A Girl Can Dream

By: Nicole Lopez

Disclaimer: I am in no way associated with the production of Degrassi and I do not own any characters from the show.

Chapter: Somebody Would Sweep You off Your Feet Someday

Everyone is paired up at Degrassi these days. Liberty has her boyfriend Mike and Manny has moved onto my brother. Even Ashley and Craig are back together. I know one of the things that is keeping me from being involved in my first real relationship is my brother. Spinner can be so over-protective that it's annoying sometimes. I remember the time that JT asked me out on a date. I only said yes to get back at Toby, but it was really fun … until Spinner showed up and left JT hanging on a pole by his underwear.

Ever since then, I haven't been able to get a guy to talk to me or even look at me … until Sean. He was Ellie's boyfriend back then and when the whole thing happened with Jimmy … I knew he was different. At first, he came around a lot and he and Spin just sat around, neither really talking about what happened, but both thinking about it…

"It's not your fault." Kendra tried to console Sean, who had spent the night at her house. He and Spinner had gotten to be better friends and no one else was really able to understand the whole shooting.

"I killed someone Koki. Me. Rick didn't just take the gun and ax out himself." Sean turned away from me, looking down.

"So you honestly think you're a killer? Cameron, I've known you since … I've become apart of the Mason family and you're better than that. You would never do anything …."

"But, I did Koki. This feeling is worse than anything that I've ever …"

"Get over yourself Cameron." Kendra responded. "If saving someone's life is the worst thing that's happened to you, then your life is perfect." She continued.

"You know that's not the worst thing. It's just all of this … and my parents--"

"Your parents? You didn't have to watch your parents get massacred in front of you in the middle of a civil war did you?"

"Koki, that's not what I meant." Sean tried to explain.

"Did you!" Kendra shouted louder, standing up and looking down at Sean who was laying down on a hammock. "You have no idea what it's like to really have it hard, no idea what it's like to lose everything and…" Her voice faded as Sean stood up too.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that Koki." He hugged her gently as part of her perked up. This was the first guy to touch her in … forever. Even if the story she had made up was only partly true, it made Sean feel better and she couldn't stand to see any of her friends so depressed.

"It's cool. Just stop the whole feeling sorry for yourself deal and we'll call it even." Sean nodded, still seeming down, but not as down as before. We sat in silence for a while, with him looking at me and me looking away, I knew that if I didn't tan so easily, my cheeks would be burning red. "What is it?" I finally asked, holding my breath in hopes that it would be good.

"I was thinking … maybe I shouldn't come back to Degrassi next year."

'What? How could I survive a year without you?" Kendra wondered, instantly feeling embarrassed as Sean looked at her surprised. "Well, you're like my best friend now and I totally get what you're going through." She recovered.

"There are just some things that I need to settle with my family," Sean responded, flattered that Kendra really cared about him. True friends were hard to come by.

"And you're gonna just leave me in boring old Degrassi to sit around and wait until you decide to write?" Kendra sat back down.

"Or come home." Sean smiled and laid back down as Kendra nudged him. "Yea, that's the plan."

"You suck. You are so much like my brother…"

"Am I?" Sean moved in closer, inches from Kendra's face. Both paused, looking deep into each other's eyes. He was so confused at the moment that he wasn't thinking straight. Clearly Kendra was still a little girl in his eyes … even if she had physically changed drastically. Somehow, she was the only one that was getting it because Ellie always had to have everything be surrounded on her issues and Emma demanded too much. Being with Kendra was just … comfortable.

"Hey! Sean, get in here quick!" Spinner yelled,

"Koki, I better … go." Kendra nodded, trying to conceal her disappointment. Once again, her brother had got in the way of … everything. She sighed, feeling the weight of the hammock lessen. Sean turned around suddenly and kissed Kendra on the cheek. "In case I don't come back." He explained while she nodded. This was her life … safe, boring, over-protected. If only she could have one night where all of her dreams came true, where she admitted to Sean that she loved him and that … she would literally do anything to have him …

That was months ago and yet Kendra had dreams about it every night. All she could think about was how one of her best friends moved away without really saying goodbye. She had some things she wanted to tell him, but never got a chance to. Kendra sighed. All she had left were her thoughts.

"Would you get up Koki? You're gonna make us late!" Spinner yelled as she tossed on a pair of torn jeans and a 'Boys Sux' t-shirt. It's not as if any would be looking anyway.

"Would you hurry up?" Spinner yelled as Kendra ran out of the house, hoping that her hair looked okay. She'd tried something new that she saw in Seventeen magazine and she was in grade eleven now …

"Hey sunshine," Sean said as Kendra ran over to him, jumping into his arms.

"I thought you were gone for good." They both enjoyed this moment of pure bliss before Spinner intervened.

"Ahem."

"What?" Kendra jumped down as Sean looked over at Spinner.

"You're too close." Spinner threatened as Kendra rolled her eyes, holding back the urge to flip him off then and there. Instead, she asked, " What are you doing here?"

"I'm back for good." He smiled.

"And you didn't tell me?" Kendra punched him in the arm, hating to be the last to know what was going on.

"You know now." Spinner responded. "Now, get in the car."

"Okay," Kendra sighed, holding Sean's hand for a while, just because she could. "This is so awesome."

(A/N: For some odd reason I wanted to do a romance story between Sean and Kendra. I'm basing it off this song we have to dance to, so I hope you'll enjoy. Please be open to it even though it involves Kendra and Sean. There are strange couples out there … And it won't be more than six chapters long. Make sure to review! –NL)