Okay, so here's my new story. It's definitely a Bobby and Alex story. It's definitely angsty and heartbreaking at points. Alex has some big decisions to make and well what she decides will affect everyone...

Reviews are love. No spoilers for any episodes and I don't own anything...

"Congratulations Alexandra, you're pregnant."

Alex stared at her doctor and wondered for a moment if someone was playing a practical joke on her. If it was, she wasn't laughing. She closed her eyes for a moment and when she opened them, she knew that there were tears streaming down her cheeks. She looked at the doctor and asked, "Are you positive?"

Her doctor nodded and then asked, "I take it that this wasn't planned."

Alex laughed harshly and then told her, "Hardly. The father and I..."

"Aren't together anymore?"

Alex shook her head and whispered, "It's complicated. We..."

How did she explain it to her doctor? How did she explain that they'd had too much to drink one night. The drinking had led to talking. Talking had led to kissing and then the kissing had led to them falling into bed together. The worst part was that he had no memory of the night. He'd been so damn drunk that she wasn't sure how he'd climbed the stairs to his apartment that night.

She remembered every detail of that night. Every touch of his fingers. Every trail that his lips had made against her skin. Every word that he had said to her. She remembered him kissing her breathless. Remembered him making love to her like it was his lifeline. She remembered that when he entered her, she felt complete for the first time in her life. She remembered that as he entered her, he had whispered that he loved her. She had whispered it back to him. Because she did love him. With everything that she was. She loved him even if it was crazy dangerous.

She woke before him that morning. She'd kissed him goodbye and he thankfully he hadn't woken. She looked down at him and felt a tear slide down her cheek. She shook her head and turned away from him and dressed quickly. She turned and looked back one final time. Then she whispered softly, "I love you Bobby Goren. I will remember this night forever."

With that, she turned and left his apartment. She'd relived that night a thousand times over the past six weeks. She didn't regret the night that they'd spent together. On the contrary, she knew that she would cherish it for the rest of her life. She'd loved Bobby from afar for years. If she was honest with herself, she'd loved him from the moment that they had met. There was just something about Bobby that made her heart beat a little faster whenever she saw him.

It was his gentleness with suspects and victims. He was gentle until he had a reason to not be. She'd loved him for a number of reasons, but she knew that he was off limits.

Then, that night had happened. They'd closed a particularly difficult case and had went out for drinks afterwards. They drank for hours. Bobby had managed to finish off nearly a bottle of scotch by himself. Alex barely drank two glasses of wine. She'd helped him upstairs and into his apartment. Before she knew what was happening, he was kissing her.

Part of her knew that she should have stopped him. Should have told him that he was drunk and didn't know what he was doing. However, there was another part of her that didn't want to push him away. He was driving her crazy simply by kissing her. He found a spot between her ear and neck. She moaned loudly and whispered, "Oh God Bobby..."

Then his hands, his wonderful, glorious hands started running up and down her back and she knew that it was useless. She wasn't going to be able to stop what was happening. She pulled his head up to hers and kissed him deeply. She wondered if he would remember this in the morning. Then she decided that she didn't care. She would allow her self this one night and she would cherish it forever.

He led her into his bedroom and he went to turn off the light, but she stopped him when she said, "Leave it on."

He gave her a questioning look, but she simply smiled at him and so, he walked away from the light switch and walked back over to her. He stared at her for a few moments and then, he turned her around and kissed that same spot on her neck. She felt her legs go weak and she wasn't sure how much longer she would be able to stand. She felt his hands undoing the buttons on her blouse and she simply allowed herself to get lost in the feelings that were surrounding her. She wouldn't overthink this. Wouldn't let her brain override what her body was wanting so badly.

She felt his fingers brushing against her bare skin and her legs buckled once again. She was thankful that Bobby's strong arms were holding her up, because she knew that her own wouldn't have supported her for much longer. His hands were now working on her pants. She felt them pooling around her ankles and she heard him whisper, "On the bed. Now..."

She simply nodded and crawled onto his bed. She watched as he shed his own clothes. Her heart felt like it was going to explode. Then he climbed into bed beside her and started kissing her once again. She would never forget the way that his kisses felt and tasted. Then, his lips left her and started moving down her body. She squirmed and moaned when she felt him removing her panties. She looked down at him and she let her hands run through his hair. God, what he was doing to her. She had never felt like this before. No man had ever made her feel like this.

Then he spread her legs open and she heard his whisper, "So beautiful."

She knew that she was very wet already, but at his words she felt herself get even wetter. Then, she felt his tongue on her and she swore that she saw stars. Nothing had ever felt so wonderful. He let two fingers enter her and she felt her body responding to him. Feeling his tongue on her clit was almost her undoing. Then, he sucked it in between his lips and she lost it. She came fast and hard and she knew that she had seen stars. She cried out loudly, "Ohhhhhhhhhhhh!"

She looked down at him and saw that he was smiling up at her. He looked so damn handsome and she felt herself falling in love with him a little more than she already was. She whispered softly to him, "That was incredible..."

He smiled up at her and then she tugged on his hair. She pulled him up to her lips and whispered, "Love you..."

With that she kissed him softly and nearly died when she tasted herself on his lips. The feeling was almost overwhelming. She smiled and rolled him over and whispered, "Want you. Need you..."

Bobby smiled and kissed her softly once more and then he felt between them. He lined up with her and as he pushed forward slowly, he whispered, "Love you. Soooo much..."

Alex felt her heart soar at his words. She lost herself in their lovemaking. He was so gentle with her. His hands were everywhere. It seemed like he kissed her everywhere that night. Right before he came, he whispered, "Love you Alex..."

She smiled and whispered, "Love you Bobby..."

Then, she soared through another incredible orgasm. He collapsed on top of her and kissed the side of her neck. Before he fell asleep, he whispered, "Don't leave..."

She whispered, "I won't..."

They had made love endless times that night. Each time had been more intense and incredible than the last. They had finally fallen asleep early that morning. His arms wrapped around her tightly.

Alex had always been the morning person and she woke up before him. She cried softly as she dressed that morning. She loved this man and hoped that it hadn't been a mistake. Allowing herself just one night with him. One night with the man that she had and would always love.

The tears had kept coming hours after she had left his apartment. They had to work the next morning and she knew that she would have to get over it before then.

Walking into One Police Plaza that night had been the most difficult thing that she'd ever done. Would he remember that night? Would he act like nothing had happened? Would he want to talk about it? She wasn't sure which one scared her more.

She had arrived early and she noticed that his eyes were a little red, but she didn't think anything of it. He sat down and smiled at her. Then they started working their latest case. He told her, "Thanks for driving me home last night Eames"

She simply nodded and went back to her paperwork. Bobby sensed that something was wrong, but he couldn't put his finger on it. So, he went back to work. So, that was that, he didn't remember anything of their one night together. Alex wasn't sure whether to laugh or cry. He couldn't remember the one night that had been everything she'd ever wanted. A night that had meant so much to her was a night that he couldn't remember.

She couldn't count how many times she had cried herself to sleep since that night. She longed to be in his arms again. To feel loved and wanted.

Then, she started feeling sick to her stomach. She'd thought that she had the flu. So, she made a doctor's appointment. However, it wasn't the flu. It was something much more serious and much more permanent. Something that would change her life forever.

She realized that he doctor had asked her a question. She had been lost in her thoughts and had to ask, "Can you repeat that?"

The doctor nodded and told her, "If this baby isn't wanted you can always get an abortion. I would recommend that you do it soon however."

Alex nodded and she knew that had to make a decision soon. She didn't know what she was going to do. She couldn't tell Bobby that she was pregnant with his baby. There was no way that he would believe her. He didn't even remembering the night that had changed her world so suddenly.

She couldn't have a baby by herself. She walked out of her doctor's office and drove home in a called in sick to work that night and cried herself to sleep...