Hey guys. This is just a really, really short drabble that I wrote while I was bored and trying to find inspiration for Stolen Shadow. Implied one-sided Allen/Lenalee. One-shot. I'm pretty sure this idea is an over-used cliché, but still, please enjoy!
You really don't understand, huh? Sometimes I see you notice, I see you look at me curiously when I give you those looks. I guess deep down, I 'm not naïve enough to actually think that just looking at you is enough, but sometimes I just feel so desperate that I'm amazed you can't see it too.
It should be easier, I know. All I should have to do is walk up to you and confess. Then you'd realize. Then you'd notice. You'd have to.
But I can't, for the simple reason...
I'm a coward.
You call me brave, you call me strong; but don't you see? I'm really not. And it's not just this. I'm always scared, and I'm always weak. If I was as brave as you say, then I shouldn't be so worried about the Fourteenth. That's another reason I can't confess; even if you returned the feelings, I don't know how long it would last. What if one day, he takes over? What if one day, I lose myself? What if one day, you wake up and it's not Allen that's fighting beside you? Would you be quick enough to realize; smart enough to run?
If I was as strong as you say, then I would have been able to protect our comrades: Tapp, my master, and all the countless others who are now gone, because I was too weak.
If I was as brave as you say, I would be able to confess without the fear of losing you, and if I was as strong, I wouldn't have to worry about your psychopath brother, because I would be strong enough to overcome him.
But none of that is the real reason I won't confess, you know. It's all true, yes, but it's not the main reason.
It's because you don't understand. You don't love me like I love you. You love me, yes, but not the way I wish you did. Even if you do, you don't realize it. Right now, all you see me as is a friend, and I'm afraid that by the time you do realize, it will be to late. That's why I don't confess, Lenalee. I know it won't change anything.
Because you just don't get it, do you?
Well, it's done. So? Like it? Hate it? Feel like throwing bricks of death at me? Whatever it is, please review! Feedback always makes me feel like my insides are made of marshmallows. :3
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