This one deals with domestic abuse , so that's all the warning you are going to get it could get graphic not sure yet .. But their with be lost of Caskett ..

And I do not own Castle

How did she get to this point , how did I manage to let me life get this out of control …she asked herself as she looked around the room at the rubble that was now her life , she pulled herself up from the floor and picked up the phone .".Captain , she said in a shaky horse voice, I have some kind of flu or something I am going to need a few days off .."

'Kate is everything okay?,

"Yes sir, Just a little under the weather should be fine in a few days "

"ok then see in in a few days , take care of yourself Kate "

"Yes sir , thank you sir, bye" Kate hung up the phone and went to check the bedroom door , locked again letting out a sigh in defeat she walked to the bath room to asses the damage , she hurt all over . Kate turned on the bathwater then turned Stepping in front of the full length mirror she removed her clothes , her body was one big bruise ,

She and Castle had caught a movie since Josh had taken a shift ,then stopped and had a burger before she went home , josh had cut out early and had been waiting for her for an hour ,and he was not happy , the moment she stepped into the house his hands were on her taking her gun and locking it in the safe that he only knew the combination to ,then taking hold of her arm and jerking her to stand in front of him ,I called your cell and you didn't answer so I called your work they said you and castle had left hours ago .."where were you ?" he demanded

"I. I went to a movie and then got some dinner . I thought you were on shift so ..

"so you thought you would go out with your writer boy , while good oh josh was busting his ass at work , and so it would be the perfect time for you to hook up with him "

"No .. it wasn't like that " she said shaking her head , "we just went as friends I , you were working and I wanted to see that movie and castle had not seen it so he tagged along "

"bitch!, you live in my house you are my girlfriend, I will not have you whoreing around with him making me look bad !"

I'm sorry josh , I didn't think it would be a problem , I wasn't trying to make you look bad , she pleaded knowing his rage was building .

"shut up you ungrateful whore , I can smell him on you, " he spat

She took a step back away from him but she new it wouldn't matter , so she did the only thing she could do she took a deep breath and braced herself for what she new was about to come .

Shelooked at the bruising on her body it would heal enough in a few days for her to move better , so she slowly lowered herself in the bathtub ,

Trying to decide what to do , what could she do , she was stuck , she moved in with him thinking they had something and she wanted him to know she was committed to the relationship , but from the moment she had moved in he changed , he became more controlling then , he started hitting her , she was a cop things like this didn't happen to cops , so it embarrassed her , so she told no one , as always never asking for help, never wanting to seem weak, so here she was locked in their room again its what he always did leaving he phone so she could call work , knowing she wouldn't say anything else to them , and leaving her a few snack foods ,some drinks .. And a letter … after her bath she dressed in a Red oversized t-shirt that castle had given her when she stayed at he loft last year after her apartment blew up,, and a pair of Blue boy short underwear. Then reading the note Josh left for her ..

Kate ,

I'm sorry it had to come to this again , maybe if you would just learn not to piss me off , wouldn't have to be this way , I get off work a 5 today be ready you are going to apologize to me for your mistakes ,

Love

Josh

Kate busied herself by cleaning up the mess, making the bed , she ate a pack of crackers and drank a mocha frappuccino cold star bucks coffee .. How she longed for her cup of castle coffee.. After her snack and she finished cleaning the room she dug through her closet and pulled out one her hidden castle books ..laying across the bed and reading to pass the time ..

At 2:00 pm her phone rang,

"Beckett " she croaked

"Beckett you sound like hell"

"Thanks castle you always now how to make a girl feel better"

"sorry how are you feeling ? "

"I'm okay I will be as good as new in a few days …Castle I promise its just a little cold I will be fine .. Okay ?

"Okay if you say so , do you need anything ?, soup ? I can bring it to you.."

No I am good but thanks Castle "

"Always , Detective well call me if you need anything okay ?

"Okay Castle I will "

"see you soon "

"Yeah castle soon ."

"Bye Kate "

"Bye Rick"

By the next week everything seemed to be better Josh was his usual charming self and the bruising was fading at least what she could see of it but she had been very careful with what clothing she wore to work .

Kate was sitting in the now empty room at the 12th it was late Josh was on night shift tonight so she was working on the case .

It was hot in the room they had set the murder board up in so she looked around once she was sure no one was around she shed her over shirt leaving her in just a dark blue tank top then she pulled her hair back into a messy bun .

She sat staring at the board for another hour she stood and walked to the window looking out in to the New York night she opened the window and leaned onto the window seal to look out into the streets just as she leaned over she felt his presence , and knew he had seen her back ..

He was at her side in an instant .."Kate what happened to you"

"Nothing Castle I fell " she said not turning to meet his gaze

"Kate, that doesn't look like a fall ." he said touching the back of her neck softly , " Kate that is a hand print "..

She stayed still, not moving, unsure what to say or do, so she just stood there letting him look over her back , while she tried to come up with a excuse .

Castle gently lifted the bottom of her tank top to look at the lower part of her back . He winced at the dark bruising marring her beautiful skin .

"Kate, I want to know what happened ,"

Taking a breath and drawing all the courage she had in her she turned

"Castle, I am fine, I fell in the shower the other morning, its nothing , you really are a drama queen , I am fine"

Rick crossed his arms and stared at her not backing down . "Right and the hand print on the back of your neck is what exactly ?"

"Its nothing " she answered moving away from him

"That doesn't look like nothing " he countered as he followed her

"Rick drop it !"

She very rarely called him Rick so this put him on high alert

"I don't believe you" he said

" Fine Rick , you want to know what happened , you asked for it , sometime Josh and I get a little rough in the bedroom sometimes, are you happy now "

"so you are telling me, all that bruising is from rough sex ? , Kate I am all for rough sex, but come on that looks like you were hit with some kind of bar or stick ", he said as he tried to turn her around so he could get another look .

She smacked his had away from her shirt .."No Rick , I mean the hand print is from Josh grabbing my neck during sex , and the other is from me falling in the shower , her voice took on a sexy tone , a bit of advice Rick, Shower sex is awesome as long as you don't let your feet get soapy ".. She smile and shrugged her shoulders.

"Okay, if you say so" , Castle said in defeat knowing some how she was lying to him he could feel it . "Kate, just so you know, if you ever need anything, anything at all , I don't care what it is , and I don't care what time it is , call me .. ?

They stared into each others eyes for a moment then Kate answered with a nod .

"promise me Kate "

"yeah Castle I promise " she whispered .. Um I got to get home .. See you tomorrow "

"Until tomorrow Kate " he said stepping closer to her and running his thumb over her cheek .

"Share a cab?" Rick asked

" no I got the cruiser , I would give you a ride, but I really need to get home"

"Good night Castle"

He watched her until she disappeared behind the elevator doors ..shaking his head .. What the hell is she thinking ….