Koga

I watched her.

From high above the trees, her back turned towards me, my eyes still seek out her figure. When she was within my sights, the world seemed to disappear.

All that mattered was her.

She always wore that smile, the one that stretched so wide, showing off her perfectly pearly teeth. I like when she smiles like that.

And when she laughs, the sweet melody that clenches my heart I find himself floating along with her. She didn't hide behind her hands and giggle like other human women I've seen. No, she laughed without a care.

Gods, I wished she would laugh more.

She is a woman who should always be smiling, always filled with joy.

Damn that bastard for always stealing it.

I'm not a fool. I've noticed how her eyes followed him, the way she watched his movements.

Was he aware? Did he know how her attention was constantly fixated on him?

I hate him for it.

Hate that he seems to shrug it off, like her affections are a nuisance, or something to be ashamed of.

Did he sweet talk her in the dark? When there was no one around to hear their whispers or keep a watchful eye?

Why can't she turn her eyes to me?

Why can't she notice how I stick around, increased my visits to her?

I've noticed.

I've had seen the gleam in her eye growing dimmer. That fleabag was taking a toll on her.

I wouldn't let her go that easily, let the fire die from her eyes.

The woman that I love… hung up on a dog demon.

And one that didn't give two shits about her, when it came right down to it.

After all, if he really cared about Kagome he wouldn't go traipsing off with that dead pile of trash.

Gods, it kills me to watch her pining after him. I feel like my heart is being ripped clear our of my chest.

I had caught her crying one night… caught her alone and in tears after the bastard took off on her to follow the revolting scent of a woman long gone.

I had comforted her, held her as she sobbed into my chest…. Crying over a man that didn't deserve her tears.

What is it that that bastard has that I don't?

Women in my pack flock to me, fight over a minute for my attention.

But Kagome, she just waits for me to come to her. Greets me with a smile and divides her attention amongst everyone in the group.

Like it doesn't matter if I come or go.

But the minute that the hanyou makes a slight movement, takes to a tree or she turns her attention to him.

It drives me fucking crazy. Why? Why cant I have you?

Why cant you turn your attention my way?

I keep holding out hope, keep waiting for you to join my side…

Every time I take off on the road, the path before me seems longer without you.

I keep coming back to you earlier than expected. Each time I leave you, I dying to come back.

Why cant you feel the same way?

I want to protect your smile.

I want to keep it safe, lock it away far from that asshole.

You look so good when you smile, Kagome.

Why is it only reserved for him?

No matter how you look at it, its just wrong. He doesnt love you, doesn't appreciate the things you do. He just gets caught up in the moment and jealous when I'm around.

If he touches you, he has another on his mind, another in his heart.

Gods, I cant stand the thought of it. It makes me sick to think about him touching you so intimately.

He doesn't think about you during the day, wondering if you're resting, concerned if you're eating properly.

I worry about you on the road. Sure, Inuyasha is watching your back in battle, but who is protecting your tears? Your smile? Who is making sure that you're not crying alone in the night?

I want to shoulder it. I want to take on the pain your holding by yourself.

So I try to make you smile, make you laugh. I keep the flirtations light. I keep my touches gentle, no matter what the wolf inside of me is howling to do.

Really, I'm just afraid.

I know you'd chose him over me without hesitation. And I'm not sure I could handle that rejection.

Do you know how happy we would be together?

I wouldn't treat you like this. I wouldn't make you wait for me with tear stained cheeks.

What is it that he has? What makes that bastard so great?

Should I be rougher? Turn my sights to someone else?

Will you finally notice me then?

How long are you going to look like a fool for that guy?

How long will you make me wait?

I can smell your scent again.

It drifts to me from somewhere far away, calling me closer. Enticing me with bittersweet pain.

Your scent conjures up images of you. I can practically hear your laugh dancing on the wind.

I'll turn my course to find you.

I'll keep coming, time and again.

Maybe one day you will finally realize it for yourself.

My moods have been turning sour.

The more I think about you two together, the angrier I get.

My friends, my pack… they all have noticed. They know something is wrong with me and I cant figure out how to change my mood.

Everyone keeps telling me what a fool I am.

My pack is furious. I demanded that they stop going after humans.

I was afraid one day they might come across you.

Each human I look at seems to have your face.

I hadn't felt a fondness for them before you. But now…

Now I want to protect anything that's close to you.

I think my pack has lost some of my respect for me. Fuck, I'm losing it for myself.

I keep telling myself I'm an idiot.

Just fuck the guy up. Hit him. Gut him. Kill him and claim you as mine. You'd come to love me, right?

You came to love that bastard.

But I don't want to win you that way.

I want you to come to my side on your own.

I'll keep my faith that you'll wake up soon.

I'll keep waiting.

A/N:: Thanks for reading! Just a quick little something that came into my head while listening to a song. This is a 3 part piece. Next up, Kagome :)