Looking for Affinity
Some take forever to find their other half. Their soul mate. Their second heart. I've found mine but she's anything but mine. I've found the mountain I need to climb I just need to plant my flag on the top. The journey is going to be long, difficult, not without its share of tumbles and falls and hidden obstacles by the murky, dense clouds.
It's worth it. It's worth the wait, the hurt and the unknown fragility of my heart. I find it incredibly scary how much I care about her and not knowing if she cares about me at all in the same way or the same amount. If she does, I don't think I'll be able to describe the feeling I'll get. But if she doesn't, I'll know that it will be the worst feeling in the entire world. To have someone you care about a great deal tell you they care about you but not in the same way or amount that you do, is, I'm sure an awful feeling.
I don't see how she can say no though. We have so much in common, sure we have differences but more of one than the other. When I think about her, I think of so many things. Things like if she was here right now with me what would we be doing? We'd be walking down the street holding hands. I'd put my arm around her and I would feel joy in every step we took down our path together. I want to hold her close and let her fall asleep in my arms to the sound of my heart beating. It beats her name. To be the first sight when she wakes. Starting the day by looking into the eyes of an angel can't be a bad way to start. To feel her warmth next to me seeping into every pore she touches would bring unparalleled ecstasy and tingles to my heart.
She is my other half, she completes me. Sometimes I feel scattered and de-shelved but she makes me whole again just by talking to me. The hours I spend waiting to hear, see or smell her again seem endless, each hour a day, each minute an hour. Does she know? Does she understand? I go through so much in my mind, the constant thoughts running at me never stop. I have to be with her. You want to be with someone who is everything you are but different, the same but changed.
We have the same taste in music, film, television, food, drink, the same likes and dislikes. But that is what I like not who I am. Who I am is a lover of music, hanging out at the beach with friends, I have a fear of spiders and dentists, I struggle with school work sometimes and my self-confidence, and I have a...unique sense of humour. These are just a few of the personal qualities and hindrances that I have in common with her.
We're two sides of the same coin.
The only thing that is different is her name and appearance.
Our hearts are one and the same.
And that is all that matters.
No path, road, distance, wall, mountain, person alive or dead is going to stop me from being with her.
I love you Lilly
Authors Note: I'm a first time writer. Any opinions will help.