Author's Note: Okay, so I've been having a pretty hard time lately, so forgive me if this is a bit dramatic. I hate how in every story these days everyone is making Lisanna out as a villain despite the fact that she's done nothing wrong, and then this came to me. I'd ask for reviews, but I don't think anyone cares enough. And if you hate it, go ahead and say it, I'm really past the point of caring. Anyways, back to the story, here goes.

"Whenever she goes out, she wears her hair like this..." Natsu pulled a chunk of hair into a make shift ponytail, demonstrating to Lisanna how Lucy wore her hair whenever they went on a mission. She gave the most sincere smile she could muster – which wasn't much – and turned back to the bottle in her hand, taking another shot. He had been talking about Lucy for the past half hour, going over everything from their battle with Phantom Lord to their latest mission. Lisanna sighed and forced the jealousy that pricked at her mind back down. Lucy deserved a friend every bit as she did. But that still only did so much to soften the hurt.

"What else am I missing? Oh ya, and her celestial spirits..." Natsu continued to ramble on, not even noticing that she had stopped listening a long time ago. In the back of her mind, she wondered if he ever talked about her like this. Probably not. But what about after her death? Did people talk about how much they missed her, or was she forced to the corners of their minds like a bad memory they just wanted to forget? Despite how much she rooted for the first one, she knew the truth. The bottle in her hand was now empty, and she set it aside to keep company with the many other bottles she had finished. She popped open another and took a shot. At this point, there wasn't enough alcohol in the world to make her feel better.

"So what about you, Lisanna?" She was snapped out of her daze by his sudden question. It took her a moment to process it, but finally she was able to respond.

"Me? What about me?" The alcohol had made her dizzy, her thoughts a little too jumbled. Natsu gave his usual oblivious grin.

"I mean, what's been going on with you? Any missions?" Of course. She had been back for a little while now, so it was about time she take a job and earn some money.

"Uh, no, not really." She was beginning to feel a bit better, at least he still cared enough to ask.

"What about Mirajane and Elfman? Now that your back, maybe you guys can form a team again." It took all her willpower not to chuckle. Like that was ever going to happen. Mirajane was done fighting, unless the situation absolutely called for it she would stick to being a bar maid. Elfman didn't need their help anymore; he had grown into a strong man in her absence. Lisanna felt her heart sink into her stomach. No matter how much she pretended, even she knew things would never be the same between them. They had changed so much, and in the process she got left behind.

"Maybe." Was her only response. It was best he didn't know.

"Well, that sucks. I remember when me and Lucy first formed a team. Our first job was to defeat this monster..." There he goes again. Lucy this, Lucy that. What had happened to them? You'd think that everyone would be so ecstatic about her return, especially him, but it seems like another girl had taken all the room in his thoughts. Don't be mistaken, she didn't hate Lucy. She had found a wonderful friendship, and that was nothing to be mad about. But Lisanna couldn't help but feel like she was being made into a villain. Like everyone had moved on with their lives, and now that she was back she was destroying everything they had built. Maybe it was just her imagination. She sighed and took another shot, letting the intoxicating liquid wash away her worries.

"You okay?" Lisanna was again caught by surprise. Though she didn't realize it, her head had been sitting on her knees, and she had no doubt that she looked pitiful.

"Ya, I'm fine. Just not feeling too well today." She fibbed. He wouldn't understand what she was going through.

He frowned and looked her over, trying in vain to spot the problem, before he stood up and took a seat beside her. She stared at him in shock, and in response he gave a heart warming smile. Though it was just temporary, some of the pain was relieved.

"Don't feel bad. It will get better soon." He pat her back and opened one of the many drinks she had snuck out of the bar. She wasn't sure how to respond; did he know how she felt, and just wasn't saying it? She gave him a closer look, as if it might reveal anything, but he seemed completely nonchalant. No, she was just imagining it. There was no way he could understand. Her mind was just giving her what she wanted see.

For a few moments, they just sat there. Lisanna once again let her mind wonder back to Lucy, despite the fact that he had stopped talking about her. It was almost like, in her absence, Lucy had taken her place. Become Natsu's friend, the girl that everyone in the guild loved. And no matter what she did, she was never taking that title back. It's almost like they had forgotten about her. So was that it? Since she 'died', she didn't matter anymore? She shook off the feeling. No, she still had her friends, regardless of what place she was in their hearts. It could always be worse. At least that's what she kept telling herself.

Her musing was interrupted by a sudden knock on the door. Natsu called whoever it was in, and the door gently creaked open. The one who walked through was none other than their favorite blonde haired mage.

"Hey, we're going on a new job. Erza sent me to come get you." Lisanna had to give Lucy one thing. She was sincere, and despite the fact that Lisanna was hogging some of her spotlight since she returned, she beared no ill will towards the girl. Really, over all, it was really just Lisanna doing it to herself. Natsu smiled up at his teammate and took off after her. Before they departed, Lucy gave a sweet smile and soft wave to the white haired mage. For the first time that day, Lisanna returned with the same sincere smile. And then they were gone.

Lisanna sighed and put down the bottle, knowing she was going to regret it in the morning if she didn't stop now. Why did things have to be so difficult? Or where they not really that hard, and she was just making it out that way? Who knows. Maybe she'll figure it out tomorrow. For now, the only thing she could do was wallowed in her pity, and hope that it eventually goes away. Her and Natsu would never be the same. Might as well except that now.

As they say, all that's well ends well. Lisanna chuckled to herself. What a lie that was.