first one shot ever, dont hate me!
i dont own cats only the idea for this story, i had a nightmare last night about the same kind thing happening to my sister, i thought i might as well do something with the raw emotion so i did, and here it is, i hope you like it and well...enjoy
I forever hate the day I first thought Macavity was just Misunderstood. I forever curse the day I told my little sister to be a little lenient, to be forgiving, to try and understand him. I hate myself in such a way that no one apart from Demeter has been aloud to see the true me.
Demeter, Lutie and myself had been under Macavitys care since we were kittens, we rarely saw him though, we were usually looked after by the tribe Nurse. The fact that Macavity had taken us in of his own accord softened me to his brutal ways. Made me feel sorry for him that no one ever got close to him freely, that people spread horrid rumour about him, that i later found were true. That's why, despite Demeter's orders, I tried to talk to him when I could, tried to get Lutie to talk to him. She listened to me of course, she trusted me, liked me more than Deme. She shouldn't have, that trust, that love, brought her to her death, I brought her to her death.
Flash Back
"Lutie get yourself cleaned up, time to get up!" I called through her den entrance to her.
"Sure, whatever!" she called back, I soon heard her roll over and hit the floor.
"Ow" she grumbled from inside her den. I grinned to myself and rolled my eyes whilst I waited for her. Maybe Five minutes later Macavity came slinking out of the shadows and a second after Lutie jumped out of her den.
"good, Lutie, just who I wanted to see" Macavity smiled, the scars disfiguring his used-to-be-handsome features. Lutie gulped a little, I smiled at her encouragingly and she smiled up at the tribe leader.
"its nice to see you to sir, how may I help you?" she smiled and curtsied a little.
"I need to have a chat with you, in private…would you?" he said motioning to Lutie to enter her den again. She nodded and made to turn back to her den. I smiled at her and despite the little worry in her eyes, she smiled back.
"see you in a minute sis'" she smiled and continued into the den Macavity quickly followed her through and closed off the entrance.
I stood by the entrance listening in in a way that looked as if I was just sitting there, not drawing attention to myself. It was maybe a minute into the conversation was Lutie's voice raised in a panic, I couldn't make out what Macavity had said to her, he always mumbled and the thick wood that made as Lutie's den didn't help. My ears pricked as I listen harder.
"you will do as I say, I am the leader of the tribe, you will do my bidding" Macavitys voice raised in anger.
"I wont do it, I just wont!" Lutie's shout came panted, as if she were struggling, I heard a loud crash. It sounded like Lutie's glass vase had just shattered, her shouting became more panicked, I could hear her backing away.
"go away, leave me alone!" she shouted, I heard her hit the wall closest to me. I turned and made to push the heavy wood entrance out of the way but a centimetre away from the wood a kind of force-field glittered and shimmered in front of me. It stung painfully as I pressed against it with all my might. A second latter, over more shouts and cries for help the wood moved away. Lutie was crying as she pushed it away and tried to run out.
"Help me B, please help!" Lutie cried as she pressed against it, Macavity walking with a shard of sharp glass in his paw.
"Lutie, Everlasting cat, Lute, I'm so sorry!" I shouted as I banged against the shield. Lutie just cried more seeing that me, her favourite sister, the Queen who could do anything, couldn't help her.
"Macavity please, she' only a kitten, let her go!" I cried as I hit on the shield, my paws only bouncing away again. Macavity laughing and the sound made my fur stand on end, and Lutie's eyes just went dead, she knew she wouldn't get out now.
"why would I? she refuses to do as I say, she will get punished for it" Macavity laughed again. I looked to Lutie. She just stood stock still as Macavity arm found its way around her neck. She stared at me with betrayal and hatred and her eyes simply said, 'you did this to me'. I cried as the glass was pressed to her throat, her eyes simply stared onwards. As the glass slipped into the first layers of flesh she finally screamed, the pain was there as she struggled to get away from the pain, Macavitys grip didn't loosen as she smirked at me, I cried and begged and soon he shook his head and looked back to Lutie.
"see the light leave her eyes, go on, it's the best part" Macavity smirked and just as I looked to Lutie's eyes, all hope lost, the scream gurgled to a stop. Her beautiful blue eyes slowly dimmed, it was painful to see as the blood poured from both her mouth and the gash in her throat. I cried and soon fell forward as Macavity sauntered out, licking my sisters blood off his paws. I crawled forward to my little sister and sat her head in my lap, gagging as her body fell limply and her head rolled.
I looked at her crystal blue eyes one last time before closing them.
"I'm so sorry, I'll never forgive myself Lutie, never" I cried as I pulled her to me and rocked her back and forth slowly.
"never" I whispered as I cried into her head fur. I barely noticed when Demeter wrapped her arms around me and promised we would get out that night. Barely noticed when the strange silver tabby tom and several others slinked into or den that night. I hadn't let go of my sister for two days after that, and I hadn't eaten for weeks after that. I couldn't stand her death being my fault. It was only Demeter who persuaded me that I couldn't have know. That it wasn't my fault. It was then that I finally left the den that we had been given in the Junkyard for the first time.
Flash back end
But I know that it was my fault, she listened to me, trusted me to protect her if anything went wrong, trusted my word that Macavity wasn't bad. And no one knows that I've known this since I first laid eyes on my sisters dead body. I only left mine and Demeter's den in the Junkyard to please Demeter. When I had time to my own no body knew what I did to myself. I kept the glass that Macavity had used and I brought it with me to the Junkyard. It was my own personal weapon, I used it often, and my blood often mingled with my sisters late at night, when no one could hear the pained whimpers leave my lips, when Demeter was asleep and no one could stop me, and when no one was in the den to disturbe me, even though it was were the middle of the day.
I picked up the glass again and thought to myself. 'when will the day come when I cut myself a little too deeply, when will the day come that I don't wake up the morning because of what i did the night before?' I turned the glass over and held it to my upper arm, over a deep scar that had forever been the place I used, my back turned to my den entrance. I took a deep breath and prepared to put pleasure on the sharp blade.
"hey Bomba, they have some fresh mice, you want any?" Demeter's voice came from the entrance. I jumped, surprised.
" sure, I'll be there in a second" I told her glancing back to her slightly. She smiled at me.
"what's going on here then?" Misto and Tuggers voices came from the entrance, the newly mated couple smiled at me as I glanced back.
"Just asking Bomba if she wants some mice, some have been freshly caught" Demeter smiled at the couple, Tuggers ears pricked up instantly.
"great I'm starving, come on then" Tugger said motioning to all of us.
"you coming Bomb?" Deme asked. I nodded.
"I'll be there in a second" I smiled she nodded and followed after Misto and Tugger. I breathed a sigh of relief and walked to my pile of cushions and placed the glass under them. I sighed wistfully as I pushed out of my entrance, a fake, cheerful smile plastered on my face. I watched the junkyard knowing I would never find what I needed here, never the repose that I have been missing for so many years. My mind wandered back to the glass under my cushions.
"maybe its time" I whispered to myself as I so often did nowadays. I slinked away from the happy crowd and to my den, I smiled as I felt the cool glass in my paws. I smiled as I felt the glass that killed my sister so many years ago press into my skin and slice through layers of flesh. I felt my life blood pour down my fur, just as I sunk to the floor the entrance opened.
"hey, Demeter sent me to fetch you and...Oh Everlasting Cat! Help! somebody get help!" Tugger, my best friends cry rang in my ears. I looked up at him blearily as Misto blocked my view and looked me over.
"Bombalurina, Demeter is so going to flip" I heard a voice whisper, I choked on my blood as I heard it. Lutie.
"yep me, well, it all depend on whether Misto can fix you, but I'm sorry, I don't blame you, it wasnt your fault, even Everlasting cat agrees, I asked him when I got here" her voice rang in my ears, blocking out whatever noise was being made in the Junkyard.
"but if you do make it, don't do this again, if not well, It'll be nice to see you again, Mum and Dad say the same" Lutie's voice said, it sounded like she was smiling.
"well, I'll leave you to your own devises, I might see ya soon, I hope not though, your future looked so bright if it were to continue, anyways, wishing you the best sis, love you" her voice broke at the end, I opened my eyes and saw, along with the panicked Jnkyard Lutie's misty figure.
"I love you Lutie" I smiled painfully as I held my paw out to her, when her paw was only a centimetre away the world went black.
right so there it is, it'd be great if you could like, Review and stuff,
SO...if you would like this continued plz tell me, i dont know whether it should be left or not so its up to you to deside :D anyways, until another time
xox
Emily