So here it is this is the start of the third and last installment of the "My Girl series" Just One Night focused on Kristy's pregnancy, "My Girl" focused on Katie a few years older and Kristy and Bart together and now "New Beginnings" the story of Krsity and Bart adjusting to to parent hood and focusing on the first year of Katie's life. Please review!
New Beginnings
Chapter 1: Look-Back
In 9 months my life as I knew it took a completely different turn. On a shopping trip with friends I discovered that all my suspicions were true, my body was going to change as was my life. I was pregnant.
It was a long, hard and tiring nine months, as any expectant mother will tell you. However circumstances were slightly different for me, I didn't have a mortgage, a husband with a job, a family car and a golden retriever. I had just turned 14 a teenager and had discovered that my childhood was effectively over. I was going to raise another person who would be completely dependant on me until they were 18.
It was a scary thought. It was 9 months of decisions, anxiety, trouble and emotions. It was a 9 months I'd do all over again If I had the choice.
I've never been pro teenage pregnancy, but the minute I knew that I had the tiniest dot inside of me, something that I knew I loved then unconditionally my views completely changed. I mean I would never go out onto the roof and scream "all teenage girls should have a baby its brilliant!". But when I see other parents at my age in the same boat as me, I would never judge.
Don't think I'm trying to create a sob story here, I'm not at all. Just because I don't have the mortgage, the car and the husband, doesn't mean my baby and I wont have a great, happy life. It means it wasn't the life I thought I'd be bringing my baby into when I dreamt of the future.
I had dreams I'd never told people, all written in a dark blue notebook. Listing my goals in life, my fears and aspirations.
So okay maybe those dreams aren't going to come true right now. But just because I've got a tiny baby it doesn't mean I wont never do them.
Because I am lucky enough to have the most amazing, large family a girl could wish for.
In my teenage pregnancy group, that I went to once a week whilst I was pregnant I met girls (and boys) just like me, and most of them were doing this alone. I was lucky and I knew it.
I had my mom, Watson (step-dad), Nanny, Charlie, Sam, David-Michael, Karen, Andrew and Emily-Michelle. And all our relatives, and my friends.
But I was also lucky that I had Bart, the guy I spent that one night with, the night that without knowing it for quite a few weeks changed both our lives in ways we couldn't have dreamed of. Bart lived just a few doors down from us, and had promised from day 1 to be there for the baby and I. And after 9 months (well 10 officially) and 5 days, he hasn't backed down on his word. That's definitely something isn't it.
My life has changed now that today after 4 days in hospital, I get to take my beautiful 3 day old baby daughter home, to start our new beginnings together. It may have not been my dream a few years ago. But now it's a great dream…and it's finally coming true.