Preface
The time had come. Very soon, the bell would toll midday from above. The sun would beat down from overhead, would flood this square at the heart of their secrets with daylight. As warmth flooded over the crowd, I would step into the sun, and throw my unnatural, accursed rainbows one last time.
And here, at the end, I wasn't afraid. If I was wrong, and Carlisle was somehow right, then this was the gateway to a glorious renewal – the beginning of the only heaven I needed, by Bella's side for all the rest of blessed eternal life. If we met halfway, and I was headed for hell, then it held no more horror for me – nothing could be worse than what I had lost here in my half-living. Nothing could be worse than losing Bella. And if, as was more likely than either, I was right, then this was it. The pain was over now. My life was over. I had nothing left to live for. I had nothing to be ashamed of leaving. My family would say otherwise, no doubt, but they would understand with time.
In Bella I had found my purpose, and now my purpose was gone. I was ready to die, or to do whatever it is that we do at the end. I was ready to disappear.
I was ready to step into the sun one last time.
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A/N: So, this is the start of what I've been promising you all for several months - Edward's version of New Moon. This is the preface (ie. equivalent to Stephanie's preface to New Moon, in which Bella runs through the square toward Edward). Chapter 1, which is equivalent to about a quarter of NM's chapter 1 because Edward overthinks things so much (;D), is already up, and I hope you enjoy it! EDIT: For those people coming in now, this fic updates every Thursday :D
Please review (once you've read ch.1, not just the preface ;D) and tell me what you think, what sounds right, what I've got horribly wrong. If I'm going to finish a whole book in Edward's point of view, I need you to keep me in line ;-)
Thanks for reading, and hope you have fun!
J (and Edward -broods endearingly-)