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AN: IN response to the lovely reviews for my fic "Love lifts us up where we belong" I decided to write another carter/susan fic.
Hope you enjoy it!! Baby jen.XX
Again I wanna say that i havent seen season 8 so my apologies for any errors etc. I've created my own little situations.
The words used are from the song "I know him so well"-Elaine Paige/Barbara Dickenson.
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Chapter 1: Dream Lover
Susan tossed and turned for what seemed like all night. It seemed her thoughts kept returning to the same thing.
The same person. And eachtime she thought of him-her heart fluttered before inevitably sinking.
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Wasn't it good?
Wasn't he fine?
Isn't it madness,
He can't be mine?
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Why? Why on earth did she always make the right choices at the wrong times?
They were so right together. But the circumstances they found themselves in weren't. She wasn't what he needed
right now. But Abby seemed to be. Damn her. Damn the stabbing. Damn her ever leaving. Damn everything.
What does it matter? Im not what he needs.
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In the end he needs a little bit more than me;
More security...
I know him so well.
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But damnit I want to be. I know I could make him happy. I know-I KNOW I could. God-he loved me before,
he knew before I did how right we were. ANd I realised it too late. I...hell I missed him.
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No one in your life is with you constantly.
No one is completely on your side.
And though I moved my world to be with him.
Still The gab between us is too wide.
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Everything could have been wonderful. They had great chemistry for as long as she could remeber. She could still feel the breath
of the sweet young med student as he approached her lips with his-that one christmas years ago. Why had she stopped him.
Why had she not loved him then. WHo know how much aggrivation they could have both spared themselves.
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Looking back I could have played it differently.
Learned to love the man before I planned.
But we were ever so much younger then.
Now at least I know I know him well.
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I just thought when I returned he'd still be the same young besotted med student. I thought those feelings I knew he'd harboured for me
would still be strong. And I would return his affection and everything would just *fit*. I thought our love was timeless. It just
seemed to fit together so damn perfectly in my head. My foolish head. Where the hell did it all go wrong?
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Nothing is so good it lasts eternally.
Perfect situations must go wrong.
But this has never yet prevented me.
Wanting far too much for far too long.
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Sheesh. What a mess. Just when I finally realise what I want in life. Someone pulls the rug out. That whole time I had the most
caring, kindest sweetest most wonderful man on earth right within my reach-and I never even realised it. And now-it's too late.
***************************************
Wasn't it good?
Wasn't he fine?
Isn't it madness,
He can't be mine?
Didn't I know?
How it would go,
If I knew from the start?
Why am I falling apart?
...Isn't it madness he can't be mine?
...But in the end he needs a little bit more than me, more security,
I know him so well!!
*********************************************
She lay there, her thoughts twirling aroungd in her mind before finally settling on his sweet face.
As she thought of him she felt the desire to smile, cry, laugh and scream all at the same time-yet could not find the
energy to do any.
She was drained. She had lost him-she was sure of that.
She eventually drifted off to sleep, while clutching her pillow to her broken heart -as silent tears rolled down her face, she silently mouthed the words:
"I Love you Carter" .
At last, she was asleep. In her dreams she would feel his breath against her lips. Feel his gentle touch upon her skin. Hear his warm laugh, and
feel his caring eyes gaze upon her with love and affection.
Dreams. Her one escape.
The sleeping world of fantasy was her refuge-for reality left her ...with a broken heart.
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That's chapter 1. Like it? Would you like to read more? Then please R&R and I'll see what i can do for ya!! Baby jen. xx
AN: IN response to the lovely reviews for my fic "Love lifts us up where we belong" I decided to write another carter/susan fic.
Hope you enjoy it!! Baby jen.XX
Again I wanna say that i havent seen season 8 so my apologies for any errors etc. I've created my own little situations.
The words used are from the song "I know him so well"-Elaine Paige/Barbara Dickenson.
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Chapter 1: Dream Lover
Susan tossed and turned for what seemed like all night. It seemed her thoughts kept returning to the same thing.
The same person. And eachtime she thought of him-her heart fluttered before inevitably sinking.
********************
Wasn't it good?
Wasn't he fine?
Isn't it madness,
He can't be mine?
********************
Why? Why on earth did she always make the right choices at the wrong times?
They were so right together. But the circumstances they found themselves in weren't. She wasn't what he needed
right now. But Abby seemed to be. Damn her. Damn the stabbing. Damn her ever leaving. Damn everything.
What does it matter? Im not what he needs.
************************
In the end he needs a little bit more than me;
More security...
I know him so well.
*****************
But damnit I want to be. I know I could make him happy. I know-I KNOW I could. God-he loved me before,
he knew before I did how right we were. ANd I realised it too late. I...hell I missed him.
*********************
No one in your life is with you constantly.
No one is completely on your side.
And though I moved my world to be with him.
Still The gab between us is too wide.
**********************
Everything could have been wonderful. They had great chemistry for as long as she could remeber. She could still feel the breath
of the sweet young med student as he approached her lips with his-that one christmas years ago. Why had she stopped him.
Why had she not loved him then. WHo know how much aggrivation they could have both spared themselves.
***************************************************
Looking back I could have played it differently.
Learned to love the man before I planned.
But we were ever so much younger then.
Now at least I know I know him well.
***************************************************
I just thought when I returned he'd still be the same young besotted med student. I thought those feelings I knew he'd harboured for me
would still be strong. And I would return his affection and everything would just *fit*. I thought our love was timeless. It just
seemed to fit together so damn perfectly in my head. My foolish head. Where the hell did it all go wrong?
***********************************************
Nothing is so good it lasts eternally.
Perfect situations must go wrong.
But this has never yet prevented me.
Wanting far too much for far too long.
**********************************************
Sheesh. What a mess. Just when I finally realise what I want in life. Someone pulls the rug out. That whole time I had the most
caring, kindest sweetest most wonderful man on earth right within my reach-and I never even realised it. And now-it's too late.
***************************************
Wasn't it good?
Wasn't he fine?
Isn't it madness,
He can't be mine?
Didn't I know?
How it would go,
If I knew from the start?
Why am I falling apart?
...Isn't it madness he can't be mine?
...But in the end he needs a little bit more than me, more security,
I know him so well!!
*********************************************
She lay there, her thoughts twirling aroungd in her mind before finally settling on his sweet face.
As she thought of him she felt the desire to smile, cry, laugh and scream all at the same time-yet could not find the
energy to do any.
She was drained. She had lost him-she was sure of that.
She eventually drifted off to sleep, while clutching her pillow to her broken heart -as silent tears rolled down her face, she silently mouthed the words:
"I Love you Carter" .
At last, she was asleep. In her dreams she would feel his breath against her lips. Feel his gentle touch upon her skin. Hear his warm laugh, and
feel his caring eyes gaze upon her with love and affection.
Dreams. Her one escape.
The sleeping world of fantasy was her refuge-for reality left her ...with a broken heart.
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That's chapter 1. Like it? Would you like to read more? Then please R&R and I'll see what i can do for ya!! Baby jen. xx