Somehow, it had come to this. This one moment where, in the darkness of my mind, I knew would come eventually. Eventually my perfect world, a world I had built with perfect thoughts and perfect plans, crumbled around me like a mirror shattering. Bella was my life; my love for her was unconditional. It had been built slowly, like small steps taken to recover or to learn. Those small steps turned big, and Bella and I became what some would call eternally loving.

Yet.

At this moment, in the darkness of my room, he stood there and I felt myself allured. So very so that it frightened me. All these years, he was my brother, and I was supposed to be his as well. We were supposed to help each other, teach each other, protect each other; he had a love of his own, as did I, yet…

Yet.

At this moment, in the darkness of my room, I felt an attraction I had never felt before. It was hot, pulsing through my veins, and it felt like I was alive. Our eyes glowed, striking through the black darkness, the moonlight barely keeping enough light to make me feel comfortable.

"Edward."

He said my name, and I felt fear. I never felt fear; not when Bella was in danger of being chased, not when she was being slammed around the ballet studio, not when she was nearly hit by a car or when I thought she killed herself. I have never before felt this kind of fear, and that itself terrified me.

I didn't realize he was close. He was close enough for me to hear him, breathing by his own accord, as if he wanted to feel human. I could smell him, feel him, see him, hear him. His eyes are bright, glowing like a cat's. He looks at me with eyes, eyes so innocent I nearly fall into them.

Never before did I see him like I saw him now.

"Please," he begs, and my heart breaks, "look only at me."

I don't know where this comes from, but I am silent, too scared to speak. I'm afraid of what I'd say. Would I hurt him? Would I hurt Bella? Would I just stumble on words or say something foolish?

Questions, dry and unspoken, run through my head, but my lips remain frozen.

And then he's gone, and I'm alone in darkness, wondering once again if it was all a dream.