Rebecca's POV
I walked through the school gates. Yet another cold, frosty english morning that i been abandoned in by early working parents. The skys its usual damp grey colour. I skidded down the icy driveway and clambered up the school steps. The warmth of the foyer was uplifting. Pulling of my scarf I headed toward the cantine. I got a hot chocolate and sat by the window with it under my red nose. People started to drift in, most of them hanging in clumps under the tree by the gate or risking a frozen bum by sitting on the stone wall. I noticed a couple of new guys come through the iron gates, definatly new, and not used to english weather by the looks of it. I reckoned they're the ones Mr. Wall was on about, the newbies joining our class since 5 girls got expelled for repetedly getting drunk on vodka in the loos. Typical. The usual gang walked into the cantine, obviously intent of finding me. Finally I convinced everyone that under no circumstances was I going outside and they left me in peace for a bit. I suddenly noticed that the newbie lads were sat on the table next to me. Four of them, all with longish brown hair and eyeliner. "Oh yesh" i thought to myself "bought time we had some eyeliner lads in our form" and assessed the talent. The first lad had wide eyes, a broad nose and a pretty appealing smile and an air of kindness and laughter about him. I grinned at the T-shirt that was faintly visible through his school shirt. The lastest MCR tour shirt. I have one myself. He also had a couple of badges on, some of bands i recognised and some old bands i didn't know. The guy sat next to him had a round, calm face and longish hair (for a boy) and was about the same height as the first boy. The thrid guy looked older, maybe the year above or something, with a cheeky grin that i knew all to well - my mates would love him. His hair was so dark brown it was almost black, just like mine. But the last guy really caught my attention. He was quiet and smiling, maybe a bit shy but comfortable with his friends. His soft brown hair had a long almost pointed fringe curving around one side of his face and its was fluffed up at the back. His eye were a smouldering brown, totally soul-seeing type thing. Even when he wasnt laughing or smiling his mouth and a general pleasant upward curve like he found everything special or something to smile about. As well as his eyeliner there was a light dusting of pale blue around his eyes. Him and the first lad seemed full of potential. The bell clanged harshy and I downed my last bitty mouthful and sped off to the top floor, panting as i rushed up the steep steps.
"Hello Class" Mr Wall said. Everyone yelled their own greetings at him and he grinned and settled everyone down. "These guys" he said, indicating to three of the four new lads (the other one must be older) " are our new pupils. They have chosen their D&T options and i know everyone has D&T first. So anyway, This is Brendon" the first lad with the mcr shirt smiled self-consiously but warmly. I nodded at him, heck, no-one else in our sporty, chav riddled class was gonna greet him properly seeing as Sami managed to convince her mum that school starts next week. "This" Mr Wall continued "is Spencer" and the calm looking boy did a little wave and grimaced a Brendon. I nodded at him as well. Seems I'm the only one paying attention. Spencer nodded back and I smiled. Then the handsome guy with his big brown eyes like chocolate drops was brought forward "And this is Ryan. What do you three chaps have first lesson?" Mr Wall gave them the full brightness of his 24-watt smile. Seriously that man can smile, my mum met him before i did and couldn't remember his name and just called him the "teacher with a big grin". I kid you not. "I think we all have Graphics" piped up Spencer after a while. "OK, who has graphics?" i stuck my hand up before anyone else, and not just because i wanted to look after Ryan but because i knew exactly what would happen if someone else babysat them. "Becky would you mind helping these guys out for the first weeks or so?" he glanced at my disrivelled timetable "You seem to be heading in the same direction as this lot most of the time. Plus you and brendon both have a my chem thing, although Brendon you should'nt really wear that top under your shirt, Becky already got told off by Mrs Fury about that." The bell rang and i swept my stuff into my bag. I love my bag, its got "my chemical romance" written on it and has this devil/fairy thing shooting a woman in a wedding dress with arrows and she has a black blind fold on. I got it for christmas. It was the first thing brendon commented on "Awesome bag. My Chem rock." I grinned. "Heck yeah! Nice shirt, I've got the same one at home, from when i went to see them in Sheffield. Best concert ever, even if frank and bob weren't there." We started walking down the stairs. Brendon went wide eyed and nudged Ryan "Me and Ryan were at that one! On the 13th of November right? With MSI and the men being pregnant thing?" We gushed on about the gig, the fire, gigs we had been to in the past and by the time we had gotten to graphics me and Brendon were like old pals. The four of us sat down. Ryan and Spencer seemed quiet but they couldn't really get a word in edge-ways with chatty Brendon!
Maths after graphics. So we had to trudge all the way back up the stairs to the 3rd floor and go to the classroom opposite our form room. "I hate those stairs" Ryan panted to me. It was the first thing he had said to me so far. It made me feel disappointed, I mean, why would he like me at all? But heck thats life for you. I sat next to Brendon and Spencer and Ryan sat infront of us. I leant over to Brendon and whispered "Why doesn't Ryan like me?" Brendon smiled and shook his head, saying how Ryan didn't dislike me, and that he was just mega shy. Oops, I thought, i better tone down the Rebecca Morris brand of insanity. Finally the bell rang and I could stuff my maths rubbish into my bag and out of my sight. I told the guys to follow me and led them outside. "Do you boys want a tour, to be mobbed by my friends or find some quiet place to hide and talk?" I look mostly at Ryan while I said this, i didn't mean to, his chocolate button eyes captivated me and i couldn't focus. "Somewhere quiet definatly" said Spencer and Brendon nodded in agreement and added "So we can get to know each other better" accompanied by that funny eyebrow wiggle guys do. I laughed and pushed him playfully and led them to the sheltered bit between the language block and the Library. Spencer had his ear glued to his mobile, giving the older boy directions to meet them. Brendon went the loo, i showed him were it was and headed back, and Spencer had disappeared to find the other guy so me and Ryan were all alone. "Hey Ryan. Whats Up?" i said looking at the ground i was kicking with my converses. "Just the usual school stuff y'know, you've been here most of the time" he said shyly. "Yeah. sorry, i never know what to say." Ryan looked at me and raised one eyebrow. "Didn't seem that way with you and Brendon. You guys hit it off straight away." I smiled and looked pointedly at my bag. "We are both totally MCR freaks, so i have something in common, something to work on. I can't tell what I'm going to have in common with you apart from eyeliner and converses." Ryan smiled and nodded. "Well tell me what you like then?" i said."Errrrrr, i like music and writing my own lyrics. I'm learning to play the guitar and i like Blink 182 and Linkin Park and i think what My Chem is doing is awesome. I like the dancey stuff as well as the rock stuff." He grinned, not smiled, grinned and i couldn't help grinning."I love the song "I miss you" and "all the small things" by Blink 182." I said, then Brendon crashed through the doors and fell over, making us both laugh like idiots. Brendon got up in embarresed silence with a smile on his face. I collapsed onto the cold low stone wall by us and laughed some more. Brendon plonk himself down right next to me and started telling jokes. Spencer arrived with this older guy. Jon, his name turned out to be. Totally cool guy as well, its like all the cool came in the car that dropped these guys off.
"So where are you guys from?" I asked. It's a week after I met ryan and everyone and I couldn't believe i hadn't asked that yet. I looked and directed the question towards ryan, talking to him is the perfect excuse to look into his big chocy biccy eyes. "Las Vegas baby!" he repiled in a total showbiz, american voice. I grinned and curled my hair over my Ipod headphones a little more. "What are you listening to Bec?" Ryan says. He is sitting by me today, usually its brendon I sit by but hey, I'm not complaining! "My Chem currently but I've got all sorts. Linkin Park, Amy Winehouse, loads. Wanna use the other headphone?" Ryan nods and sticks the other one in his ear. I scribble down some of the spanish words on the board in my book and nudge Ryan and point at the board. One of the words looks like a swear word. Ryan cracks up laughing. Man I love that laugh. Then i decide to change the song. I flick through all songs and choose the perfect song. Then the bell goes. I grab the headphones off Ryan and hide my Ipod. Stuffing my junk into my bag i stand up, almost falling over in the process. Ryan lunges forward and catches me. "Thanks" i say, turning red. Brendon and Spencer hurl past us yelling something about the library and "See ya later!" I lean against the wall and Ryan stands beside me. "Hey Bec, you should listen to this." I put his phone to my ear and a bad recording of a cool sounding song comes out. "Hey, that sounds good, the recordings rubbish though. Who is it?" Ryan grins and says he'll tell me after school. "What the?" i go, rolling my eyes at him. Then with bone crunching speed he changes the subject. "Wanna come down my house after school? The others are coming round as well so thought we could all hang out." I grin. I'm being invited to Ryans house! I want to do some girly scream but i surpress it and just nod and say "Sure"
Me, Bren and Ryan and stood by the school gates, waiting for Spencer and Jon. Brendon keeps nudging ryan and whispering. I finally catch him saying "Did you ask her...?" "Ask me what?" i cut him off. The pair of them went bright red. "To come round my place, course. And yes brendon I asked her round. "I could'nt figure out why they were red but heck, i don't understand guys. Who does? Sometimes I think even they don't quite know! Spencer comes running up to us and yells "Seens Jon? I can't find him!" I grab my phone and call him. "Dude, its becky. Where are you? Me, Ry, Brendon and Spence are at the front gate waiting for you!" "I'm at the other gate!" Jon groans down the phone, the reciever making it sound all crackly and weird. "Ok, dufus. Coming!" Rallying the guys I speed off towards the bottom gate. Finally we find him and set off, everyone else going by memory and me following Ry like a little sheep. "Hey Bec?" Ry says to me as he is opening the door to his house. "What did you call me when you were talking to Jon on your mobile?" the door clicks and opens and we all step inside. "I called you Ry." I say, looking around. Family snapshots in little frames are on a wood chest and i can see a 10 year old Ry running after a dog on a beach somewhere sunny. I smile. "Why do you shorten it to Ry? Not that i don't like it, just wondering cause no-one else has ever done that before." i smile again - those chocolate drop eyes have got me again! "In my head its RyRo as in Ryan Ross because i know lots of Ryans. None of them are quite like you though." i say as silkily as i dare to around the others - which isn't that silkily really. I think Ry noticed but didn't take it into account, which to be honest is probabily a good thing. After all he doesn't like me back. Momental lapse of common sense. "Guys, meet me in the garage. Brendon make sure Bec doesn't get lost or something" Ry says and disappears upstairs. "The Garage? Classy." I say. Spence takes me by the arm and steers me to the garage. The walls have carpet lining them and thick, heavy red velvet curtains hang on the windows. Marshall amps are stacked along one wall. "Hey, I know what this is! Its a practise and recording room!" i say to Jon. "Yup." nods Jon. Ry comes back in with an electric guitar and a guitar in a case. He nods and Brendon says "We are a band. Me, Ryan, Spencer and Jon. Ryan plays electric guitar, Spencer plays drums, Jon plays Base Guitar and I play guitar." "And you sing!" laughs Jon as Brendon gives an embarressed smile and goes quietly red. I begin to put two and two together and turn to Ry. "So that song from earlier...?" "Is by us. Panic At The Disco we call ourselves." My jaw totally hits the floor. "OMG. That is such an awesome name! You need some better recording stuff though man. Maybe I can steal my dads high tech stuff?" Ry grins and turns to the guys. "Told you she would be amazing and helpful!" The warm brown of his eyes are almost rippling with colour like the chocolate river in Willy Wonka. Wow. I feel on a total high and I haven't even done anything! Then Ry hands me the other case and I just stare at him. "Ry, why are you giving me a guitar? I only play Bass and you have a Bassist." but im seriously flattered. They all fall over laughing. "What?" "No, It is a bass, You said you wanted lessons so..." Ry goes and starts a little drum roll. "I'm gonna teach ya!" Jon explodes. "Seriously?! Guys thanks so much! That would be so mega cool. Although I must warn you, I suck."
"Do you have a fave song by us then?" Ry asked me, catching me in the end of the day rush with those delisious eyes of his. "The one we were trying to name the other day." "We have a name for it now. "Build God Then We'll Talk" its from a book Brendon read." "Cool name! Am i coming around your place for a jamming session? I gotta show off the fact that i can now play "Seven Nation Army" by The White Stripes." Ry laughs and nods. So we all meet up at the bottom gate this time and Jon manages to come to the right gate. Thank god for that!
Ryans P.O.V.
Me and the guys met up with Bec at the bottom gate ready for another "jamming session" as she put it. I love how she phrases everything. Bec came running out pulling a brush through her hair and going "OMG i look like some kind of demented bat has got tangled in my hair and messed up my makeup!" but she looked really amazing as usual. The swimming she had to do last lesson ment her hair was soaked and the water made it look black instead of glittering brown. I can't believe that she hides under all that hyperactivity, i mean, she obviously doesn't have the confidence she pretends to have but i reckon she is accepting herself. I think Bec is the only good-looking girl in this whole school that doesn't go around walking with her chest stuck out! And she doesn't overdo her makeup like some of the girls. Anyways we walked back to my place. Bec goes "Ry?" in this kind of sad, worried sounding voice. I almost smile, her nickname for me is so cool, but of course i start worrying about her because of the tone of her voice. "Whats the matter Bec?" she sniffed in a im-trying-not-to-cry way and i put one arm around her. I thought she was going to pull away but she didn't. "Do you honestly think I'm ugly?" Bec looked up at me, her beautiful grey-blue eyes shining with tears. "Bec of course I don't! I think you're really pretty! What gave you the impression that i think you're ugly?" Suddenly some girl ran past and yelled spitefully "Told you Rebecca! He said he thinks you're ugly!" and ran away again. I was shocked! Who runs up to someone and yells at them using part of someones conversation in some twisted way against them? "Thats what." Bec said, looking at the floor. "Michelle started having ago, first about Marcus, then started saying shit about how you guys only wanted to be with me either for sex, because it got spread around that i lost my virginity to Marcus, even though i haven't even lost it yet, and she said that you wanted me for my dad's music equiptment to sort out your band and that you said I was ugly behind my back." Tears fell from her eyes freely now, we were outside my house. Brendon saw Bec crying and came running over. I think he has a thing over Becky as well as me but he hasn't said anything to me. I wouldn't blame her if she chose Brendon over me. After all Brendon is a drop dead gorgeous guy and he is really charming and flirty with her. I'm no good at wowing girls with honeyed words. Instead of going out to the garage we headed up to my room and sat Becky down on the bed. I sat one side of her and Brendon plonked himself onto her otherside.
"Look, Becky, you know we all love you and nothing is going to change that! Just because that michelle girl says stuff doesnt make it true! She is a ugly little cow. Now, i don't flirt with just anyone but I'm always flirting with you - don't you think thats saying something?" Brendon said, taking one of her hands in his. I felt a pang of jealousy but heck, the room was crackling with the chemestry between the pair of them and i think its what she needs right now. The she looked at me and saw me looking at her and smiled a little and rested her head on my shoulder. I couldn't believe it!
Brendons POV
Becky slowly stopped crying, but i kept on holding one of her hands. Ryan is so lucky, Becky's resting her head on his shoulder. I know he likes her because he admitted it to us but won't let us help him out with her. The problem is i like her too. Not as much as Ryan does though. Plus its really obvious that Becky really likes Ryan back, she has always looked into his eyes alot and really enjoys his presence. I'm not going to make a move on her, Ryan really likes her and he needs someone to have a relationshp with right now, though he won't admit it. He never admits how deep his feelings are for anyone. But like i said, I'm not going to get in the way because Ryan needs this. I finally let go of Becky's hand and look at Ryan, trying to tell him to go for it but he either did'nt feel ready or did'nt get my message. "Thanks guys, you have no idea how much your support mean to me. And thank you for never judging me. Thank you so much." Becky sighed and went off to the bathroom to clean herself up. I immediatly looked up at Ryan. "Ryan, she likes you." Jon said. Ryan's eyes hit the floor and he shook his head.
"No she doesn't. She likes Brendon, i mean, she let him hold her hand!" he was looking at me, and even though he wasn't trying to make me feel guilty still did. "Ryan, I was the one that moved to hold her hand. She rested her head on your shoulder because she wanted to. Can't you see that she likes you too? Or are you just not going to let yourself believe it? If i didn't think she liked you back i would have told you Ryan. Trust me." He nodded, but obviously didn't really take it in. Becky walked back in and hugged Ryan, and thanked him again. And THEN she thanked the rest of us - minus the hugs. How obvious does it have to be before he realises it?
Ryans P.O.V.
Brendon kept saying about how Becky likes me. Why can't he just understand that i know that she doesn't? Why would Becky, the most amazing person I have ever met and is so beautiful as well, want to be with me, a guy whos only has four friends including her and can't even do my homework without loads of mistakes. She so smart and so tough. I've seen people having a go at her and it just doesn't get through to her. "Brendon, shut up with this already!" I snap. I grab my guitar and head to the garage. Music is always my escape. I'll make up some lyrics and put some guitar to it. It always seems to help me chill out and vent my feelings. I sat down in the center of the garage floor and began brain storming my ideas. Then i created a new look on it. I start scribbling furiously and started a new song.
Watch your mouth
Your speech is slurred enough
That you might swallow your tongue
You want to give up the Ghost With a little more poise than that
Or was it God who chokes in these situations
Running late oh no
He called in, He called in
Brendon walked in and sat down beside me. "Ryan, I'm not trying to go on, but you have to see how much she wants to be with you! Open your eyes!" I sighed and shook my head. "Brendon why are you trying to help me? You like her too, its plain to see." He looked sadly at me and blushed a little. "Yes I like her, but not nearly as much as you do. I'm not making a move on her, she is all yours. Can't you see that when you look into her eyes? Haven't you noticed the way she always looks at you when she is talking to all of us?" he looked desperae to prove to me all this. "Brendon do you remeber that first day we came to the school here?" Brendon looked at me sadly for appearing to change the subject. "Yes. Why?"
"When we sat down, I noticed her straight away, even with that big crowd of people around her. She has so many friends. But anyway, she looked over at our table when they left and she looked straight at you and smiled. I was the last one she looked at." I thought I was going to cry. God I'm so pathetic! Then, with impeccible timing, Becky walked in. "God Ryan whats the matter!" she ran over and wrapped me in her arms. Then I burst into tears to my horror. "Becky, just go, I don't want you to see me like this" she shushed me and pressed her finger to my lips.
"Just cry whatever this is out, just cry." She kept holding me tight and swaying slightly. If i wasn't crying so much i would be smiling. "What is the matter Ry?" I looked up into her eyes and saw that she was crying too. "I don't want to tell you Becky, ok?!" suddenly I felt so angry, not at Becky, but at myself and I was taking it out on Bec! Brendon gave me a that-was-uncalled-for look and I held tighter onto Bec before she walked away "No, I'm sorry Bec, I didn't mean to snap. I'm just not having a good life lately ok?" She sighs and hugged me again then kissed me quickly on the cheek. "Same for me Ry. Want to talk about it?" Brendon knew I wouldn't want to and knew that I didn't want to upset Bec by not talking it over with her but how could I?
"Becky, its ok, don't trouble yourself with it. He has already talked it over with me and the guys. He just needs a hug." Bec sighed and kept on hugging me.
"If you do want to talk about it Ry, just tell me. But as long as your venting it somehow, its all good." I could feel her softly stroking my hair. How many times had i day-dreamed this? It's just the timing, just as I'm trying to forget about her she is hugging me and holding me close. Now I'm never going to be able to forget about her. Which makes the pain worse. Fresh tears fell down my cheeks and Bec gently wiped them away. "Thanks Bec. I'm ok now. I'll see you guys all tomorrow."
Rebecca's P.O.V.
Ry turned away as me and Brendon walked out. I saw a piece of paper ont he floor and picked it up. Ry's handwriting. "Hold up" i said to Brendon as we shut the door behind us." I want to read this."
Watch your mouth
Your speech is slurred enough
That you might swallow your tongue
You want to give up the Ghost With a little more poise than that
Or was it God who chokes in these situations
Running late oh no
He called in, He called in
"Thats amazing! But, what do the lyrics mean?" Brendon had a look and went wide eyed.
"I know, but Ryan will kill me if you knew. Put it back Bec." He looked pointly at the garage as we kept on walking. "Brendon let me figure it out first, please." I read the lyrics through again.
"Wait, giving up? Whats he giving up on? This is about how Ryan is feeling! Brendon, whats going on?" Brendons eyes gluded themsleves to the floor and he didn't respond."Watch your mouth... he doesn't want to say something, he's nervous about saying something and he wants to give up on something... running late.. too late maybe? I... think i kinda understand it." I put it down on the table as we walk past it and think about the lyrics, now I had memorised them.
Brendon and I parted ways and I sat on my bed with a piece of paper, dephifering the lyrics like i did with "Famous Last Words" by MCR.
Watch your mouth
He doesn't want to say something
Your speech is slurred enough
He can't make it come out right
That you might swallow your tongue
He feels nervous about something
You want to give up the Ghost With a little more poise than that
He wants to give up on it
Or was it God who chokes in these situations
Maybe he blames God or Fate for whatever it is?
Running late oh no
being to late to change it?
He called in, He called in
He is'nt late?
All this is making my head ache. I'll have to ask him about it at school. No I can't, he'd never trust me again. I look back at the piece of paper. Nervous about saying somehting to someone that fate chose? He likes someone! I feel tears come to my eyes. Ry's found someone to love. Now i have no chance. Warm, salty dripps slice down my cheeks. I know he doesn't like me, but I always had hope. Well i guess it just wasn't ment to be.
The next day I stood outside the school gates waiting for the guys. Some dude i recognise from one of my lessons came ad started talking to me. "Hi." he said shyly. He had thick black hair and lovely eyes; big, blue and full of life. "Hi" i said back and he smiled. "You ok? I'm not used to seeing you on your own, Rebecca." He was quite handsome actually. "Yeah, I'm fine, just waiting for the guys. And it seems you have an advantage over me." He looked puzzled. "You know my name and I don't know yours."
"Oh!" he said and smiled again. "I'm Matt."
Brendons P.O.V.
When we walked toward the gate we saw Becky with some guy we didn't know. I saw Ryan tense up a little. They were both smiling and chatting away. "Becky!" Jon yelled and she turned round, looked straight at Ryan and immediatly looked both guilty and sad. "Heya guys." she kept her eyes averted from Ryan then. Now i am confused! If she figured out the meaning of that song - which I reckon she has with her intellegence - why hasn't she asked to talk to Ryan alone and finally hook the pair of them up? Why won't she look him in the eye? I'm going to have to talk to her about this.
"Becky, come here." I said and she came over. "You like Ryan don't you?" she went bright red and check that no one was around. "Don't tell him, please! I think he likes someone else."
I groaned "What the hell gave you that idea?" she muttered something and walked off.
WEEKS LATER
Ryans P.O.V.
I wonder why Becky has distanced herself from us. It's killing me. I heard she going out with some guy called Matt too. Great. Why couldn't I be wrong about her not liking me? I trudged to Maths. At least that Matt guy is'nt in that class. But Becky is. And speaking of her, there she is. She looks so happy, smiling and waving to people, her eyes bright. I sit myself down on my own, at the back as always. Becky walks past the table and looks at me, almost longingly? Then she smiles and sits down. My jaw drops. "Becky, why are you sitting by me?" she looked me in the eyes and under all her happiness i could just see a spark of sadness, of regret, of whatever you want to call it. She sighs. "I miss you. And the guys. I'm so sorry I've been neglecting you. It's just, i needed to sort alot of things out, and homework mounting up." she muttered something.
"What was that last bit?" She smiled sadly and shook her head. Then she took out a piece of paper, faded and old. "What does it say?" she handed me the paper and looked away as i read it.
Watch your mouth
He doesn't want to say something
Your speech is slurred enough
He can't make it come out right
That you might swallow your tongue
He feels nervous about something
You want to give up the Ghost With a little more poise than that
He wants to give up on it
Or was it God who chokes in these situations
Maybe he blames God or Fate for whatever it is?
Running late oh no
being to late to change it?
He called in, He called in
He is'nt late?
"These are my lyrics! What is this Bec?" her eyes glistened with tears.
"I'll talk at break time ok?" and she slipped away.
Rebecca P.O.V.
I met up with Ryan and the guys again for the first time since... forever. Ry looked pointedly at the paper and said "Explain" and Brendon stepped in
"Wait Ryan, I'm involved in this too. Becky found the original piece of paper with those lyrics on that day that you had a bad day and so did Becky. She was worried about you and memorised them and obviously.."
"Deciphered them. I was worried about you Ry, and these told me you liked someone so i thought it was best that I left you alone so that you could chase after whoever it is. Then i met Matt but thats all coming to an end and..." she sighed.
"Whats going on with this Matt thing then?" Spencer said, his eyebrow furrowed.
"He's using me. And I can't be with him because, well, I never loved him. He was a escape. I did find him attractive but never really loved him. The problem is I love someone else that I'm never going to be able to have." I burst into tears and familiar arms closed around me and finally I felt like myself again. I sat by Ry in the next class, like old times, plugged into my Ipod, discussing music. Then he took the headphones out of our ears and looked at me seriously. "What was Matt using you for?" I sighed and looked at the floor, feeling dirty.
"Sex. I...I lost it to him." I started crying and the teacher asked me if i was ok, everyone started making a fuss. "Sir, can I take her out and let her cry?" Ry asked. He's so brave and level-headed. He took me by the arm gently and guided me out of the class room. Ry looked at me, handed me a tissue and embraced me in a hug. I clung onto him, desperatly needed an embrace that actually meant something, even if it only was friendship to him. "I know how you feel. I love someone who I know doesn't like me back. It's ok. Don't worry about it anymore. I'll stand beside you always. And so will the guys." I hugged him tight, apologising again and again for how i acted towards him, towards them all. Then the bell rang out.
All the guys crowded around me and I felt like my old-self again. Ry invited me around for a jamming session and Jon said we could take up where we left off with my Bass lessons and he was delighted that I'd kept practising for 30 mins minimum everyday like he told me too. Then just as i felt happy Matt walked around the corner. I cowered behind Brendon and Matt turned my way and started walking towards me. The guys stood around me defensively. Ry walked up to Matt scowling. "Dude, move so I can talk to my girlfriend." Matt said low and threataningly.
"I'm not your girlfriend anymore Matt!" I walked up to Ry's side and he slide slightly infront of me.
"Go Matt. You touch her and you will find yourself in a painful position." Ry didn't speak loudly but you could tell he ment every single word. I shivered in a good way at how protective he was being over me. Matt narrowed his eyes nastily in a way I knew all to well from when I tried to stop him doing something he wanted to do. He jumped and Ry but i flew into the way and knocked Matt to the floor, punching him in the face and the arms. I stood up and kicke dhim har din the side and said "You come anywhere near Ryan again and that will look like a nats bite compared to what I'll do to you." Ry, shocked at my reaction but still being strong and supportive added
"And if you come near Becky, I'll be helping her permanently put you in hospital." He ran.
Ryan P.O.V.
I can't believe Becky did that to that guy. No, thats not right, what i can't believe is that she did that to protect me. Maybe Brendon was right. Maybe. But I can tell she isn't going to want to be with someone right now. Not after that guy. She sat down on the stone wall just staring at her hands. "He deserved it. He did, he did, he did!" I sat down beside her hugged her. Brendon came and sat down beside me, Spencer sat of Bec's otherside and so did Jon. "Bec, don't you dare feel bad for him. Not after what he did to you." Tears flowed from her eyes and she looked up at me. "You don't understand. I...We... he is the father of my child."
"Child?!" said Brendon. I looked into her eyes in disbelief. Her eyes were full of pain, confusion and I could tell she feels dirty and used. "I'll look after you Bec. Whatever happens I'll be here."
"We'll be here" said Spencer. I hugged Bec, being careful of he stomach and everyonelse carefully hugged her.
We went with Becky to a meeting her parents sent her to. Her mum was really good about it. I promised to come with her. "Bec, I know Matt isn't here for you but I'll stay by you. And the baby if you choose to keep it." She sighed and shook her head.
"I'm having an abortion Ry. I'm not bringing a child into the world that i can't give a good life to. And i want to go out and live my life. Live out my dreams before I have children and I want to have children with someone I actually love." I nodded and hugged her. "You are so responsible Bec. I'm proud of you."
Brendon, Spencer and Jon all went "We all are" at exactly the same time and we all laughed.
"When are you going to have it done?" said Spencer quietly when we stopped laughing.
"Sunday." Bec sighed sadly. We all told her how we would come with her. She smiled weakly at me and I rest my hand on her slumped, sad shoulder.
Okies guys, that was the start to my first ever fan fic, please review e.l.c. More coming soon! Love BBT