Here's a little song fic for you. I may add a chapter or two later on, if you guys would like to have one. Just give me a yell and tell me what you think. Hope you enjoy it
The song is "That's the way I loved you" by Taylor Swift.
Ziva sat in her living room staring at the lavish ring on her left ring finger. Her mind thought back to when Tommy, her boyfriend of six months, had proposed. Even she was drawn to how romantic the night had been.
Flashback
Tommy picked her up at her apartment. "You look more beautiful than ever," he said when she opened the door. "Are you ready?" he asked his eyes still looking over Ziva's figure. He had told her to dress nice, so she decided to wear a simple, yet elegant, blue dress that hung slightly above her knees. It hug her figure just enough, but it still allowed her room to breathe.
"Are you going to tell me where we are going?" Ziva smiled, grabbing her purse and walking out of the apartment.
"Now, you know that that would ruin the surprise," Tommy grinned back at her as she slipped her arm into his.
He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
"Abby was asking about you today," Ziva said as they walked to his car. "She still cannot believe she introduced the two of us."
"I will have to thank her for that the next time I see her," Tommy said, reaching out and opening the passenger side door for Ziva to get in. "She introduced me to one of the most beautiful woman I have ever met," he said, giving her a gentle kiss.
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine
Tommy had taken her to her favorite Italian restaurant and, in between the main course and dessert, he dropped to his knee and proposed. Everyone around the couple froze and watched the scene. It was a perfect night, except for one thing: Ziva was not prepared for it and asked for time to think about it.
End Flashback
Ziva sighed as she lay back against the back of her couch. It would have been so easy to have said yes, but she knew her heart was not there. The moment Tommy bent down on his knee Ziva's mind went into overdrive. She knew what he was doing, and for a moment she felt scared. No, Ziva chastised herself. She wasn't scared, she knew the answer but knee it was the opposite of what Tommy expected.
Ziva had tried to make herself fall for Tommy, but the longer she dated him, the more she longed for what she had lost.
A Year Ago
"Why must you make everything so difficult?" Ziva yelled at the man standing in front of her.
"Oh, I'M making it difficult?" Tony fumed. "You are the one that refused to do anything I said today," he retorted.
"You are taking this team leader thing to your…" Ziva tried to find the right saying, but gave up trying. "Whatever," she huffed. "Just because Gibbs left and put you in charge does not mean you have to try to be like him," she repeated the same phrase she'd uttered for well over a month.
"You don't think I realize that," Tony yelled as the rain began to fall without either noticing. "I'm doing the best I can," he told her.
"Do better," Ziva told him, wiping her hair out of her eyes as she looked at him.
"I am doing the best that I can do," Tony replied finally, causing Ziva to throw her hands up in defeat and turn to leave. Suddenly feeling the urge to stop her, Tony reached out and grabbed Ziva's arm turning her back to face him. Tony looked at her. He saw the warning in her eyes, mixed with the frustration he'd grown used to seeing, but there was also something else there. He couldn't put his finger on exactly what it was, but his gut told him he knew what it was. Allowing his gut to take over, Tony pulled Ziva closer to him and brought his face down to meet her's in a fierce, passionate kiss. He knew Ziva could easily kill him for it, but Tony did not care. He'd wanted to do this since the moment he first met her almost two years ago, but never had a chance.
When the two pulled away, Tony embraced for some retaliation from Ziva, but received nothing. "Why did you do that?" she asked, slightly out of breath. Neither made to move away from the other.
"Followed my gut," Tony replied honestly, smiling down at her.
But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
They agreed to keep it out of the office; it would not look right for the team leader to be dating one of his team members. Abby and McGee had their suspicions, but neither voiced them in front of Tony or Ziva.
Present Time
Ziva sighed out loud. It only lasted two months, but she still could not forget the moments when they were together. Every since then, she and Tony did not have the same work dynamic they shared before Gibbs returned. There was something hidden that kept the two at a distance.
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
Only she knew the true reasons behind her dating Tommy. He was everything she wanted Tony to be. Tommy put Ziva on a pedestal and was perfect. He knew when to back off and leave her alone, and when to push the issue and get Ziva to open up. Tommy understood Ziva better than anyone. He never lied to her about where he was. Ziva was surprised that even her mother and father loved Tommy.
He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing
And I'm comfortable
Ziva groaned. She realized the reason she couldn't marry Tommy: he was too perfect. There were no character flaws that she could see, and she did not like that. Too many times, Ziva had tried to start an argument, but Tommy would just drop the subject and tell her they'd talk about it later when she was in a better mood.
That wasn't what she wanted though. She wanted someone who would stand up to her and yell just as loud. Someone who would give her hell for going against the norm. Someone who was as stubborn headed as she was. She wanted someone who brought movies over every night and gave a full commentary of each, not someone who shushed her before she even opened her mouth.
"Damn you, Tony," Ziva muttered under her breath when she threw a pillow across the room, knocking over a pile of dvds she had yet to put up. When she looked up at the clock, she realized it was almost 2 a.m. Swearing under her breath some more, Ziva decided to try to get some sleep before going to work in five hours.
But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
Ziva awoke to the sound of her alarm going off, and for once in her life wanted to reach over and hit the snooze button. Deciding against it, Ziva grumbled as she forced herself out of the bed and into the shower. When she emerged from the shower, Ziva heard knocking on her door, and looked to see Tommy on the other side.
"I thought maybe I could give you a ride to work today, and then I could take you out for lunch on your break," Tommy suggested.
"You know how unpredictable my work schedule is," Ziva replied.
"If it doesn't work out for lunch, then I can wait for dinner," Tommy offered. "I'll wait all week if I have to," he said, and Ziva gave him a smile that only she knew was half-hearted.
"Let me get dressed," she said, allowing him into her apartment.
When Tommy pulled up to the NCIS building, Ziva leaned over and gave him a gentle kiss. "See you later," she told him before hurrying out of the car and into the building before he had a chance to reply.
He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
Ziva walked into the bullpen and threw her backpack on the floor behind her desk with a loud sigh.
"Someone had a rough night," she heard Tony say from behind his desk. She did not reply, instead she shot him a death glare and sunk into her chair. "Have a row with your boyfriend?" Tony continued.
"If you must know, Tommy and I had the most perfect date I have ever been on. He took me to Metatoni's," Ziva saw the flicker in Tony's eye at the mention of his favorite restaurant, "and he proposed to me," she finished, holding up her left hand to show Tony, registering the pure shock in his face.
Regaining his senses, Tony cleared his throat, "Well, I guess congratulations are in store than."
"I haven't said yes," Ziva said, catching Tony's eyes for the first time in what seemed like forever. "I told him I needed to think."
'I'm still in love with you,' she thought to herself as she looked towards him, hoping he couldn't read her thoughts.
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now
Tony sat staring at the Israeli woman in front of him, shocked at what she just said. Timmy, Johnny, or whatever the hell his name was just proposed to her. Somewhere deep inside, Tony cursed himself for allowing her to slip away from him.
Nine Months Ago
Ziva stood stunned at the proposition Tony had just laid out in front of her. "So let me get this straight. You think we should take a break, just because Gibbs is back?" Ziva asked the man in front of her who constantly avoided her eyes.
"We never should have started whatever you want to call this," Tony told her. "We need to focus on our jobs, not on a relationship," he said. "Besides, we need to be a good team right now; at least until we are sure that Gibbs is back to his normal self."
In reality, Tony needed to end their relationship in order to follow through with Director Shepard's orders to seduce Jeanne Benoit. Luckily, Tony managed to finish the mission of finding and capturing Jeanne's father, Rene Benoit, aka La Grenouile, within four months. However, the damage had already been done to his and Ziva's relationship with each other. She was already seeing someone else, and seemed to be getting pretty serious with him.
Present
Tony stood up from his desk and walked out of the bullpen, not even acknowledging Gibbs as he walked by. He needed to think. Needed to let his brain figure out what was going on. Ziva's news rang through his head like a loud bell, and it refused to go away. There had to be a way to stop all of this, he thought as the elevator doors closed behind him.
I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
It's 2am and I'm cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
Never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you