Note: If you're reading this make sure you have read Never Let Me Fall first or else this story won't make sense to you. You may follow it, while you're reading the other story and once you've finished, you can easily catch up with this story if you're interested. For those that already read the other story, this is sequeled to it to continue onto Season 5. Enjoy!
A Drop In the Ocean
'Dear Diary,
I know- I know, I haven't been writing in you in like... ever! But everything has been happening so fast lately. I never got the chance. Everyone's changed. Everything has changed. Even I, myself, have changed in one point of my life. There's SOO many things I want to tell you, yet so little time. So I'll just give you the short version. Caroline, Elena and even I had turned into vampires. Tyler is a hybrid. We've met the Originals...the oldest vampires in the world...from them all the vampire species exist. Jeremy became a hunter of the Five and got killed by Silas, the first immortal being to ever walk the earth. He had the cure for vampirism, which turned out to be only one dose. I've found out I was a doppelgänger, of Amelia/Veronika Petrova. Ironically, she's Katherine's sister, making me part of the 'Petrova bloodline'. And also, you're probably not going to believe me, but Stefan and I finally found our way to each other. It's a LOONG and complicated story, but long story short, we're finally happy together. Elena's with Damon, even though the sire bond is over. Matt, sadly, is the ONLY human, from our group, that has survived this supernatural chaos... Melissa had turned to a vampire too. And Bonnie's dead. Melody, her half-sister, Jeremy, and I are the only ones that know she's dead. The others don't know...yet. Anyway, Caroline, Elena and I are all going to College. Yup, we've survived that long! LOL! Our little drama is finally over for now. But that doesn't mean a new one shall appear. Anyway that's all I got to say. ~
Opps! I almost forgot again... Silas is gone, Jeremy and Melissa are back to life, Melody's a vamp-witch, Caroline and I are best friends, my sire bond with Katherine is over, since she's human now, and something's wrong with Stefan and I. I don't know what it is, but I can sense it. I just have a strange feeling something bad is about to happen...' That's where I stopped and trailed off. I shook my head slightly and closed my diary shut and sighed.
I never understood why, but ever since Graduation ended...I felt strange. It was as if something bad was about to happen soon. I didn't know what it was or who it was for but... I could almost...sense it... "Writting in your journal again?" I heard a voice say. I flinched and snapped my eyes up seeing Silas leaning near the doorway. I sighed slightly forming a small and painful fake smile. "Yeah- I...haven't written in a while." I told him. He looked at me for moment then shrugged it off.
"Are you okay? You seem...upset." He wondered curiously. "As if you care, but I'm fine it's just... I heard there's gonna be an 'End of Summer' party back in Mystic Falls and for some weird reason I feel..." I started to tell him. "You feel...homesick?" He finished. I grinned sheepishly, trying not to smirk or think of how my friends will figure out a way to kill him. "Yeah. That's what I meant. Homesick. Crazy huh?" I pointed out. "Well, we can go. If that's what you want, Ana." He told me. I looked up at him slightly and smiled once more with no sincerity.
"Sure...Let's go back to Mystic Falls.."
Elena
'Hey Elena, what's up? You guys have no idea how much I miss you. I've been emailing with Jeremy... he says it's surreal to be alive. If Katherine ingesting the only cure on this earth and having to live a human life isn't justice, I don't know what is. I miss you guys. I'm glad you're having a great summer. P.S Have you heard from Ana and Stefan?' - Bonnie
After reading Bonnie's text, I froze slightly while reading the last part.
Have I heard from Ana and Stefan?
Of course not! They hadn't called me nor texted me this entire summer. Damon remembered overhearing them talking about taking a trip to see the capitals the night of Graduation day. He told me, and said they'll be fine...but for some reason I kept thinking about Stefan. I kept dreaming about him freguently...and if that isn't bad enough I felt like something bad is about to happen. Especially when I think about Ana. Gosh, I hope she calls me soon. Not hearing from her worries me. Just like not hearing from Stefan.
As I was in deep thought of it, I heard Damon ask, "You okay?" I looked back at him. I didn't want to really worry him with my problems, but he's my boyfriend now so...he should know. "Yeah, I've got this weird feeling that something bad's about to happen." I told him half. There was no way I'd tell him the other half yet. "Well, it is. You're leaving tomorrow. You're trading all this for communal showers and a meal plan." Damon pointed out. I sighed slightly. "Can't you be a normal boyfriend and support me as I attempt to have a normal college experience?" I asked him slightly. "I'd rather ply you with champagne and spend the night trying to convince you to stay." Damon told me.
I giggled slightly at that thought as he leaned towards me to kiss. This whole summer I've finally been happy. My brother's alive, our dramas are over, and I have an incredible boyfriend. Everything was going so well it was impossible to be unhappy. Yet the minute Damon left the bathroom, my smile faded away. I sighed and looked through my phone at the contact list.
I saw Ana with my 'A' contacts, but knowing her, she'd probably won't pick up. For some reason, I felt as if she was avoiding me rather than being busy. You can be busy, but you can't be too busy to reply or respond back to a text, email, or phone call, right?
I shook my head slightly and went down to the 'S' contacts. I saw Stefan's name. I debated over whether I should call or not. I sighed slightly and closed my phone and placed it down, deciding against it. I soon took in some air, before sliding down into the bathtub, feeling the water swallow me in.
As if it were trying to tell me something?
Stefan
"How long are you going to keep this up?" She asked me.
"What do you mean?" I asked in denial.
I knew exactly what she was talking about.
"This whole summer, you've been locked up in this safe, hallucinating about me, Damon...and even Elena sometimes. How long are you going to keep doing this? 10 more weeks? 20 years? An eternity?" She told me. I sighed slightly. "What do you want me to do? I feel awful Ana. I feel..." I started out.
"Hurt? Sad? Mainly, miserable? Stefan, I've heard it all before. You have a choice. You can either fight it and have hope that someone will come and rescue you? Or...you could just shut it off right now. It'll be easy and you won't feel miserable anymore. No more pain. No more suffering." She whispered near the end. It almost seemed compelling. "I can't. I don't want to turn into him again. I don't want to become the ripper! Remember how long it took me to get back to my humanity?" I asked her.
"Your humanity is what's killing you! I understand why you won't turn it off, since you can't turn it back on...but what I'm trying to say is maybe...maybe there's another way." She told me. I looked her in disbelief. "How!?" I asked frustrated. "By shutting it out. Don't shut off your emotions...shut it out instead! Try putting a block on your emotions for a few minutes. It can be done, Stefan. You're mentally strong enough to do it." She explained to me.
"How can it be done? Huh? Name one person you know who's done it and still was able to have their humanity in the end?" I asked her. She was hesitant and said, "I've seen my sister do it, but I've never seen a vampire do it." She informed me. I chuckled bitterly at that thought. "You don't understand, Ana. I can't turn it off, nor can I shut it off. That's just who I am! And you're gonna have to accept that. I'm sorry." I told her. She looked at me slightly disappointed.
"No. I'm sorry, Stefan. I'm sorry for thinking I could help you, when clearly, I'm only making it worse for you. I just hope someone finds you soon. Hopefully, it'll be me..." She trailed off. I nodded slightly.
I didn't know who would help me escape. Hopefully it might be Ana, but I always thought Damon might put two and two together faster and get Ana or the others to help me. Either way, it doesn't matter... I just hope I'll get out of this depressing water hole eventually...
Damon
"Damon! Have you seen the...holy shit!" Melissa muttered as she entered the living room. I understood her reaction as she stood next to me.
"It's been a long summer, Damon." Katherine informed me. Her appearance was a mess. God, she looked horrible! "Katherine." I said slightly in disgust. Melissa stood frozen in her place looking at Katherine in horror. I swear she looked like she was about to throw up from what she was seeing.
Once again..I couldn't blame her.
~Few hours later~
Katherine was busy drinking bourbon. Melissa and I just watched her drink away her misery. "You're gonna have to cut me off soon. My tolerance is a joke now. It's just so... glorious." Katherine informed us. "You're miserable." I stated the obvious. "Please. I'm Katherine Pierce- I'm a survivor." Katherine stated. "Yeah, and you're also a terrible liar. I mean, when was the last time you looked at yourself in the mirror? Combed your hair? Maybe even took a bath?! You're human now...it sucks. And you came here because..." Melissa trailed off glancing at me. "You want me to turn you back into a vampire? Fine, whatever." I decided. I bit my wrist open and went over to Katherine, holding it out. "Go ahead, drink up. I'll kill you, you'll bite the mailman, you'll be a vampire again. Go ahead, come on." I encouraged her slightly. She hesitated slightly considering it. "I can't, okay? No one has ever taken the cure before. If I die, there's a good chance I may never wake up." Katherine told him. "And that's bad because...?" Melissa wondering, seeing no point on how Katherine's death would have an effect on anyone. I agreed with her. Besides... a part of her hates Katherine, cause she killed her sister. Sure she's a vampire now and is still 'alive' but still...she killed her, really.
"It wouldn't be bad for you, but it would be for you, because I know, deep down... in that mushy gushy Elena loving heart, there's a part of you that doesn't want me to die." Katherine persuaded me. I looked at her hesitant for a moment.
Was she actually playing games with me now?
In her condition?
I wanted to tell her off, but for some reason I couldn't come up with anything except for, "What are you doing here, Katherine?" Soon the phone rang. Katherine quickly picked it up. "Salvatore residence. Hello, Principal Weber, this is Elena. Oh, dear. We'll find him." Katherine acted out on the phone. Melissa rolled her eyes at her performance. "So Jeremy's been expelled. Elena will be cool with that, right?" She asked rhetorically, after hanging up. I narrowed my eyes slightly.
That boy just keeps getting into trouble.
"When I get back, you're gone." I straightened it out for her. "Wait, Damon. There's someone chasing me." Katherine warned me. "Then run. It's the only thing you're good at anyway." Melissa pointed out. "You guys don't get it. You don't understand. I have enemies everywhere! What happens when word goes out that I'm a human? I can't protect myself! I'm weak and I'm slow- Do you have any idea what it's like to run in heels?! I have blisters, Damon! Please, just... help me." Katherine actually PLEADED! I looked at her unsure what to say or do. Melissa held the same expression. "Fine." I struggled out.
"Damon!" Melissa exclaimed.
I looked at her and shrugged. She glared at me slightly and gritted, "Kitchen. Now." She soon sped off to the kitchen. I followed her close behind and closed the door on the way in.
"Are you insane?! She can't stay here!" She started out. "She has no place to go or stay. She's on the run as usual, and you're gonna watch her while I'm gone." I told her. She looked at me as if her favorite T.V character was just killed off. "Have you lost your mind!? I can't babysit her! I hate her! I'll probably rip her apart the minute you leave!" She stated. I narrowed my eyes slightly.
"Let's think back on it shall we. Yes, she killed Ana, but she's still 'alive' isn't she? Sure she's undead, but so are you. And besides... if it wasn't for Katherine, the veil wouldn't have been down and you wouldn't have come back and be brought back alive. If you help protect her, consider it you're both equal." I reminded her. She looked at me stunned and gapped slightly, but couldn't come up with a comeback. I smirked slightly.
She looked cute when she's annoyed...wait...where did THAT come from?!
"But...fine, gosh-geez! I'll 'protect' her." She told me, mocking the word protect. "Good. Make sure she's safe and secure." I told her. She rolled her eyes slightly. "Whatever, but know this...you owe me BIG time, Salvatore!" She stated with a glare, before walking off. I grinned slightly at my taunt and left the kitchen behind her.
Ethan
"Hello, Cafe' espresso! I'm Carly Argent and this is my skit called "Poetry of the week". You voted, we rigged or well, 'picked' one and here's the poem of the week. Truth by Barrie Wade." Carly started out on stage. Everyone clapped and a few cheered. I couldn't help but help clap with the audience too.
"Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can also hurt me. Stones and sticks break only skin, while words are ghost that haunt me. Slant and curved the words-swords fall, to pierce and stick inside me. Bats and bricks may ache through bones, but words can mortify me. Pain from words can leave scars on mind and hearts still tender. Cuts and bruises now have healed; it's words that I remember..." Carly sang off gracefully with beat as she played her guitar.
Everyone liked it.
I LOVED it.
"Ethan." She called out when she saw me walk up to her as she got off stage.
"Carly, that was amazing. You seriously need to go to L.A one day. The more I hear you sing; the more you make Lady Gaga sound like shit!" I informed her. She smirked slightly and rolled her eyes. "You're just saying that because you love me." She told me. I gave her a sheepish smile. "Yeah...that too.." I teased. I gave her a quick peck on the lips but she pulled away quickly before anything could happen.
"Ah, ah, ah! Not at work and YOU know it." She informed me. I puffed slightly. "Come on, Carly...we're in MYSTIC FALLS now! We're not in Atlanta anymore. We're in college, starting by tomorrow will be our classes. And...we're all alone with no parental authority telling us what to do..." I informed her. She grimaced slightly. "Stop wiggling your eyebrows. It's not sexy." She demanded me. "But it is cute, right?" I wondered. "No." She stated, immediately. "Anyway, I gotta get back to work. These tables ain't gonna bust themselves. I'll see you at the 'End of Summer' party, k?"
"K. I'll see you tonight." I agreed. "Good." She said before walking off. She soon stopped mid-way and turned to look at me before admitting, "Okay...maybe it's a little cute..." I smirked expectantly and left the Cafe. Knowing she'd probably kill me for making her admit it out loud.
Elena
Caroline and I were watching as the police deputies were taking away Megan's body.
I couldn't believe she was dead.
Caroline and I stood in shock, yet refused to give the investigator information on Megan's phone whereabouts, even though Caroline had it well hidden at the moment.
"Caroline..Elena?" I heard a voice say behind us.
I was in shock.
Was my ears playing tricks on me.
Caroline and I both swayed our heads behind us to see it wasn't a prank.
"ANA, OH MY GOD!" Caroline nearly shrieked out excited, forgetting how we just lost our roommate nearly an hour ago. Caroline ran up to Ana and hugged her back tight. "God, I've missed you so much! You haven't called me in 2 weeks! I got worried." Caroline told Ana, who shrugged her shoulders slightly. I looked between them surprised and a bit hurt.
She had last contacted Caroline 2 weeks ago, never contacted me at all for the past 3 months, and Caroline never told me she was talking to her?
"Elena...it's been awhile." Ana told me. I nodded slightly, deciding I'll ask her why she never called me later. "I've missed you so much. You know...people still call nowadays." I informed her after giving her a hug. "Yeah..well you know...I've been, busy." She told me. I nodded slightly. "Yeah..busy." I breathed in to myself.
Something soon came to me, but before I could say anything Caroline started out, "So...you're here for college now?" Ana nodded. "Yeah. My trip's done, I've gotten a chance to explore around to...mature a bit...and I think I'm ready for college challenges now. I can't wait!" She informed Caroline, who grinned in excitement. "Ah I can't believe we're all going in college now. You, me, Elena, Bonnie...if she ever gets back from her trip. It'll be perfect!" She chatted out. Ana and I couldn't help but smile at her enthusiasm.
"Um..by the way...did you uh...did you come back with Stefan?" I asked her. She looked at me briefly then nodded after hesitation. "Yeah, he's here. We had a fun time the whole summer." She informed me. I nodded in agreement. "Well, that's great. So..where is he?" I wondered curious. "I- don't know. He kinda just disappeared this early afternoon." She told me. "You guys were here earlier? Why didn't you tell us?" I asked her. Ana had a blank look on her face and shrugged her shoulder lightly. "We wanted to surprise you guys. Besides I think he went to meet up with someone and surprise him." She told me.
I wondered who it was, but mainly I thought of Stefan. Something didn't seem right. It didn't sound like Stefan to me.
"I guess I'll catch up with him later then..." I told her. She looked at me for a brief moment then smiled half heartedly, before looking back at Caroline. "I already picked out a room after looking through all the applications. I'll be down the hall if you need me." She informed us both. "That's great!" Caroline and I both said. Ana eyed me slightly. "By the way...where's Melissa? Surely I should see my undead sister back from the dead. I haven't seen her in months. Literally." Ana pointed out.
"She's living with Damon and Jeremy at the bordering house." I told her. She nodded slightly, yet never took her gaze off me. "That's good. I'll see you both in a bit. K? Bye." She started off, before walking away.
Once she was out of ear shot (vamp ones included,) I turned to face Caroline. "Hey, Care...did you see that?" I asked her. "See what?" She asked me. "It's Ana...something isn't right." I told her. "What do you mean?" She asked me. "When I hugged her...didn't you notice how cold she was? I mean, maybe I'm overlooking too much into things, but she seemed...distant. It was like she's Ana, but she's also not Ana at the same time." I tried to explain to Caroline. "Well, you're right on the cold part, but she's not human anymore. She's not warm-blooded. We're not either, we just take coffee and other warmer drinks and blood to warm us up so we won't be cold to the touch. Maybe she forgot to drink coffee or tea today or something." Caroline suggested.
"Why didn't you tell me she's been calling you this summer?" I asked her. "I didn't think it was an issue. Why, am I missing something?" She told me. I shook my head slightly. "No...its just...she never called me this whole summer, yet she called you and you never told me. Don't you find that weird?" I asked her. "It's not like she called me every day. She usually called when she wanted to talk to me to let out all her problems." She told me.
"Problems? What problems?" I wondered.
"I'm not suppose to tell you. If you want to know, ask her." She informed me. "Please, Caroline...tell me. I want to know what's going on with her. She seems... different." I stated. Caroline seemed torn and sighed deeply. "Fine, I'll tell you. She and Stefan...at least from her point of view, had been...distant lately." She told me.
"Distant? Distant how?" I asked. "Distant, in a way that he's keeping something from her. They've kinda been on and off this summer. Right now I don't know if they're on or still off right now, but the last thing she told me on the phone about it was that she loved Stefan, but she just didn't love Stefan the same way after graduation. I don't know what that means, but I hope they work it out. Also...you know what...I think I've said too much." Caroline trailed off. "No, Caroline.." I pleaded.
"NO! If you want to know so badly, ask her. I don't want any part of this." Caroline stated before walking off. I sighed in despair.
Now I'll never know.
Carly
Before going to the 'End Of Summer' party, I decided to have a quick session with Dr. Jackson. After signing in, I went to his office. As I entered, he was looking through sheets of paper. He looked up at me startled and said in surprise, "Carly? What are you doing here?" I cleared my scratchy throat and answered, "I'm here for another session." He looked at me baffled. "But our session isn't til next week." He informed me. I nodded. "I know but... I really need your help. It's about my dreams. Again." I told him. Dr. Jackson looked at me in concern and motioned me to take a seat. I did and he took a chair and sat across from me, but was still near me face to face. "What happened now?" He asked. "The same as usual..." I started out, "As always I'm in my car..."
'I opened my eyes and saw I was in New York in my car. Oh no, not again! I hear footsteps walk behind me. Knowing this I quickly unbuckle my seat belt and bolted out of my car door.'
"I get out and run to the automobile shop..."
'I ran to the automobile shop and got in the garage, locking the door behind me. The footsteps were getting closer. I quickly grabbed some gasoline and pour it all over the floor, being careful not to get any on myself! She was getting closer. I threw the gasoline to a broken window and ran to a wooden post. I opened up the emergency aid kit and took out a match. The door was soon broken down.'
"As someone approached me... I had no choice but to set the garage on fire."
'I lit the match and threw it on the gasoline, then threw the WHOLE box full of matches on the starting fire, making it grow. When I couldn't spot her anywhere, I bolted for the back door. She beat me to it.'
Tears started forming in my eyes as I continued, "And then..."
'"Please, no. Not again!" I screamed. "I'm not gonna hurt you, Carly." She told me with a smirk. "That's what you always say! You're lying!" I shouted at her, trying to come up with a way to escape her. "I'm not lying, I'm speaking the truth. I'm not gonna hurt you, Carly. I'm just hungry." She said with a smirk, before her eyes turned red. I bolted for an exist but found a dead-end. What are the chances! I hesitantly turn to face her. The minute I met her eyes, she sped towards me and fed on my neck. I screamed in fear trying to call for help. But it was too late. I soon blacked out.'
I was shaking and trembling from having to relive that thought. Dr. Jackson placed his hands on my upper arms to hold me still and prevent me from shaking wildly. "Carly. Carly. Listen to me. You're not in that garage. You're not in New York. You're in Mystic Falls and nobody's out to get you. You're safe and fine right here. In this small town." Dr. Jackson informed me. "I don't understand, Dr. Jackson. Why do I keep having the same dream over and over for the past 3 months? It's like a never-ending nightmare!" I cried out briefly near the end.
"From our past sessions, to me I think you're coming down with the syndrome called PTSD. It's Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. It usual occurs after an extreme emotional trauma that may have given you a near death experience." Dr. Jackson explained to me. I shook my head and stated, "But, I've never experienced anything that happened in my dream. Nor do I remember it. It all started after my 1 week trip to my Aunt's place a month before graduating. Ever since Graduation or during that week, that's when the dreams started. It became more realistic and a repeat once my boyfriend, Ethan and I moved here in Mystic Falls for college. He doesn't know about my mental dream problem and I hope it will stay that way." Dr. Jackson nodded, while writing down everything I said in his notebook.
"And you know what's stranger, Doc? I think I'm starting to sleep-walk as well." I told him. "And why would you say that?" He asked. "Because this morning I saw I was surrounded by sheets of paper on my bed. All of them had the same drawing on it and looked like it had been ripped out of my sketch book. You know, already that drawing is a small hobby of mine... but I don't recall ever drawing this." I stated holding up one of the drawings showing a dagger-blade like knife.
"What is that?" He asked in curiosity. "I can't remember. But it looks a lot like a knife. Why on earth am I drawing pictures of a knife in my sleep for?!" I asked feeling really worried and alarmed of my mental state. "I think a test is in order. Here are drawings we therapist use here for unconscious minds. Now, I need you to cleanse your mind completely. Don't think, just say the first thing that comes into your head when I show you a photo. There are no right or wrong answers. Just say what you see without thinking. Okay?" He informed me. I nodded and we started.
He showed me one glob photo.
"An abdominal Snowman." I guessed.
He showed me another.
"A butterfly."
He showed me another.
"Abraham Lincoln."
He showed me another.
"A pregnant woman."
He showed me another.
"A belt, I think?" "Don't think, just say." He reminded me. "Right, okay..." I remembered.
He showed me another.
"A panda."
He showed me another one.
"A wolf."
He showed me another.
"A pack of wolves."
He showed me another.
"Another butterfly."
He showed me another.
I froze slightly.
'vampire'... I quickly recovered and lied, "Another wolf."
"Hmm..." Dr. Jackson thought over. After writing down my responses our session was over and he told me to keep trying to not get stressed at work, take my vitamins, eat well and sleep early. With that I went in my car and drove off. Yet, I couldn't figure out why the first thing I thought about during that last photo was Vampire?
Melissa
"You can go now, you know?" Katherine told me as she was in the bathtub. "I'm suppose to watch over you." I informed her boredly.
God, Damon's gonna pay for this!
"While naked? I don't think so...you're free to go until I get out of this tube." Katherine informed me. I rolled my eyes slightly. "Yeah, whatever..." I started out. "Not that I'm concerned or anything, but...why do you hate me anyway?" She wondered, while shaving her legs. I scoffed slightly. "There are numberous reasons why everyone should hate you. I, personally, hate you because you killed my sister." I told her.
"She came back." Katherine pointed out.
"She's still dead. And you took that choice away from her." I informed her. "I'll let you in on a little secret. There's a reason why I turned Ana in the first place...it wasn't out of boredom or random...it was the only way to protect her." She informed me. "Protect her from what?" I wondered, why Katherine even cared about my sister. She shrugged her shoulders lightly. "I made a promise to protect her a LONG time ago, and I'm keeping it. Don't you dare ask why." Katherine informed me.
I looked at her for a minute before walking off. I went down the steps and soon heard someone entering the house. Damon must have come back early. I headed towards the entrance way and saw Stefan instead.
"Stefan?!" I said, surprised to see him after 3 months.
"Melissa. Hey." He started off. "Hey. It's great to see you again!" I started off giving him a hug. I felt a long chill down my spin and pulled away. "So um...where's Ana?" I asked trying not to sound alarmed. I didn't know what was going on, but I knew for a fact this couldn't have been Stefan.
"She's at the party. Where I left her." He informed me, "If you need me, I'll be in my room..." He soon walked off around me.
Once he was out of sight and ear shot, I started to panic a bit. I soon grabbed my cellphone and dialed Damon's number. "Come on. Come on. Pick up. Pick up!" I whispered to myself silently. I soon heard a sign of struggle upstairs and saw Katherine running down the steps in her robe. I dropped my phone and sped towards her. Damon got to her first and gave her over to Jeremy.
"Get her out of here. Don't tell me where you're going." Damon instructed Jeremy quickly.
Jeremy and Katherine soon ran off as 'Stefan' was slowly descending down the stairway. "God, you're slow." I commented. "Guess vamp-speed came with the upgrade." Damon figured. "Get out of my way and give me Katherine." 'Stefan' demanded us. "First drop the Stefan look." Damon informed him.
Soon 'Stefan', who I assumed must have been Silas, if he was 'borrowing' Stefan's face, started to chuckle slightly and smile.
"What?" Damon and I asked by his strange behavior and what he thought was funny.
~Hours of truth later~
"If I have to hear the word 'doppelgänger' one more time, I think I'm actually gonna have to learn how to spell it." Damon admitted.
"You say you don't believe me, and yet your mind is spinning at the possibility." Silas told Damon. "A), Get out of my head. B), I think I'd know if my little brother has an evil twin." Damon informed Silas. "Oh, we're not twins. See, when I became truly immortal, Nature retaliated by creating a version of me that 'was' killable. It's called a 'shadow self'." Silas corrected him. I shook my head in shock.
"So, let me get this straight...my sister is a doppelgänger, who has a cousin, who's a doppelgänger, and a boyfriend that's a shadow self/doppelgänger too? How many doppelgangers are in this world?! Do I have a doppelgänger out there too!?" I asked frustrated. I was still semi new to the whole supernatural thing.
I only got what Ana told me as a human, during the whole cure chaos.
This was all new to me...: The doppelgänger logic.
"I know it's a lot to take in..and no...you do not have a doppelgänger." Silas told me, "None that I'm aware of..." I was relieved slightly, yet still cautious. "Well, whatever you are, your plan didn't work. The cure's gone. What do you want with Katherine?" Damon asked Silas. "I could tell you, but wouldn't it be so much more fun if it were a surprise?" Silas suggested.
"You're not getting her. End of story. And also...where the fuck is my sister and Stefan?" I clarified to him.
He smirked slightly. "I told you... I left her at a party. She'll be fine for the time being. And as for Stefan...well...he's suffering...just like I suffered." He answered. Damon and I looked at him for a moment, then I heard someone else enter the house.
"Melissa? Melissa are you here?" I heard a familiar voice.
Oh no...this can't be happening...not NOW!
"Me...Silas." She whispered harshly once she joined us in the room. Silas looked at her slightly.
"Well, hello..Ana...how was the party?"
Ana
This was JUST GREAT!
"What's going on here?" I asked alarmed. "Ana sweetie, you need to leave right now, before this involves you. GO!" Melissa warned me. "No, Ana. Why don't you stay for a while. Enjoy the party." Silas told me. I struggled slightly, but obeyed. "Ana?" Melissa asked shocked by what was happening. "I'm sorry Melissa." I told her. My eyes teared up slightly that this was actually happening.
"Now...call the hunter, bring me Katherine and I'll tell you where your little brother is." Silas negotiated with Damon.
I smiled humorlessly.
He knew very well that Stefan was gone. He was lying to Damon right now.
Damon soon called on his phone to talk to Jeremy.
After a few minutes everything seemed fine.
"Ooh, your thoughts are churning. It's like a...spool of pink taffy. It's very messy, yet very fun to watch. And your mind is as similar as his only filled with grudges, insecurity, and get this...she's still in love with you." Silas started out between Melissa and Damon.
They glanced at each other briefly in disbelief and looked at Silas.
"Did anyone tell you, you're creepy?" Melissa wondered. Silas was amused by this.
Suddenly, I felt a sharp pain in my gut.
"Oh!" I groaned out loud, clutching my stomach in pain.
"Ana?! What's wrong?!" Melissa asked alarmed. She was about to comfort me but stopped. She placed a hand on her chest and groaned slightly as well.
"What the hell?!" Damon asked alarmed as he saw me bleeding profusely.
God, what the hell was happening to me?!
"Damon. It's- it's Jeremy. Remember, Bonnie did a spell to link Jeremy and I and that's how we both were brought back to life. I'm linked to him, Damon. Whatever happens to him physically, I feel too. When he was in a fight at school, I could feel him getting pummeled, but I didn't think it'd be that bad. Damon, this feeling here is much worse than him getting pummeled. Something's wrong. He's dying!" Melissa informed Damon.
Damon looked alarmed and grabbed Melissa. "We have to find him." Damon started out. "What about Ana?" Melissa shouted. "I'll be fine. I promise." I told her with a sad smile, trying to block out the stinging pain. Melissa looked at me hesitant and nodded slightly.
"If you hurt her Silas, I swear to god..." Melissa trailed off, before walking off with Damon.
Soon we were all alone.
I was still in pain and bleeding.
"Why...why are you doing this to me?" I asked him. "I'm not doing anything to you. This isn't my doing." He told me. "Don't you fucking lie to me! You're messing with my head again, making me think I'm dying! This isn't the first time you've done that, I'm sure." I reminded him.
"Ana...even IF it was one of my mind games, you'd be the only one to see it. Both Melissa and Damon saw the blood, so it's not a mind trick. But if you're really that much in pain..." He started out, before taking out his pocketknife. I flinched at its presence slightly. He soon cut his wrist and force-fed me his blood. "Come on, Ana...don't fight it...I'm healing you." He informed me. I saw I had no choice and drank the blood up.
"That's a good girl. Now let's go. I have other places to be." Silas informed me. I was still in pain but I followed him obediently.
Stefan
I was still torned.
A part of me wanted the pain to stop, but the other part knew if I stopped the pain, I'd never feel anything again...
"You know what? I give up! Forget everything I said. Just turn off that pesky humanity switch, Stefan! You don't have a choice!" Ana soon bursted out.
I looked over at her behind me.
"I can't Ana. I can't risk becoming a monster again." I told her. She walked up to me and started to caress my cheek slightly. "Stefan, I love you so much. And I would do anything to take away all your pain and suffering. The only way to do it, is for you to turn it off. I know the risk, but we'll get through this Stefan. I'll bring you back just like last time. Remember Stefan, we'll get through this. Together." She told me.
I looked at her torned not knowing what to do.
I knew if I turned it off, she'd stop at nothing to bring me back...but what if I couldn't come back this time? What if I would be gone forever? That's the risk I wasn't ready to take.
"Ana..." I started out.
She cupped my chin up slightly to face her fully. "Stefan. Just turn it off. Turn it off." She told me, while looking at me intensely as if she were compelling me. I sighed slightly and looked down seeing there was no choice. It was either turn it off, or continue suffering. I wanted this pain to stop and this misery to end. It's been 3 months and clearly nobody knew I was missing. I had suffered the whole summer. I didn't deserve it. I needed my emotions out-of-the-way. At least then, I wouldn't feel the pain anymore.
"Wait. Stay with me, Stefan." I heard a familiar voice tell me, while cupping my cheek to face her.
It wasn't Ana.
No.
It was Elena instead.
"What are you doing here?" I asked her. "I know this is torture, but stay with me. Your humanity is the one thing that makes you who you are. Don't let go. Please, Stefan. For me." Elena told me. I looked at her for a moment, rethinking my decision.
She was right.
I couldn't just give up. Not yet. There was still some hope.
Somewhere.
"I can't believe this." I heard another voice.
I looked over Elena's shoulders to see a betrayed Ana. She looked upset and slightly tearful.
"You're thinking about her, when you're suppose to be talking with me?" She started off.
I realized what she meant. "Ana..." I started off. "You're still in love with her, aren't you? How could I have been so blind?! Of course you love her. But you love me too. Stefan, you need to choose. Is it going to be me...or her?" She asked me. I looked between her and Elena slightly, wondering the same question.
I loved Elena. I'm always going to love Elena no matter what...but I also love Ana. She's currently the love of my life. I've been debating over it for a long time, and sadly I still am. I know it's selfish to love them both, but I can't help it. There's something about them that makes me love them differently.
With Elena...there's passion.
But with Ana...it's different. It's passionate, but also very overwhelming. It tends to be consuming and full of risks. I can easily be who I am with her...but I just can't. I can't be him with her, even though I can. That's not that type of person I wanted her to be with.
The ripper.
The monster side of me.
Who could care less for fragile human life.
It was a tough choice.
Elena and I...we had history together. We had a love so strong and passionate...that it'll never die...but Ana...she's my friend. At least, she was my friend. I could be open with her as much as I wanted and could actually, relax. I wouldn't have to worry of her wellbeing, knowing she can take care of herself. She may look fragile, but she's far from being a broken glass.
To be honest, now that I'm thinking of it...she's kinda like Caroline. She's just not that scared little girl you met years ago. She grew up, matured, and doesn't need anyone to cuddle her. She's her own self person now. And can be strong when she needs to be. She was exactly the kind of woman I needed in my life...but for some reason...I couldn't let go of Elena. She never gave up on me and always encouraged me to stay strong as well.
But at the end of the day, it didn't matter.
They both loved me the same deep down. They would pretty much sacrifice their own lives for me. And I would do the same for both of them. But I wasn't sure if I was ready for that situation.
If both of them are about to die and I could only save one...who would I choose?
That's the question that's been haunting me for as long as I can remember...
Melissa
The pain was getting worse and I felt ill.
This is why I hated linking spells.
They tend to kill me all the freaking time!
Soon Damon drove up near a road Jeremy last told him on the phone. We both saw the incident and sped out of the car. Damon went to Jeremy as I searched the vehicle for Katherine.
She...was gone.
I turned to look at Jeremy and Damon and sped near them.
"Wake up, or I'll kill you myself!" I heard Damon tell him, after giving him his blood. After a beat, Jeremy soon arose from another near death experience. Damon placed his head over Jeremy's head and gave him a semi hug that he was alive and well. His eyes were full of relief. I sighed and crouched down in front of them.
"Katherine's gone." I told Damon hesitantly. Damon looked at me slightly and sighed. "I don't care." He told me. I nodded and looked down at Jeremy. I could slowly feel him getting better and could feel the strength coming back to me.
Hopefully, once we get Katherine and Stefan back and all this is over, I could get a chance to ask Bonnie to unlink us.
Cause I knew somehow...this would be my downfall.
Ethan
"Hey, Ethan! I made it." I heard Carly say far away. I turned around to see her. My smile faltered slightly. She was wearing a long pink dress that went a bit over the knee and had her waves out as usual. She had leopard print text pattern all over her pink dress. She had on some brown boots and sliver necklaces.
"Damn...I see Mystic Falls has changed you. And we've only been here for a month." I pointed out. She laughed slightly.
God, I loved her laugh.
"Well, I wanted to look good tonight and try to change my look a bit. You like?" She asked. "I love." I answered her. She smiled slightly and nudged me slightly. "I'll get us some drinks." She told me, before walking off. I looked around the campus slightly.
This year's gonna be a fresh start for me. When I'll prove I can finally grow up and make a man out of myself.
I soon turned around and automatically bumped into someone.
"Oh I'm sorry." I apologized. "Yeah...it's getting crowded. Sorry." The woman told me. She looked hot and had this whole badass flare rubbing off her.
"I'm Nadia, by the way." She told me with a small smirk. "I'm in a relationship." I pointed out once I saw the look.
Trust me...I nearly invented that look when I was 14.
"Well, I only wanted your name but...congratulations on the lucky girl." She told me slyfully. I gave her a half-smile. "Thanks..." I told her, after moving out of her way. She soon walked passed me, her gaze never leaving me, until she was completely around me. She soon walked off. I watched her leave in confusion.
What the heck was that about?
I shrugged my shoulders slightly and went off to look for Carly.
She should have been back with the drinks by now?
Carly
As I got some drinks, I saw Mayor Rudy was giving a speech.
"I hope everyone enjoyed the party..." He started out.
Everyone cheered. Even though I just got here, I had to agree the party looked pretty good.
"It is- it is truly great to have an end of summer tradition. My daughter has her own end of summer tradition of over indulging in cotton candy." The Mayor joked. Everyone, including me couldn't help but laugh.
"Now she's off travelling the world and sending her old man postcards of all her great adventures. While my other daughter bonds with me and maxes out her credit cards from shopping for the seasons styles. Family is one of our core values in Mystic Falls. It's what this block party celebrates. Family as community- Stefan?" The Mayor continued. He said the last part as a blonde man and dark-haired woman walked up to him on stage.
A part of me felt an eerie chill in the air, I always feel while having my nightmares.
"Do you mind I say a few words?" The man assumly named Stefan asked the mayor. "Maybe when we're done." The Mayor informed him. "I'll take it from here, Mayor." Stefan seemed to tell him. Suddenly, the Mayor started acting strange and let Stefan have the mic. He soon looked at the confused and chatty audience.
"You're probably wondering how I did that. Well, it's pretty basic mind control. (Mind control?!) But until now, it's been fairly limited to one person at a time. But this summer, I have consumed an immeasurable amount of blood. (Wait, did he really say blood?) And I've found myself getting stronger and stronger everyday. And I started to wonder: what are the limits to my powers? How many people can I influence? Two? Ten? An entire town square? Everyone stop talking." Stefan demanded.
Immediately, I held back my tongue and lost the ability to speak.
"What are you doing?" The woman soon asked a bit nervous. Stefan didn't listen to her and eyed the crowd. When his eyes met mine he smirked.
"Well, that work. Now let's try this: No one make a sound or move a muscle." Stefan demanded.
Suddenly my whole body became stiff and I couldn't move an inch.
What the hell was happening?!
I started to panic on the inside not sure what freak show magic trick this was!
Suddenly, Stefan walked up to the Mayor. "Silas!" The woman started out alarmed. "Don't move or you're dead." Silas commanded her. He soon pulled out a knife and went behind the Mayor. He then slit his throat with no emotion or sympathy for the man. I felt like screaming as I saw him murder the man, but nothing came out. Not even a small sound. It was like I was put on mute. However, I could still tear up in fear this would happen to all of us in a matter of minutes. The dark-haired woman, who looked strangely familiar to someone I know, looked at the dead man in horror and covered her mouth to prevent herself from screaming.
Her eyes were also tearful and full of guilt.
"Well, now that I have your attention, I need a favor. (Why should we help a murderer like you?!) I need you to find someone. You all know Elena Gilbert. (No. We don't all know Elena Gilbert. Well... at least I don't know.) Well, the girl I'm looking for looks exactly like her." Silas informed us. I gulped slightly in panic.
If I were Elena Gilbert's twin, I'd still be running away from this guy, making sure he'll never find me.
Melissa
Jeremy and I were pretty much leaning against the crashed car. Jeremy was taking out the glasses from his wounds as Damon was talking on the phone with Elena. He purposely, neglected on telling her Katherine was staying at the boarding house, Silas was in town, and Stefan was missing and had been suffering for the last 3 months, god knows where.
"I love you, Damon." I heard Elena say to him on the phone.
"Goodnight." Damon told her back.
I looked down slightly and tried my best not to show any emotions.
I still wasn't over Damon...and hearing them being all lovey-dovey and gooey mushy, plus sex at the boarding house this whole summer wasn't helping at all!
"You didn't tell her about Silas. Why?" I soon asked him, avoiding the question I knew he was going to ask.
"Nor did I tell her Stefan's missing, Katherine's in town, Jeremy got expelled and your sister's acting nutty." Damon informed me. I flinched slightly at he mention of my sister.
Something was definitely wrong with her...and I intend on finding it out soon.
"So you lied." Jeremy pointed out the obvious. "No, I withheld a bit of the truth, so Elena wouldn't drop everything and come running home to help. I'll figure this out." Damon told us both. I nodded and added, "And I'll help too." Damon looked up at me slightly, but nodded at my addition to this catastrophe.
Katherine's staying over, Silas is still out there, Stefan is his shadow self, he's been suffering for 3 months, Ana isn't acting like herself, Jeremy's been expelled, and I could somehow sense people emotions and right now the road was full of intensity...I wonder what else could go wrong?
Ana
After Silas compelled the crowd, killed off Bonnie's father, and I saw Bonnie's ghost crying over him, Silas compelled me free. I was no longer of any use to him.
For now, he said.
I was at the boarding house sitting on the couch. Staring into the fire. I was still numb after what happened last summer. I didn't think anything could hurt so bad as that. Not only was I hurt physically, mentally, but when I got hurt emotionally...that was the last straw for me. I wanted to turn it off...but I didn't.
I just...felt...numb... "Ana? Oh thank god you're okay!" Melissa started out. She came over to me and hugged me. I let her hug me and smiled slightly, even though my heart was just frozen cold. "Are you okay? You look ill." Melissa asked me.
"She probably needs some blood. Here. Suit up." Damon told me, before tossing me a blood bag. The minute it landed near me on the couch I jumped up slightly in panic.
"No!" I muttered out loud.
"Are you okay?!" Melissa asked alarmed, by my flinch. "No...just...just keep that away from me." I demanded. Melissa and Damon looked at me baffled. "What's going on? It's just a blood bag, Ana." Melissa tried to tell me. I looked at the blood bag slightly. Staring at it too long brought back the nightmares.
Blood, blood, blood, then...no..no, no, NO! I'm not going to relive that horrible..no.
"No, just keep that away from me!" I demanded out loud, before turning off. "I need to sleep. I'm tired and I need to sleep." I lied, trying to get them off me back. Melissa nodded slightly and said, "What's that on your neck?" She told me as I walked off. I gulped slightly and quickly ran off. "It's nothing!" I told her. She soon sped over to me and pinned me hard against a wall.
"Let go of me! I said let go of me, Melissa!" I shouted out. She still had a grip on me and lifted my shirt up to see my back.
"Oh my god!" She started out startled.
"What the hell?!" Damon started out shocked and stunned by what he saw.
"Oh my god..who?" Melissa started out. Tears soon stung her eyes. "Oh my god. Baby, what did he do to you?!" She nearly cried out.
"It went right through her spin." She told Damon, who could see it for himself. She trailed her fingers over it and I flinched at the touch. I soon pushed her off me with vampire strength.
"You have NO right to violate me like that! Screw this, I'm leaving!" I started out, before speeding up stairs. I could hear Melissa trying to console me, but Damon held her back. "Let me go, Damon! I said, let me go! She needs me Damon! She need me!" She cried out in frustration and anger. "No, she needs to be alone. I know how much you care about her, but you need to give her some time. She'll talk to you when she's ready, okay?" Damon told her. Melissa still struggled in his grasp but soon gave up.
I decided I couldn't take more of this and continued walking. I went past Stefan's room. I didn't know what persuaded me, but I entered instead.
It was cold and dark in there. I flipped on the light switch and saw all his books lined up neatly in order.
Only his journals lay out in the open. I felt the urge to read them, but I quickly decided against it.
These were Stefan's thoughts. I had no right to read them.
I soon went over his drawer and saw one of his clean shirts. It was the red one I thought he always looked good in. I walked over to his bed and sat down. I looked at the shirt with teary eyes and decided to let it out. I let a few tears fall on the shirt and wiped them off my cheek when I was through.
I just couldn't believe it.
It hurt. It really hurt. Of all the things Silas had done to me...this was what was the most painful thing he'd ever done, besides scar me. My heart ached at the thought of it. I just couldn't believe it. He was gone. Stefan was gone. And I'll never see him again. Because...
Stefan is dead.
After I left Stefan's room and closed the door behind me. I sped off to a different room and checked to make sure Melissa wasn't in it. When I found a deserted room. I quickly went into the bathroom and took a long shower. Once I was done, I placed a long white robe over me and never once glanced at the mirror, not wanting to see the scars.
When I left the bathroom, I soon pulled out my phone and dialed someone on my contact list.
"Hello?" She called out.
"Hey. It's me. Ana." I told her.
"Ana? Such a pleasure to hear you. How've you been?" She asked me surprised. I thought it over slightly. "I rather not say. Anyway...where are you?" I asked her. "Well...I was in London, then Paris, then North Korea...don't ask why..., now I'm in North Carolina. Why you ask?" She wondered. "I need you to drive back up to Mystic Falls." I told her. She was quiet for a moment. "And...why would I want to return to that small supernatural town for?" She asked me, toying with her native accent. I sighed slightly, coming up with a good reason for her to come back.
"It's about your sister."
A/N: Well, here's the squeal...hoped you liked it...Also...I decided to change the story a bit from the actual season 5. For starters...Tyler does NOT break up with Caroline in this story. They will soon, but I have BIG plans for him later on, so...they'll stick for now...sorry :) Also, Jeremy and Melissa are linked. Whatever Jeremy feels, Melissa feels. Also she can sense people's emotions. This might be a good development on her powers, seeing how she'll control and use them. I decided to squeeze in a few Delena scenes for you guys and that brief Stelena and Stefana scene too. I have no idea what will be in store for Stefan this season, and I might end up doing some last-minute changes for him and Ana, just in case. Also, I bet you're wondering what's going on with Ana? Don't worry, I'll make up some flashbacks of how she found out about 'Stefan' being Silas and why she's acting the way she is, and why she thinks Stefan is dead. Silas did many scarful things to her during the last months of summer. It'll be explained briefly in chapters for you to get it in general. Also, who did Ana call? It's probably already obvious :) Anyway...I'll update soon with further chapters of season 5. I decided to wait a year that way I could write down more chapters, while waiting for the next future episodes. I'll go deeper into the storyline of what Ana learned over the summer later, and why she hasn't turned it off yet, since she REALLY loves Stefan (maybe even more than he does)...but we'll have to wait and see. Why did Silas let her go for now? What else is in stored for my characters Carly and Ethan? Ethan briefly met Nadia, so THAT can't be good. As for Carly, she seems to be missing isn't she? From spoilers you can see that she has a connection with Silas. She'll sadly, be one of his pawns. Also, if you're a Teen Wolf fan, you probably noticed that Carly's surname is Argent. Coincidence much? I think not! I pretty much did it on purpose to foreshadow her role this season. Let's just say her family past is why Silas picked her, out of all random girls, to be on his 'team'. It seems like he has Carly and Ana at the moment, plus those crowd of people he compelled to hunt down Katherine. I wonder who else is going to be one of his pawns? Katherine? Ethan? Maybe even...Jesse? We'll see! Thanks for reading and keep to update on new chapters...it's about to get a little creative in here! :)
Note: That this A/N was made months ago and a couple days after this episode aired. So excuse me if most of them are unaccurate. Like Jesse, or example, who doesn't ends up as a pawn but dead on the show instead. They'll be like that for the next 10 chapters. The new ones will be more accurate. Also mind the misspelling mistakes on the first story. Still working on fixing that propblem...