I think I always had feelings for Zell, even if I didn't realize it. It's sort of like we're destined to be together. We were meant to be. I feel whole when I'm with him and I know he feels that way too. Our love is strong and nothing could tear us apart now. If I ever left him, I'd hate myself for it because I'd have hurt him. If he ever left me, well, I'd probably still hate myself for screwing up yet again.
None of that has happened, though. I hope it never does. I'm happy with him and I don't think I could ever let go, not now. I love him too much.
My heart is full of scars from the past. It's been broken one too many times. Zell made a promise to me, a promise that he'd never leave. I hope he never breaks it.