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Author's Note: I decided to write this LONG one shot because I don't like how everything just went back to normal after Nathan was rescued. After 9.11 "Danny Boy", everything just went back to normal and in reality that would NEVER happen. There should of been an aftermath of this kidnapping, like how is Nathan going to get over this. So I wrote this one-shot to how I think Nathan would deal/cope with everything that just happened to him and how he'll overcome everything. I also added some new flashback scenes with Nathan and his kidnapper. If the show actually showed the aftermath of this I don't think everything would be back to normal so quickly, especially not for Nathan since everything he has went through nor Haley for that matter. So this is really a traumatizing emotional one shot that takes place between before 9.12 "Anyone Who Had A Heart".

This one shot is like huge, I wrote more than I expected so it's gonna take over a few chapters. :)

Flashback/Dream sequences are in italic font.

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Help Me Find My Way

Nathan walked out of the bedroom quietly, he slowly walked down the stairs, a creak coming from here and there as he transcended down the big staircase. As he entered the family room he flipped the lights on. Nathan walked over to the door, making sure it was locked up before checking the sliding doors to the backyard, he flipped on the pool and backyard lights scanning the scenery in front of him. Nathan sat down on the couch, taking a deep breath and rested his head in his hands. For the past week since he returned home it had been a routine. Nathan exhaled deeply, he didn't know what was wrong with him, he was at the point where he was afraid to leave the house, he was always making sure everything was locked in the house, doing all this was not like him at all, he never was one to be scared of anything but after going through what he did, he was. Nathan looked across from him, staring out the exposed window, his breathing somewhat heavy.

Haley stood on the landing of the stair case looking at her husband. The expressions on his face said it all, she knew he was scared even though she knew Nathan would never admit he was, she could just sense it and see it in his eyes. Haley walked down the landing stairs and walked over into the family room, she sat down besides her husband.

Nathan sat there in a daze, no clue his wife was even sitting next to him. He jerked, quickly turning his head after he felt a hand on his back. "Hey" Nathan sighed in relief when he seen it was his wife sitting beside him.

Haley really didn't know what to say, she knew she couldn't make this better. She knew she couldn't take the horror he went though out of his mind no matter how much she wanted to. "I was wondering where you went after I noticed you were gone" she forced a chuckle.

"I just came down here to get something to eat" he lied.

Haley nodded, she knew his excuse wasn't true but she wasn't going to make a big deal out of this, she couldn't. "You want me to make you something" Haley asked.

Nathan shook his head in response "No I'm good. Thanks though, babe" he smiled.

"Ok" Haley nodded. She put her hand in her husband's "Why don't you come back to bed with me baby".

Nathan looked at Haley and nodded "Ok".

The married couple both went upstairs hand in hand returning back to their bedroom and climbing into bed.

Haley cuddled close to Nathan, her head resting on his chest, her arm draped over his body and her leg between his. Haley looked up at Nathan who was staring at the ceiling "I love you Nathan".

Nathan looked at Haley "I love you too Haley James" he smiled. Nathan leaned down and covered her lips with his, kissing her softly.

Haley closed her eyes, feeling his lips on hers. She smiled against his lips as she felt his arm wrap around her. She rested her head back on his chest as they both fought to fall back asleep.

Haley woke up a few hours later, she looked up at Nathan who was surprisingly still asleep. She threw the cover's off her body, she reached up and kissed Nathan on his cheek "I love you Nathan Scott". She quietly climbed out of bed. She glanced over at her nightstand when she heard her phone buzzing. Haley reached over, grabbing it and quietly left the room. "Hey" Haley answered the call.

"Hey yourself" Lucas chuckled.

"3 calls in not even a full week yet, what do I owe this honor" Haley chuckled.

"Haha" Lucas said sarcastically. "How is my little brother doing" he asked.

Haley walked down the stairs and sat down on the couch sighing heavily. "He's Nathan, strong on the outside but scared and paranoid on the inside".

What are you talking about" Lucas asked.

"He's scared, Luke. I can see it in his eyes. He's checking the doors constantly making sure their locked" Haley bit her lip "He hasn't made it out of the house in like 4 days, not that I'm complaining because believe me I'm not" Haley sighed "I wish I could help him somehow. I wish I could take everything he went through out of his mind so he doesn't have to think about it".

"Nathan's strong, Hales. He'll make it through this. When he's ready to talk to you about..." Lucas was looking for the right word to describe what Nathan went through without being blunt "This horror he went through, he will. Just give him time".

"I am. I know he will" Haley said confidently, leaning back against the couch.

Nathan laid in bed asleep, he tossed and turned onto his side as he slept.

Nathan opened his eyes he was back inside that same place he was once before, he was in the chair he spent almost the last two weeks in, only this time he wasn't restrained, he glanced down behind him seeing them on the floor already untied. Nathan breathed heavily as he stood up looking around the room, everything was exactly the same, the table was still there dominoes displayed on the table with a liqour glass and a bottle of jack. "Not again" Nathan mumbled. He walked up the old dark stairs. Nathan could sense someone was following him. He swiftly turned around coming face to face with Dimitri. His eye widen as he seen the familar face, he took a few steps back away from Dimitri. This couldn't be happening again.

Dimitri chuckled evily as he watched the young man back away, fear in his eyes. He held a gun in his hand.

"Just let me go. I'll give you every damn penny in my name" Nathan continued backing away, Dimitri stepped closer and closer as he back away. Nathan stopped dead in his tracks when he felt someone behind him. Before Nathan could turn around he felt some yanking his arms behind him and tying them back up with the restraints he was once in. Nathan struggled trying to pull his arms out of the restraints "Let me go" he growled at them.

A cell phone ringing filled the room. Dimitri chuckled as did Sergei.

"So wise, so young. They say never do live long" Dimitri pointed the gun at Nathan "Now Nathan Scott, you are going to die" he said in a thick heavy serbian accent. He laid his finger on the trigger. "I'll tell you what, Nathan Scott. I'll kill you instantly so you don't have to go through pain" he snickered.

"NOOOO" Nathan screamed as he heard the gunshot go off, the bullet flying directly at him.

"NOOOO" Nathan's eyes flew open jumping up in the bed breathing heavily and sweating. He looked around his surrondings. After noticing he was in his own bedroom, Nathan rested his head in the palm of his hands. "Why" he mumbled to himself.

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