Hello my fellow readers, the updates are finally coming as the holidays are out and I shall be revising over my current series and deciding whether to continue with some, so meanwhile I have released an updated version of Elfen Lied.

Enjoy this one shot.

You were there standing behind me, screaming out your earnest feelings. Telling me, rather more like begging me to not continue on the path that was laid so blatantly out in front of me.

And then I remembered melancholy explaining to you about me.

About everything.

Your disbelief yet eagerness to still believe in my humanity was there gazing upon me, as I described my race's capacity to kill, to dominate, and to rule. I felt it prick in my sub-consciousness, aware that each piece of information I divulged to you was hurting you deep inside. I wanted to stop, to scream, to cease everything. But yet I knew that I had a duty, a duty to tell you, my saviour of all darkness. I was burdening you with the information of my past, present, and future.

Kouta.

Your name always resonates through me. You were the one who chanced me the opportunity of happiness. You taught me what it felt like to love, in the brief connection we had together, but to me, that was all I needed to keep living and running, I wanted – needed the love that I had felt from you.

Yet when I saw you together with Yuka, I was afraid. Scared of the love that I had received was all a dream and a lie. I became confused at why you would lie to me, were you lying to protect me from getting hurt, or were you lying because I was a nuisance and you just didn't want to be seen with me?

I know the answer now.

But that does not matter anymore, because whatever the answer I have now would not have changed the past in any matter. I am ever so ashamed of what I committed. I took away your happiness, your past, your love. And yet I was searching and striving for the same desire, lost in my pool of loneliness to only create the same situation for you.

I grew angry, angry at myself, angry at everyone.

But I could never be angry at you.

No matter how hard I tried, whenever I thought of your face screaming into mine, begging to not take away anymore from you, I felt despair, shame, and embarrassment at myself instead, for taking away the most important things to you. But then I realised, maybe you weren't also begging for me to stop my killing, I realised that you were also asking me to not forget the importance of love.

To not lose humanity.

Even though I am not a human. I shouldn't ever let go of the emotions that define me, what I have experienced and felt, can only be expressed through the tears, happiness, and tragedy of my life.

That's why Kouta, I have not given up.

I have not given up fighting, to the inner demon that lives within me. I will try as hard as I can for as long as I can to continue the battle within me.

I will always protect you.