If Only

Author: Kichikoneko

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing or any other © marked bit included, also I make no profit of any kind off of this, unless it is a smile.

Rating: T (for safety, and possibilities for the future of the story)

Summary: Duo hardly ever got what he really wanted, and he was okay with that. But, he never expected true happiness to come from rejection.

Warning: Tried to keep with the original story, I apologize if it doesn't work out. 2xH to start, 2x5 later on. Possible mention of 1x3 & 4/6, who knows.

Chapter: 1

I think the reason she said what she did was because I took so long to tell her. At age 17 and three months, give or take some days, I walked up to Hilde as confident as possible and told her how I felt... Big mistake.

Duo paced outside of the tan door, the door that would either let him in or completely trash his plans for the future. A life he dreamed about, and he was surely going to see those days of loving, comfort, and tender kisses. He was positive that Hilde loved him back, he just needed a backbone and some guts to realize everything he wanted. He'd literally had dreams of those blue eyes and that short dark hair, only to be awakened in the middle of the night after seeing her blown up or shot. It was sad how much had happened to the girl, and how much of it could be blamed on him.

The American stopped mid step after noticing the open door, and who watched him without a sound. His concentration was shot, he wasn't sure what to say or do. He just wanted to let her know how he felt about her.

"Come on in, Duo." Hilde smirked and stepped away from the door, motioning for him to follow. Without a word Duo followed her inside and shut the door slowly. He needed more time to pull his thoughts together. "You know, Duo, you usually walk in without knocking, so there must be something on your mind."

Hilde handed him a steaming cup of coffee, and he nearly cradled it for some sort of comfort. What the heck was wrong with him, he hadn't said a word to her, she must think that he was finally going nuts. He heard a quiet chuckle that brought him out of his trance. He'd been staring at the coffee while thinking, he'd almost forgot he actually needed to say something.

"Uh, um. You know..." He fidgeted with the cup in his hands. "Sorry to bug you."

"C'mon, dude, you make me laugh, so it's no bother, just out with what you wanna say already." Hilde smiled, it seemed the heart melting kind. Duo gazed at her for a moment, from her soft hair to slightly colored lips. He couldn't let his one chance pass him by. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath in.

"I... I really like you, Hilde." He wanted to sound confident, but he probably sounded more like a mouse... Drat, hopefully she'd go with it, and all of his dreams would come true. He gave a smile for effect.

"You know, back then, it was only a crush. I can't believe you held on to it so long, Duo. You need to move on." Hilde smiled sadly. She had said something, but Duo couldn't quite understand what she meant. He set the coffee on the table and smiled before turning and walking out the door. He heard her calling him, but he didn't really care. Was his luck really that bad?

"No." He mumbled that one thing, and before getting into his car, he turned his head slightly and glanced at her through the corner of his eye, she looked sad, but he couldn't make himself think it was all okay. He had to leave this colony. It was time to head back to Earth, and forget this 'crush' thing as Hilde had called it. He drove away from her, from his 'future,' from everything he thought he wanted.

Maybe I gave up too quickly. But, with Hilde, what she says, she means, and there are no protests. She didn't want me, she didn't think of me as more than a friend, she must have better things in mind for the future.

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Note: Okay, so this is my next series, sorry about how short the chapter is. Please review to let me know what you think, and/or how I can improve, I might not continue to post it otherwise. Thank you!