It started out great
A/N: Even though I hate to admit it, I do not own TMNT. Also, sorry for the short first chapter but my mind and I were having difficulty coming up with ideas on how to start it.
Leo's POV
Raph was in the living room sweating from head to toe due to the fact that he had just finished training. Raphie always trained. He was so cute when he was sweaty. Ya ya, I know he's my brother and we can't be a couple, but a turtle can dream. I walked into the living room as casually as I could and sat as far away from Raph as possible. I couldn't lose my cool in front of him or he may get suspicious.
"Hello Leo" he said while reading one of his magazines and panting heavily. I had t look away to keep from watching the rise and fall of his chest. The one I wanted so badly to touch. "Sup" I said as coolly as I could manage. Just being in the same room as him made my heart beat faster and my stomach knot. Just then, Donnie walked into the room and stopped dead in his tracks. He seemed to be staring at Mikey, but who knows what goes through that head of his. After a few moments he blinked quickly and went back to his room. I looked over and was surprised to see that Raph was not there as well as Mikey. I sighed and slumped into my seat, already missing his presence. I remained like this until dinner was called. All dinner long I stared at my plate and played with my food. I noticed Donnie Glance at me a couple of times, but that was it. Immediately after dinner, I went to my room and grabbed my notebook out from up under my bed. Donnie had given me this notebook so that I could write about all of my feeling instead of keeping them inside. He was the only one who knew and the only one I would want to know about my feelings toward Raph. He even swore that he would not tell anyone so I felt confident in the fact that I could trust him. I find that the journal actually helps me. Now instead of dwelling on the fact that Raph wasn't mine, I can write stories to express my feelings towards my hot headed brother that I will ever read. I even write stories about how I will tell him how I feel. I finished my entry for today and decided to go to bed. Tomorrow I will tell him. The next day I woke up later than usual. I paced around my room and tried to get my heartbeat under control. Anything to prolong what was about to happen. After about 20 mins of me wasting time, I decided that I was ready and walked to the door. I took a deep breath, shut my yes, and opened the door. I opened my eyes just in time to see Raph walk out of his room. I relaxed my body and slowly walked up to him. "Uh, Raph, can I talk to you for a moment?"