"Gosh darn it Tony! I didn't sign you off to go and nearly get killed several times over. Then tell Bruce and not me! " Tony looks up from his hands but I'm not done. "You said you would take a break, settle down." I sigh. "Have they been getting worse, since the Mandarin?" Tony looks back to his hands and fiddles with them, I knew what that meant -its my job, rather it was- but I waited for him to verbalize.

"Yes"

"How often"

"Two or Three times a week."

Not much change there. "How bad are they?"

"I..um.. there longer, I'm more easily pushed over the edge."

I nod my head."Same kind though?"

"Yes" He looks at his watch. "I have a meeting to go to."

"Next time.." he interrupts. "I don't need.." I stop him with a glare. "Next time bring Pepper." He opens his mouth to challenge me but I am already on my way out of the lab.

I retire back to my own dimmed room in sigh. I never should have cleared Tony, he didn't know his own signs, how to control himself, such a child. Not to say the rest of the Avengers team wasn't I smile as I hear Thor right on cue open a box of poptarts. I close my eyes and focus for the sound of the Avengers.

Thor's munching, Jane's laughing, Steve's pen scratching paper, Natasha's slow deep breaths-she had just come back from a long night, I'll have to check on her.- Bucky's pacing, Bruce was running a small mixer and I could hear it pur. Pepper was out and Tony's sheets shifted he always sat on the edge of his bed after we talked.

"Miss me?"

"Clint I don't know how you evade me but can you teach the others to do it." I smile and stand.

"Oh but then I'd be out of a job." He stands behind me as I sit down at my desk.

"How unfortunate" Clint finds my sarcasm funny.

"Well I suppose I ought to leave you to things then." I turn to insure that he leaves-he does-

I sit on the edge of my chair as I always have and unlock a case hidden in a drawer. Inside is a notebook, binder, picture frame, dog tags and a few other personal items. With a weak smile I only allow myself to remove the notebook where I jot down things that Tony said and the events of the day. I closed the notebook after I had filled the final page. "JARVIS remind me to get a new notebook next time I go to the store."

"Same code word miss?"

"Yes JARVIS, thank you"

"You're welcome Miss Doe"

I place the box back into its respective drawer and the notebook in its new home with a stack of others -all well worn- just like it. I open my dresser and again find it full of expensive new clothing and I shake my head at Pepper's note

I know you like expensive fabrics, doesn't every girl! I know you hate shopping so I had these made for you(never worn) Enjoy! -Pepper Pots

Some days I think she knows me better than anyone.

I select some blue silk pants and an old college shirt washed and worn to softness. Turned on the shower and without looking in the large mirror striped and got in the shower letting the water flow down my face. when I get out again without looking in the mirror I dress and crawl into bed. "Lights out please JARVIS." The lights black out entirely and I drift off.