A/n: A one shot set after Lilly was shot, Scotty goes to see her after she is recovering from surgery. Scotty POV
Just Talk
I stood in the doorway, looking across the room at my partner they had just brought her back in after surgery. She was lying in that large hospital bed and she suddenly looked so much smaller. The doctors said that I should talk to her, but what was I suppose to say to her. It was my fault she was in that bed in the first place, if I hadn't hesitated if I had just taken that shot earlier.
I sighed and took a seat beside her bed and looked around the room at the leads and tubes running to and from her body. I guess I should say something I thought.
"Hey Lil, it's me" this is stupid I thought she can't hear me. I sighed deeply and continued really more for myself then her.
"I am sorry Lil; it's my fault you're in here. I'd give anything to trade places wif you." I looked at her for any sign that she was hearing me. "You know what I was thinkin about today, the first day we met. In the observation room, we had that interview and I asked you what our angle was and you said 'I talk you, you listen'" I laughed at memory "At first I was pissed off that we were not going out on the line, thought I'd gotten the B assignment. But I saw how amazin and dedicated you were and I realised that this is what I wanted to be doin".
"You really helped me be a better detective Lil, I love workin with you. The way we finish each other's sentences and questions. Throws off the doers almost like we rehearsed it before hand"
A nurse came in and I stoped talkin, she smiled at me as she checked Lil's vitals. Ordinarily I probably would have asked her for her phone number but all I could think of was Lil. The nurse left and I ran a hand over my eyes. God I was so tired, but I couldn't bring myself to go home. If I left Lil would be all alone and she didn't deserve to wake up all alone.
"I know I ain't been the best partner in the world, alright I was downright crapy. The whole Chris thing and the drinkin on the job after Elisa died. You know the one thing that made me snap out of it?" I paused half expecting her to answer "You, I saw that I was losin your respect and trust. Not that I blame you"
I stood up and loosen my tie; Lil's blood was all over it. I stared at the silk in my tie whishin I could burn it right here right now cause even if I got the blood off I know I could never wear it again. I settled for throwin it in the trash and I walked back over to her bed. "Then the whole George thing" I continued "I thought I'd lost you when I heard those gun shots. I wanted to run up there and kill that psycho that hurt you. When I saw you come out o' that house you can't believe how relieved I was"
"I know you've been through a lot in your life, crap that no one should have to deal wif. Your mother, after all she did to you and you still welcome her into your home" I shook my head and stared at her face, her eyes were still closed "I know I wouldn't have been strong enough to deal wif that, without turnin to drink myself"
"You put up with more crap then most people and the fact that you still turned out the way you did..." I trailed off sighing heavily "You amaze me Lil" I shook my head. I saw her small delicate hand restin on top of the sheets. Glancin around to make sure no one was lookin I took it in my hands; her hand was so soft and tiny. I caressed it with my thumb and as I did I felt that familiar jolt of electricity shootin through my veins and my heart started to race. I desperately wanted to kiss her hand but, thought better of it knowing post surgery or not she still kick my arse if she woke up to me kissin her hand.
"Excuse me Detective" I turned around and saw a nurse standing in the doorway, and dropped her hand as if I'd been doin somethin wrong. "Visiting hours are over" she said.
"But she's my partner, I ain't leavin her here all alone" I said
The nurse sighed "She needs to recover Detective and she'll be out for the rest of the night. Why don't you come back tomorrow when she'll be awake" I nod and stand up.
"Can you just give me a little longer?" I asked givin her my best puppy dog face and she nodded.
"Two minutes" she said and she left. I turned back to my partner and brushed her hair off her face, whishin I could see those piercing blue eyes. "You know what I realised today?" I said, taken a deep breath. I might never have another chance to tell her "I love you, more than I should" I decide to risk it and lower my head down and press a kiss to her forehead. "I love you so much Lil, I just hope one day I can actually get the guts to tell you to your face" I grab my jacket off the back of the chair and walk towards the door. "Night Lil" I said "I'll come back tomorrow" I walked down the hall and towards the exit.
A/n: okay let me know if this was good or not be honest. If you like it I'll add an extra chapter, one form Lil's POV.
DPIH