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Alois:Seriously do she has nothing else in her life
Pinstripe:Shutup -_-
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Why? Why did I say those words that are now burned into my skull? Why did I say those words I now regret? I call out my fighters name to no avail... "Soubi...Soubi...S-S-Soubi...soubi..." I pathetically weep
I still love him.
He loved me.
I regret everything, I regret saying what I said to him. I regret not taking it back. I regret breaking his heart.
My soul is gone. My soul was eaten up my memories. I once longed for memories, But I don't want them anymore. I just want him back. The memories I once wanted now burn. My memories. Are no longer precious to me, accept for the ones of him. Me. We. Us.
I shake, My whole body...shakes...
It has since I heard about what happened. I'm unstable, I can't take this.
I grip the first photograph we took together tightly...the first day we met, we held hands, we kissed. I pushed him away, I always pushed him away. I'm such a damn idiot. I knew I loved him I just couldn't admit that to myself. But now...
It's too late.
He's gone forever.
And...It's all my fault.
"RITSUKA! RITSUKA! GET DOWNSTAIRS THIS INSTANT!" I ignored the loud and angry call of my abusive mother. I don't have the strength to move. No. I don't have it i my heart to move. "RITSUKA! GET DOWN HERE! MY RITSUKA WOULD NEVER DO SOMETHING LIKE DISOBEY HIS MOTHER!"
After she was done screeching from the bottom of the stairs I heard footsteps clomping towards my room.
"RITSUKA!" My door slammed open, light flooding into my dark room, the menacing silhouette of my mother. She pushed me off of the bed and onto the hardwood floor, the sharp point of her heel hit my stomach repeatedly, she screamed in rage.
This normally would hurt. But right now i'm completely numb.
She kicked my forehead , blood gushing down my face. She resumed kicking me in the stomach, My body shook more, tears flowing like a waterfall. One final kick made me collapse ad shake pathetically as I vomited violently.
My throat burning as the gross liquid gushed out my mouth. I saw spots of blood mixed with the throw-up.
She stepped on my hand, I cryed out in pain, Vomit dripping from my mouth.
No Soubi to save me this time.
She grabbed my hair and pulled me to stand up, I tried to scream again but no sound came out. She dragged me towards the bathroom, My skin burning as it rubbed against the carpet. She tossed me aside my head clanking onto the toilet bowl, My vision began blurring.
"YOU'RE NOT MY RITSUKA!" She pulled me up, my legs not being able to support me. I saw that our bathtub was full. Why?
Before I could ponder it anymore, I felt water go up my nose, A hand pushing my neck and head into the water. Air was escaping me, I felt my lungs grow heavy. Am I dying? I can;t open my eyes so I can't tell. If I die will I-
Air.
I feel my hair clinging to me. Water pouring out of my gaping mouth. My mother half yelling half screaming but I can't make out the words coming from her mouth. I'm thankful yet disgusted by the air. My body wants to breath to keep living that's why I'm thankful, My mind can't take my life anymore that's why I'm disgusted by the air that fills my lungs.
"Soubi..." The only word I can mutter. Soubi. I'm sorry. Please come back. Please.
I'm losing consciousness, my mind is going with my vision. Maybe...
Maybe I'm dead.
"Ritsuka." I heard that voice call my name, That sweet voice that I now long for.
"I'm here Ritsuka..." I took in that voice, knowing this has to be a dream but if so i'm enjoying it. "You're lying."
"Why do you say that my Ritsuka?" I felt warm arms rap around me but I knew it was just my imagination running away with me. " You promised to never lie..." I sniffled uncharacteristically. "You're not here...You're gone...I should know it's my fault."
"Ritsuka, I would never lie to you." I felt lips as soft as petals touch my cheek and light blonde hair move.
"But Soubi." I gripped onto his shirt. "You are lying."
Gentle hands rubbed my shaking back.
"You are lying Soubi..."
Soft lips pressed against my neck.
"Because yesterday...you died...because I told you to."
Pinstipe:Give me the "emo of the year award" all my fics are so depressing
Alois:*Crying in corner*
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