Destruction
"I went through a lot, but I've finally managed to come home. And upon my return...
...I discovered my little brother posing as me!"
No. No, no, no.
They are all staring. Judging.
Stop. Please stop.
A voice.
"No... that can't be...!"
Ah. Trembling. I'm trembling now. Shivers run through me. Hot and cold. And I can't stop it. I couldn't stop anything.
It hurts.
Why. Why, why, why.
And I tried. I tried with all my might, and yet—
Liar.
Imposter.
Disappointment.
I didn't want to be the liar. But I had to. I had to. So I chose to become you, my big brother, and leave myself behind. For your sake. For everyone's sake.
I didn't want to be the pretender. But I had to.
I was just a spare.
A useless, weak and insignificant little brother.
But I was your spare.
My excellent, amazing big brother Ciel's extra.
That's who I was.
That's who I am.
My first Kuroshitsuji fanfic! A small drabble for the latest chapter (ch. 142), because damn... O!Ciel just breaks my heart. I knew this manga could get dark at times, but the chapters of the last few months have been really messed up. Ugh.
I tried to portray O!Ciel's inner thoughts and feelings with this little fic. Hope this is alright!
All the mistakes are mine.