I Love Him, I Love Him Not
Summary : " You know when you think you know someone, and they turn out to be someone completely different, then you feel hurt and betrayed and you promise yourself you'll never love them again, but in the end you always do? That's where I am now" HHr
Disclaimer : I don't own Harry Potter ( though I wish I did!!)
Author's Note: This is my (our) first story, so be nice to me ( us). Thanks!
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I sat in my favorite chair, staring at the pearl white paper in front of me. My brain hadn't processed what it said yet, thank god, because if it had I would be bleeding from all the breakable items I'd had thrown against the wall. There was one word that wouldn't leave my mind : Harry.
Its all Harry's fault. He could have broken up with me in person, but no! He had to send me a stupid " Dear John" type letter because it would be "too hard" to do it another way. I hate him. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him! I guess I should have expected this - I'm used to pain. I just never though Harry Potter would cause me it before.
This is stupid. Utterly and truly stupid. He broke up with me, saying it was too dangerous. When is he going to realize I'm USED to danger? After so many years of being his friend, who wouldn't be used to it?
I'm not sure what the worst part is - that he broke up with me - or that I can't feel anything afterwards. What does that mean? Did I not truly love him, or is he just mean so much to me my mind literally blocks out the thought of being without him? I think I like the second one better, but the first is more…logical don't you think?
Why does this happen to me? This is so stupid! Its like…I don't know. You know when you think you know someone, and they turn out to be someone completely different, then you feel hurt and betrayed and you promise yourself you'll never love them again, but in the end you always do? That's where I am now. And I want OUT!!
I look at the letter again, and it finally starts to hit me as I read the words " I'm sorry, I still love you, but its safer for you.." Typical Harry. Always thinking of the ones he loves before himself. God I hate him for that. Ugh!!
Now I get angry. Just once I wish Harry could do something for himself, and not worry about this " Its dangerous" crap. I'm a big girl - I can take care of myself! Harry, of all people should know that, right?
I stare at the clock. 11:30. I sigh before heading to bed, flipping the letter over before I go. Stupid Harry. Stupid love.
The bed is warm, but I shiver. Now is when the tears fall, awaiting the pain the next day will bring.
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A/N. This chapter was written by Elaine. Next chapter will be written by Annalie. Hope you liked it!