A man, chasing his dreams. Lost in time, lost in life. He wants to let go of his feelings but every single moment he tries, he fails. Sleep seems to be the only way to clear up his mind. His body begging for sleep, but his head conquering all the desperate attempts to really forget his problems for once…
The 6th of February 2004 Ben met this awfully pretty young lady called Suzy.
Two months earlier Ben turned 18 years old. His friends kept begging him to throw a party, something he intended not to do, since his father passed away due tothe excess of alcohol. Eventually, after his conscience was ruined by the peer-pressure, he decided to invite a couple of friends in his little room, that was located in a huge building packed with horny students. His mates, whose bodies and minds were totally out of control after drinking too much, turned up the volume of the stereo located near his front door. Everyone could hear the music they were listening to. Lyrics covered by a nasty topping filling the air, smoothly entering dozens of girly ears.
Seduced by the words the artists sang, a few girls decided to search the room they desperately wanted to find. The word sex was constantly chasing through their minds, as they wanted to enjoy college life the best they could – or the way they saw this cruel lifestyle on television. Ben, who didn't share this idea of going to college, hadn't lost his virginity yet. Afraid that his conscience would be conquered by peer pressure again, he gently asked everyone to leave. – lost in time, desperately thinking he was different. Scared he had to lose his virginity on an earlier time. Lost in life as there was a chance others would laugh at him. A chance that he could end up being alone, with his changing thoughts. - But his friends weren't satisfied they had to leave. They noticed Ben was hiding something and they would pay any price to know it. Totally out of his mind , feeling this wasn't over yet, Ben told them the beautiful truth. – he wanted to stop time, but he couldn't. Laughing and twinkling at the girls, the boys couldn't stop stimulating Ben to have sex. – Something he wanted to have with someone he couldn't describe, however secretly wanted to draw on his white canvas.