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Title: "Overflowing Hidden Emotions"

Author: tokiya-kun18

Fan-base: Shugo Chara!

Pairing: Nagihiko Fujisaki/Amu Hinamori

I thought that I already sorted my feelings. I thought that I already found the person who's in my heart. But I guess I was wrong. Things got complicated and it made me confused . . .

With Tadase-kun, it was merely "young love". I liked him ever since I first saw him at school. I believed that it was love-at-first-sight.

And it was . . .

But now, as time flew for by, I never felt the same for him.

It eventually evaporated and I could only see him as a friend.

People called this a "crush", don't they?

He was my very first. The one and only. But it was not the same anymore.

Friendship. We created a strong bond with others through hardships we'd faced.

I felt happy, secure, safe and warm inside as I meet every single one of them.

I held them dear in my heart.

It would be hard to break and tear us apart. For it was too strong and we never thought of betraying one another.

But there went the day when one of us became different . . .

No. It wasn't "became"; it was "always".

I never knew that that person would be hiding such a deep secret from me.

And now, it was revealed.

I followed Nagihiko as I heard him call out to me. We went outside the school campus, at the park under the cherry blossom. I was quite puzzled since I felt that something is different from him.

His face showed a large amount of seriousness and at the same time, anxiety. I realized that a very difficult conversation would come up between the two of us.

I gulped and clutched my fist hard to ease the emotions overflowing. I didn't really understand, but I felt insecure and my body was shaking out of fear.

Fear. But for what? Why should I be experiencing such emotions over our coming conversation? Was it because I felt something was wrong? I never came across the answer as Nagihiko suddenly spoke up.

"Amu-chan," he started, looking directly in my eyes. There was a sudden tension in the atmosphere engulfing us. I returned his gaze over me and did the same. "How would you react if I say that both Nagihiko and Nadeshiko is me?"

Feeling confusion taking over, I asked, "But you said that you're twins, right? It wouldn't be much of a surprise . . ." My words lose its trail as I saw him shook his head.

"It was a lie." He closed his eyes and turned his head to the side, avoiding eye contact. "Nadeshiko doesn't exist."

My eyes widened and my heart was thumping like crazy. "Nadeshiko doesn't exist"? How could that be? We spent our days together back then and I could confirm that she's real. It's all because she's my best friend. She was always there for me whenever I need her yet, why did he say such lies?

"Impossible," I said to myself. My hand moving upwards to cover my mouth. I could only stare at him and let him speak, but I felt that it was wrong. So I retracted my hand and continued, "But I know that she's real! She exists! Nadeshiko is my best friend and we have treasured our moments together!"

"But have you seen her?" I could tell that he was trying his best to look at me in the eye. I shook my head slowly as his question registered in my mind. My body was shaking as I could predict what would happen next.

"Whenever Nadeshiko was with you, I wasn't. And whenever I was with you, she wasn't here. Did this ever cross your mind?" he asked as I shook my head for a reply once again.

"It's because the same person can't be there at the same time. Nadeshiko and I are only one. This is no—"

"Enough!" I shouted; I couldn't take this anymore! Tears were welling up in my eyes and they dropped carefully and slowly to the ground just like rain from the sky. These were all lies. I couldn't bear it. I didn't want to believe anything. All these past events that I've shared with the two of them... It was with only one person all along?

My legs felt weak that I thought it wouldn't be able to support me any longer. My vision was blurry and I was getting dizzy.

"Amu-chan . . ." Nagihiko stretched his arm to touch me, but I evaded. I backed away from him and shook my head a couple of times.

I didn't understand it. I simply did not! Everything was getting more confusing now. I couldn't take it.

Not being able to hold back anymore, I cried and ran away from the place; leaving Nagihiko behind, watching my retreating figure.

Ever since that day happened, I could never look at him. I tried many times to approach him, but failed and resulted to me, avoiding him more. I could feel his eyes upon me, but I never did return any of it.

Not even the day when he had to move . . .

I was there, along with the others. Though it was different and I couldn't care less.

This wasn't my character. What's happening to me?

I promised myself that we would remain friends forever, supporting each other, but now, why?

It was different from the usual. I wasn't acting like myself anymore.

I stood there and listened to them bid their good-byes to him. All that was left was me. They waited for my response, but I couldn't care more.

"Good-bye. Take care," I said apathetically. I was pretty sure that my face was unreadable. I avoided their glances at me and looked away. Far away from this place, my mind drifted. It might appear to them that I didn't care the slightest bit about this whole issue, but they're entirely wrong.

It's just that his confession of his secret shocked me really much that it kept on repeating inside my head, over and over again. I wanted to search for the answer; to come upon a reason why he did it. I wanted to ask him, but it was all too late to go back.

My emotions were telling me otherwise.

So in the end, I kept it all inside me. I didn't share them to the others like I usually would. I could only feel that it was only right to keep it. But one thing was for sure, I didn't know that they already knew about it. They knew, but kept it from me.

I could hear his response now; him nodding and saying the words, "I will."

And when I was able to lift my head up, he was already gone.

I hadn't caught sight of him ever since.

It was all my fault. My fault that I didn't listen and try to understand.

But when I was ready, all of it was too late.

i've edited this story since the errors were bugging me. i hope this is much easier to read than the first one. ^ ^ please, do share your thoughts about this story after reading. i would love to hear/read your comments regarding this.

i also apologise for the ooc-ness of amu here. this is my first ever shugo chara! story, and i'm not quite sure of her personality. well, maybe i do and it was intentional because this is angst, after all. still, i'm sorry for the ooc-ness.