A little part of me

Your teenage years are supposed to be some of the best, and worst, years of your life. At this time in my life though I can only feel as if every moment of everyday are the worst of my teenage years. Ichigo Kurosaki is my name and in a crowd I've always been noticeable because I was cursed with a dame hair color that caused people to always have a problem with me in school or anywhere I went. The pass couple of months though people are never looking anywhere above my neck since they all have their judgmental eyes glued in one particular spot of my body.

My stomach. With the fact that I'm nearly four and a half months pregnant and showing quite a bit at that, while being a little over six foot with orange hair and a scowl. But I hate everyone staring at me all the time and not even trying to cover up that they are drives me crazy! Maybe they do it from the curiosity of a pregnant male, or from disgust of the whole thing I don't know or really care. But their eyes inspecting every inch of my ever-expanding gut makes me on edge about all of my actions and movements.

The rumors don't help my situation either. Students in high school are vultures always out to snatch up the next big story to pierce with their overgrown claws so when my mysterious vomiting during first period for a month straight started the rumor mill was in full swing. At first my reaction was to deny everything but one day someone I didn't expect to ask me anything about my problem said

" Ichigo I think we should have a talk after school today with the others."

The person who said those words was Orihime who surprisingly enough was the first of my friends to stand up and say they wanted to have a word with me about my sudden and long lasting illness. I was going to blow them off but had the idea that if I confronted them now I might be able to throw them off my trail for a while longer. So I meet them on the roof of the school, our usual lunch spot, to see the people who have become like a second family to me. Rukia, Orihime, Chad, Uryu, and Renji.

" You should know what were here to talk about so shut up and listen to us before you start giving out whatever stupid excuses you have ready. " Rukia said this as she took me by the wrist leading from my only exit if I choose to leave.

Uryu was the next one to take his turn as he spoke his words as if giving me a lecture " You've been moodier lately, have been throwing up and gaining some weight … a lot of it ".

" So what you all called me up here to call me fat!? That was what this whole get together is about?"

Uryu only glanced at me and returned to his book before continuing." No we are concerned for your well-being is all." Looking up at me again and this time with worry in his face for a moment.

This I wasn't expecting and threw me off my guard for a second. My guilt for hiding my secret from them along with my feeling of acid rising in my stomach were getting to me.

"Umm Ichigo … Uryu is right we have been trying to ignore everything but … people have been talking and I want to ask you something?" Orihime seemed to have lost the bit of nerve she had earlier till it came back as she asked " Ichigo are you pregnant?"

That was it I couldn't hold it in anymore, my hormonal emotions,my feeling of throwing up and guilt became too much. " No!" was all I could get out as I push Chad and Rukia out of my way to leave. Even with the extra weight if I really had to move fast I could.

Going down the stairs as fast as I could I made it to the nearest bathroom as my lunch nearly missed the bowl and I clung to the sides of the toilet like my life depended on it. Of any part of pregnancy morning sickness was really getting annoying. I heard three pairs of footsteps coming after me but I couldn't say anything as the nasty taste and embarrassment where my main concerns right now.

" Ichigo why didn't you just come out and say something to us? You didn't have to suffer through this on your own , we're not going to abandon you. "Even though Chad was never much of the talkative type he did know the simplest ways to make someone feel better. " How long did you think we we're going to be quite about this? What got you into this in the first place? That's what your going to tell us but it doesn't have to be right now." as he tried opening the door to the stall." I'm coming in to get you."

I reached up to unlock the door but didn't stand up since I was sure I was pale and didn't look my best so instead I put my head on my knees as best as I could and just sat there.

" I'm not answering anything because I'm not pregnant" is what I manage to say as Chad flushed the toilet and stood looking down at me. "I can't be, I don't want to be responsible for someone else for the rest of my life."

After that all I can really remember is Renji picking me up off the floor wiping my face and leading everyone as they walked me home listening to me say, " I don't want to be, I don't want to be."Reluctantly everyone left with the deal we made that tomorrow I would give them the details about my secret that I guess was now our secret.

Luckily Yuzu was at a sleep over, Karin was at soccer camp and Dad had been working late all the time now so I was left alone till some time the next night. Usually when everyone is home I slip in the back door and put on a hoodie and try to act natural so they wouldn't start questioning what I was up to. But with no one home I took the opportunity to be comfortable for once so after shoveling down most of the food Yuzu made before she left I went up to my room.

Taking off my school clothes felt really good but while I was looking for a t-shirt I got a glance of myself in the mirror and at first I didn't really believe it was my reflection from how big the person in it was. Everything about me was still pretty much the same except my eyes were red from crying and the mini watermelon I had for a stomach now. Avoiding looking at myself as much as possible had become a regular thing for me so this was one of the only times I got a good long look at myself in four months. My skin was pulled tight with very red marks stretching from the bottom up toward the top and it was really smooth but even with turning from side to side its still was hard convincing myself that was my body in the mirror till my thoughts were interrupted by someone banging on the front door.

"Open up already Ichigo it's me Renji, that bastard Urahara broke our computer so I need to use yours? " He kept banging and yelling about how Kisuke always was doing stupid things just to bother him like letting Jinta call him a free loader all the time and always saying he needed time with Yoruichi when he knew exactly what the two of them really wanted to do.

The neighbors would probably call the police on me if Renji didn't shut-up so I found the t-shirt I was looking for and hurried and unlocked the front door.

" Thanks that dumb-ass Urahara is causing problems for me again and it's like I appreciate him taking me in and all that but he sure can act like an idiot most of the time."

"Yeah, yeah I've heard this same story a hundred times before I caught them having sex again, Jinta found the stash of playboy magazines I have in the closet blah blah blah." I turned around after locking the door again expecting some comment to come from Renji but instead he was trying his hardest to keep from busting out laughing.

"What's so funny? You know those things actually happened. "

" No it's just this is the first time I got to see you without a bunch of layers on and HAHAHA! Your so much bigger than I thought you were!"