Crush

by Mercy Phoenixx

Axel is majorly crushing on his best friend Roxas. Will Roxas realize he likes Axel, too? Will they get together? Alternating POV. AU. I suck at summaries.

Title: Crush

Author: Autumn the Ninja Panda

Rating: T (?)

Warning: Yaoi. Fluffy AkuRoku. Kissing. A teensy bit of cursing. Slight angst in the form of them being idiots about their feelings.

Disclaimer: I wish I owned Kingdom Hearts and Final Fantasy and the characters. Then they could do my bidding.

Inspiration Song: Crush by David Archuleta

Pairing: AkuRoku

Summary: Axel is majorly crushing on his best friend Roxas. Will Roxas realize he likes Axel, too? Will they get together? Alternating POV. AU. I suck at summaries.

Lines indicate POV change.

Please read A/N at bottom.

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Our nightly tradition was to talk on the phone. We'd been doing it for years. Even if we had just seen each other, or if we were just calling to say goodnight. I can't remember who started it. Maybe it was Axel. Tonight we didn't talk about much, mostly random topics. But after we said goodnight and hung up, I got a weird fluttery feeling in my chest. I had felt it earlier, during lunch, sitting beside him, his arm brushing against mine whenever he moved it and our legs pressed together. I had never felt that way around Axel before. It was always platonic, nothing remotely romantic about it. And yet, here I was, falling for my best friend. I laid in bed thinking about Axel until I fell asleep.

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Roxas had been acting weird around me all morning, and during lunch, when Riku tried to sit beside me, he had a minor temper tantrum. He argued with Riku over the spot until Riku gave in, just to get Roxas to stop. Roxie kept staring at me when he thought I wasn't paying attention. If I tried to talk to someone else, he would get jealous and pull my attention back to him. It was driving me insane, trying to figure out what was going through that boy's head. He had never shown any kind of interest in me, not the romantic kind, the kind I wanted. I had been crushing in Roxas for years without him even realizing it. I was totally, 100% in love with him. So even the thought of him possibly liking me back was... amazing. Mind- blowing. But also totally unrealistic. So I just acted like I normally did with him and didn't talk about anything involving me liking him, or him liking me.

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I could've told him while we were in his car on the way to my house. There were a million other chances to tell him when we were watching movies in my bedroom. He was laying stretched out on my bed, sprawled out on his stomach, holding a pillow to his chest. I knew the pillow would smell like him, even hours after he let it go. I tried to pay attention to the movie, but with Axel less than a foot away, I found myself watching him instead. I noticed every little movement he made. I was completely mesmerized by him. He was absolutely gorgeous. I laid down on my stomach beside him and our shoulders were touching. He looked over at me and smiled that gorgeous smile of his. He crossed his left leg over my right and moved his arm to put it around me. I moved closer and took the pillow from him, forcing him to put his other arm around me and hold me. He was warm and solid, but in a comfortable way. It felt really good, having him hold me. I had to tell him how I felt, but the words wouldn't come out. If I didn't tell him soon, it would drive me insane.

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It was driving me crazy, laying next to Roxas, holding him, but only holding and only in that comfortable, best- friend way. I wanted to be more, way more than "just friends" with Roxie. And he was never one to start the holding. It was always me that pulled him closer. But this time he started it. That, along with his insane jealousy at school, made me wonder if he was starting to like me. And when it started, because Roxas never acted like that before. Laying next to him was making it hard to concentrate. On the movie, anyway. The thought of us getting together was dominant in my mind. We would be perfect together. He already knew everything about me, except for the crush, and I knew almost everything about him. We worked well together, had been doing sleepovers for so long we didn't mind sleeping in the same bed, or even taking showers together. But when we did take a shower together, it was so hard to keep from staring at him. That got me thinking about seeing Roxas naked and that wasn't a very good path for my mind to go down, especially considering Roxie was laying beneath me and would feel if I got hard. God, I hoped he liked me. All of this was so torturous.

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It was a Friday, so I was staying at Axel's that weekend. I knew it would be hard, being around him all weekend, sleeping beside him, being in the shower with him. All while not knowing if he likes me, too. I was prepared for the torture I was sure to have to go through. Everything was driving me insane. At school I got so jealous when I saw Axel talking to somebody else, or someone sitting beside him. And when one girl hugged him, I almost killed her. I wanted to pull her away from him and tell her that Axel was mine and no one else could have him. But I didn't. During lunch, she sat at our table, and I made Axel hold me the entire forty minutes of lunch. It was my way of getting back at her. My green- eyed jealousy monster was definitely showing, but I didn't care. If I couldn't have Axel, no one could. I had caught him staring at me a couple of times. He didn't even try to act like he wasn't. He caught me staring at him a few times, and every time he did, he raised an eyebrow at me. I tried to stop staring, but I couldn't. I was either going crazy, or falling in love. I hoped it was love, not crazy.

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I don't know why I haven't told him yet. This weekend would be the perfect opportunity to, since he's staying over. I just don't know how to tell Roxas that I love him. And I'm seriously starting to think he likes me, too. He looked murderous when I hugged Selphie this morning, and when she sat with us during lunch, he made me hold him the whole time. Like he was staking his claim on me, telling her she can't have me. I'm fine with that, he can claim me as much as he wants, and I don't want anyone else anyway. But I wish I knew if he really did like me or not. I wanted to bring it up, but I didn't know how. I know love isn't easy, but, damn. This is a whole new level of Hell. I swear all of this was making me crazy.

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We got to Axel's house Friday afternoon and immediately put in a movie and ordered a pizza. It was another tradition of ours. Every Friday was movie and pizza night, no matter if it was my house or his. I curled up on the couch next to him and laid my head on his shoulder. He put his arm around me and pulled me closer to him. Which kind of surprised me. It made me think that maybe, just maybe, Axel liked me back. I didn't want to be just friends with Axel anymore. I wanted him, all of him. He was my best friend, but I wanted him to be my boyfriend. I threw my legs across him and stretched them out on the couch beside him, moving closer and burying my face in his chest. Axel wrapped both arms around me and put his face in my hair. I loved the way Axel smells. It was spicy, like cinnamon. Very yummy.

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His hair smelled like raspberries. I love raspberries. I briefly wondered if he tasted like them, too. That would be awesome. I could just imagine Roxas laying beneath me, moaning my name while I kissed him and licked him and fucked him. That had been a recurring dream for me for the past few days. They were very good dreams, but ones that I shouldn't think about with Roxas sitting on my lap. But he was so adorable, and cute, and funny, and nice, and sweet. I could gush about him for hours and never get tired of talking about him. I wanted him to be mine, forever and ever. The only problem was me being a little pussy, too scared to tell him, afraid of rejection. Something had to give. I needed to somehow find the courage to tell him.

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I think I fell asleep while watching the movie, because I remembered curling up next to Axel on the couch and then I opened my eyes and he was carrying me upstairs. Axel might've been kind of scrawny, but he was strong. I snuggled closer to him and stared up at his face. It was so perfect. The angles were sharp, but not too sharp. His eyes were cat- like and an unnatural bright green. And those lips I wanted to kiss so badly, pink and soft. I opened my mouth to tell him that I like him, but the words wouldn't come out. He opened the door to his room and carried me to his bed, carefully laying me down and pulling the covers over me before going back to close the door and turn off the lights. He climbed in beside me and wrapped his arms around me, whispering a goodnight to me and falling asleep.

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Waking up beside Roxas is one of the most amazing things ever. The window in my room faces the sunrise and the light lands directly on my bed. It makes his hair the most gorgeous gold color and when he opens his eyes, they look like deep blue seas that are so clear you can see straight to the bottom. That was one of my main reasons for loving our weekend sleepovers. That, and the showers. Roxas yawned and shifted closer to me, obviously not wanting to wake up yet. He eventually gave up trying to go back to sleep and opened his eyes, looking up at me. They were so blue and sleepy looking. My breath caught in my throat. He was absolutely the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.

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We took a shower together and I tried so hard to not look at Axel. I mostly succeeded, but there were a few times when my eyes wandered. Luckily, he didn't notice. He seemed too wrapped up in his own thoughts. After our shower, Axel made us breakfast. I liked watching him move around the kitchen, singing along with whatever song he was playing. He made us waffles this morning, knowing how much I love them. Sitting at the table, watching Axel singing and dancing to the song playing, I realized I didn't just like him. I loved him. All day, that thought had been running through my mind. I tried again and again to tell Axel that I love him, but I couldn't. I was too scared.

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It was hard to pay attention to anything else with Roxas sitting beside me. We were outside, on the trampoline in my backyard. And even though I knew other people were out there, living their lives, it felt like it was only Roxas and I.

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I found myself noticing little things about Axel, things I had already known, but never payed attention to. Like the tiny freckle by his ear, mostly covered by his hair. And the way he moved his hands when he talked. I payed attention to every little detail.

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The main reason I suggested we go outside was so I could see Roxas in the sunlight. It made him look golden and so bright he almost glowed. I loved it and I loved him.

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I was getting tired of sitting beside him and not being able to find the words to tell him how I feel. He was so beautiful, not in the traditional, stereotypical way, but in his own way. It was actually kind of heartbreaking, loving him and not knowing if he felt the same. I decided to throw all caution to the wind. Taking a deep breath, I opened my mouth and let everything out. How I realized a few days ago I was falling for him, explaining my jealousy and why I had been so clingy. And finally, what I had realized this morning. Axel looked shocked, but he recovered after a minute, then told me that he loves me, too. He pulled my face to his and kissed me. His lips were as soft as I had thought they would be, and he tasted like orange juice and cinnamon, a weird but delicious combination. On him, anyway.

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He loved me back. It was the only thing I could think of after he told me. I had waited for so long, hoped and prayed to hear those words, and finally I did. I was so happy. But happy wasn't the right word for it. Ecstatic would be better. I told him I love him, too, then kissed him. His lips were soft and he really did taste like raspberries. Roxas pulled back and said something else, but I wasn't listening. My mind was focusing on the fact that I had gotten my dream, fairytale ending. I might not have been a knight in shining armor on a white horse and Roxie wasn't a damsel in distress, but I wouldn't have traded that moment for anything.

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A/N: The original one, the one I wrote out, has the song lyrics in it. I think it makes it a little better, but everyone had different opinions. So tell me what you think. If enough people want the lyrics in the story, I'll go back and add them in.

I always welcome advice and story ideas, whether they be drabble, oneshot, or multi- chapter. I actually want to do a series of drabbles/oneshots for a bunch of different couples, so any ideas you want me to use, put them in a review or PM me.

Hugs and Cookies and Roxie Kisses-

Autumn \(^.^)/