Chapter one

"Yuki, the bell rang" Toru said standing there in front of me as the
classroom emptied.
"Let's go home" I said with a slight smile that I knew that would
swoon her into not asking what was wrong with me. But it didn't work,
as soon as we walked out of school she asked.

"Yuki"
"yes" I replied
"You seemed distracted in class today, what's wrong?" she asked.
"Its nothing just a little tired" I lied. I knew what was wrong but I
couldn't bring myself to tell her the truth.

It all starred about a week ago. I was fighting with Kyo and I
accidently tore part of his shirt off. When my eyes caught that patch
of skin I couldn't pull my eyes away. He was able to take a cheap punch
at me. When my eyes where finally thorn away I kicked him through a
wall. Ever since that moment I couldn't stop thinking about it. I go to
great lengths to make sure I am not in the same room as that dumb cat.

"We're home" Toru yells as we enter Shigure's house. Kyo was sitting
on the couch watching TV, his eyes dart to mine and my heart races,
in that same moment his go back to the TV my stomach feels as empty as
an abyss.
"I'm going to my room" I say coldly.
"I'll call you when dinner is ready" Toru yells from across the room.
"I'm not hungry; I'm going to study and go to bed. Thanks anyways Toru"
"good night" she replies a little sad by my decision to skip dinner.

Walking to my room took longer than it needed. As Soon as I close the
door I fall against it and I hug my stomach. What is this emptiness I
feel?
"Why does that dumb cat make me feel this way" I whisper to myself.
With my mind flustered I got very little studying done so I decide to
go to bed early.

My eyes shoot open. My body is sweating and shaking. I put my hands on
my face.
"Why was he in my dream" I whisper to myself. I close my eyes to try
and remember what we were doing in my dream. I jump up at the
realization of what we were doing. Blood rushes to my face and I bury
it into my pillow. I grab my clock to see what time it was. Its 3 am.
I got out of bed to go to the bathroom to wash my face. As soon as I
open my door Kyo was standing there in a towel staring at me in horror.
"What are you looking at?" he asked angrily. My face turns beet red.
"Nothing you stupid cat" I reply. He growls as he enters his room. I
run to the bathroom it was still steamy so I guess he was showering. I
wash my face as fast as I can then rush to my room and try to go back


to sleep but my efforts where futile.

I woke up to the sound of Toru's voice calling my name from down the
stairs.
"Yuki we are going to be late. She yells. I spring up at the sound of
the last word "late." I can't be late it will destroy my perfect
record. I made such a great haste to get ready I forgot to brush my
teeth so ran upstairs to the bathroom that's when it happened. I saw
Kyo there naked standing there in front of me.
"Lock the door you idiot cat" I yelled and slammed the door. I ran
towards the front door and meet up with Toru.
"What's wrong you look angry" she said concerned
"It's nothing I'm mad about being late" I gave that smile again and she
left it alone. We walked to school in mostly silence except for the few
idol questions.

The entire day I couldn't focus on my school work. I couldn't stop
thinking about the sight I saw this morning. There was a strange
mixture of lust and anger.
"Why him" I said under my breath as I threw my head into my folded
arms on my desk. This caught Toru's ever watchful eye because at the
end if class she approached me.
"Yuki, what happened this morning and don't lie to me, maybe I can
help you" she asked as soon as we were out the door.
"Trust me Toru you can't help me" I replied
"did something happen with Kyo this morning that upset you" she
interjected. I have to stop underestimating her perceptions. The
look on by face must have given it away.
"Tell me Yuki please" was all she said.
"If I tell you will you promise not to tell anyone" I pleaded. She
nodded very sincerely.
"I think I may have feelings for Kyo". She stopped right in her tracks
and stood there for a few moments.
"Are you ok Toru" I ask with slight panic in my voice.
"I'm fine, I just needed to catch my breath"
"are you sure your ok with this"
"yes I'm fine"
"this doesn't surprise you"
"not at all, I've read about this kind of thing in some of the manga
I've been reading". She smiled at me the smile I know that she use to
make it look like everything is alright, but I'll have to trust that
she will be able to take this in on her own pace. We walked the rest
of the way home in complete silence.

When we got home Toru ran right to her room. I guess it does bother
her. Kyo was there in the couch as usual, but when he saw Toru run up
to her room he shot me a look that pierced me down to the bone.
"What's wrong with her" he asked. This was the first he has spoken to
me since last night in the hallway.


"I don't know, she said something about being tired on way home" I lied.
"If you did anything to hurt her I would have to kill you rat" he said
calmly.
"I would never do anything to hurt her you stupid, idiotic cat" I said
being very defensive. And I walked to my room. This time I was able to
study a bit harder and I went to bed at my normal time.

I woke up a whole hour before I needed to and I couldn't go back to
sleep so I laid there on my bed thinking about the events if the past
week.
"What have I gotten myself into, I shouldn't have gotten her involved"
I say to myself. "I hope it doesn't affect our friendship". The truth
is Toru is my best friend and I can't be happy without her there to
make me smile. I hear a knock on my door. I never would Have guessed
that Kyo would be standing there I'm his sleep shorts.
"I know we hate each other, but there is something wrong with Toru. She
hasn't said a word all morning and she won't even look at me." he said
with a very concerned look in his beautiful crimson eyes. "I know you
are the closest person to her in this house can you find out what is
wrong with her". I've never seen Kyo so wound up about anything in our
entire lives.
"I'll see what is wrong with her ok and I'm doing this for her not you
cat" I said coldly.
"Whatever, as long as she becomes herself again" I spent a long time in
the shower trying to delay the upcoming horror that is talking to Toru.

I went downstairs for breakfast hoping to find Toru there so we can
talk on the way to school but she was nowhere to be seen. Shigure was
there typing away on his computer.
"Shigure, where is Toru" I asked. In a calm manner
"she said something about work she need to catch up on in school. Why
is there something wrong" he said with all knowing look of his.
"No there is nothing wrong I just wanted to talk to her about the
homework we had in history" I lied. How does he always know when
something isn't right.
"Hmmm ok" was all he said and he went back to his work. I went back
upstairs to grab my books and Kyo was waiting at the top of the stairs.
"did you talk to her?" he said when I got into whispering distance.
"She left for school already" I replied. His disappointed face cut
ever so slightly.
"Do you know what could be wrong with her?" he asked.
"I might know but I don't think you would want to hear it" was my reply.
"Try me" he said starting to get angry.
"ok I think Toru may have feelings for you" I said very quickly "I think
I've known this for a while now"
"if that is the truth why is she being all weird all of a sudden" he
said almost yelling.
"because" tears welling in my eyes.
"because what!" yelling at me now.


"Because I told her I had feelings for you" I blurted out very slurry.
The look on his face could kill even the coldest hearted person.
"What" he said very slowly. I ran to my room and ran out the door in
mere seconds. Thoughts flooded my head
"why did I do that" I said to myself over and over again. I spent the
entire school day very quiet and solemn. When I got home Kyo was not
there sitting in front of the TV. I went to my room and went to bed
because I was totally drained by the day's events.