

Or.. could he?

South Korea knew that he had to invite North over to success. He couldn't take the risk to do it in Norths' land, since he didn't know the consequences.. And it was way better in South Korea than North Korea.

Once he had made up his mind, he clicked on the number and waited a few intense seconds before he heard the familiar voice in the other end of the line.

''Anneyonghaseo, North!'' South Korea smiled, trying to sound cheerful.

''South.'' the twin brother greeted. ''what do you want?'' he added

''ehh… Nothing special..'' he answered, pondering about how he could ask him. It would probably be weird if he asked directly. ''So what are you up to?'' he asked hesitantly.

''…Nothing..'' The person in the other line answered uncertainly. ''was that everything?'' he asked

'' oh, no.. The real reason I called was because I'm bored, and wondered if you wanted to… maybe come over?'' he answered, feeling a bit embarrassed over the question. It would indeed be awkward if his brother didn't want.

Silence settled upon the two nations, South Korea almost thought North had hung up before the answer came ''I'm actually busy right now. But I'm sure my boss would let me come over a little while..''

South Korea smiled at that, it had indeed been a long time ago he saw his brother ''Alright! see you soon then!'' he said before the other one hung up. Sitting still at the kitchen table and letting his thoughts drift away.

After a few minutes the nation stood up, and started to walk to his living room, scrutinising a gun lying on the table. He took a shaky inhale and picked up the gun, hiding it behind his back in the trousers. Not that he could escape it.. It would be quick.

Suddenly a knock was heard in the silent house making South Korea to jump at the sudden noise. He sighed and faked a smile as he walked to the door, casting a quick glance at himself in the hall mirror before he opened the door, to be met by a soaking brother. ''North!'' South Korea smiled and let the older twin come in. ''You could have told me it was raining at your place.'' North sighed and took off his jacket, the water dripping on the floor. ''Haha, sorry I didn't think of it.'' He answered, receiving a silent nod from the other one.

''So, how are you?'' The younger twin questioned.

''Fine. Just fine.'' North answered. He was doing absolutely fine. His people being killed by protesting, or not getting enough food. Everything was fine.

''and you?'' he asked back, not really caring about the answer.

South Korea shrugged ''I'm doing fine.'' He said ''Samsung has become a great world seller!'' he smiled ''Not as good as apple but still..'' he added as an afterthought.

''Sounds.. interesting..'' North answered casually, not really knowing what else to say.

''yeah. I didn't think it would become such a success. Well, what do you want to do?'' He asked instead as he noticed he was loosing the others interest.

''um, we're at your place, I don't know what there is to do here.'' North Korea answered avoiding South's eyes.

''I could show you around, but it's raining right now so..'' South Korea said, moving his attention towards the window.

''Or we could just play a game.'' North Korea mentioned, even if he didn't have as great contact with South Korea now as before, he still knew that his brother liked, no, liked wasn't the right word, South Korea was basically obsessed with games.

South beamed up, a happy smile forming his lips, a smile that North had missed a lot. He had basically missed all his brothers enthusiasm. ''Yes! Let's play a game!'' his younger twin exclaimed and walked over to the living room again. ''Got world of warcraft?'' North asked him after he hang up his dripping wet jacket and followed South to the living room. ''Eh.. Sorry, no..'' South said with a grimace, he really didn't play any war games, the memory of war just disgusted him. ''That's fine. What games do you have then?'' North asked and seated himself in the couch.

''Well.. I mostly play 'creative' games, so Minecraft, Zelda, Mario and such.''

''Just pick one then'' North shrugged, he really didn't know any of those games, but maybe it would be fun.

The younger nation walked over to his TV and dropped down on the floor, going through all his games. And that was a lot of games. He put in a disk and then stood up and walked over to the couch. ''Zelda. That's a fun game'' he smiled and gave his brother the control ''do you know how to.. do?'' he asked gently. Just receiving a nod. Of course North Korea knew how to play, he wasn't stupid. As the prologue of the game begun, both brothers watched with great interest. South then explaining what he should search for or do. Actually, it looked like North was enjoying this. The younger brother couldn't help but to smile, he hadn't seen North relaxed for a long time, and it made him feel happy to see his brother relaxed once in a while.

South swallowed as remembered what his boss had told him, he really didn't want to do it.. But he couldn't possibly say no. he stood up. Not getting any attention from his brother, he walked to the hall and stopped, quietly turning around.

Just do it

You promised you would

South bit his lip, and with a trembling hand he took out the gun that was placed on his back.

Dammit! It's not that difficult!

with determination he aimed the gun at his brother sitting on the couch

it's not like you would kill him.. just.. make him weaker..

his bosses' words echoed in his head as he held his breath

Without any further thought, he pushed the trigger.

North Korea dropped the control, as he knelt down on the floor. A great pain spread in his body as he clutched his chest. But the pain wasn't coming from there, it was coming from behind him. He felt something warm and sticky trickling down his back as he coughed, trying to catch his breath that was fleeing.

What have I done?

South Korea quickly ran over to his brother and knelt down, stuttering inaudible words. North Korea just hit him away, making South Korea even more sadder. The betrayal and hurt was clearly seen in North Koreas eyes as he coughed some more. Apologising wasn't enough.

A/N

So that was it .-. omg poor North Korea ; A ;

I will continue with this fan fiction, but firstly

It won't continue from the part North got shot.

It will continue before that incident, when they were just children. But of course, I will also write the continuing of this, just a little later

I know this may seem confusing (And I'm just confusing myself even more) but you'll see when the next chapter comes out ^^

I hope this didn't go too quick, it felt like everything happened so quickly it's just confusing and crappy!

Well, I hope you enjoyed this first chapter ouo

And it would make me really happy if anyone reviewed! :D

DISCLAIMER; Hetalia nor it's characters belongs to me, it belongs to the rightful owner Hidekaz Himaruya.