Sorrow
A KandaXOC Fanfiction
By themadanimeotaku
Author's Notes: Welcome everyone, I hope you enjoyed my first D. Gray Man fanfic, Spiral as much as I enjoyed writing it for all of you. Now this is only going to be a brief summary of what this story holds within it, so I'm going to get straight to the point.
I really don't like Yuu Kanda, due to the impression he has given me, that he is a complete jackass towards all the other characters; but despite my hatred of him, there are some qualities of his that I can not over look when it comes to even a tiny bit of liking him. So this fanfic is a dedication to everyone's perhaps favourite D. Gray Man character, Kanda. And the person that Kanda gets paired up with, will be a non Canon character that I took the liberty of creating from out of this big brain of mine. Her name is Camui or Cami-Chan Matsuri and an Exorcist from the Asian Branch.
I'm not sure what the rating will be, but I think for safety reasons, I'm just going to put M for now, unless I decide not to write a Lemon in here. But again for safety purposes it will be rated M.
I do not own any and all characters portrayed in this fanfic, they all belong to Katsura Hoshino, so no suing of me please guys! Without further a do, Sorrow.
Chapter One: Pain-filled Sorrow
Every day it was always the same for Kanda Yuu, he would wake up, do his morning meditation and exercises, make an appearance in the cafeteria, and have what he always had when it came to food, and then usually do his usual training routine which of course consisted of sword drills with Mugen, if he wasn't called away on a mission to retrieve Innocence, or to get rid of a horde of Akuma that the Earl had sent against the Black Order.
And then have to endure the nagging presence, that was his so called 'friends', who consisted of a white haired midget that was cursed (Allen), a red haired idiot who refused to stop calling him by his birth name and loved to pull pranks on those unsuspecting of them (Lavi), and a female that he was forced to tolerate seeing she was the sister of the Supervisor of the Black Order headquarters (Lenalee).
Though he would never truly admit it out loud to his friends, Kanda held each of them in a special place in that dark block of ice that was his heart. Yes Kanda cared, but he never showed that he cared about them, he pretended to in his own way of course. And another reason he did this, was that he wasn't supposed to care about them, they were just a barrier that was in his way to achieving his goal, of finding the person who had cursed him all so long ago.
This left emptiness, a deep sorrow inside of his heart that he could not just allow to go away with Mugen. Usually when there was a problem that could be fixed with Mugen, that problem was easy for Kanda to deal with, this sorrow though could not at all be fixed, this sorrow was something Kanda had to personally deal with on his own.
Kanda was laying on his bed, staring up at the ceiling of his room, contemplating things in his head, Mugen was not far from his reach, having been placed against the wall next to his bedside, in case the Noah came back to try for another attack on the Headquarters. Ever since Allen had shown up all those so many months ago, Kanda's life had turned upside down perhaps.
"Che…why do I think of him…" muttered Kanda, his eyes began wandering slightly, resting his gaze briefly upon the hourglass that held a single delicate looking lotus bloom within its glassy walls, that was perched upon a desk in the room. "He's as stupid as Eye Patch…" grumbled the samurai, his eyes closing as he turned his head away from looking at the hourglass.
When he first had been given that Hourglass, he could not believe his life was entwined around a simple flower as that lotus, that once its final petal wilted away from its stem, he would die. And he had already taken away half of his life because of his previous battles with the Noah.
He wondered if things would have been a little different if he hadn't been cursed. Perhaps, perhaps not. He dared not dwell upon these things at this time. Kanda pondered drifting off to sleep but that idea soon was erased from his mind as a small tapping on his door interrupted his thoughts.
"What?!" yelled Kanda towards the door, slowly sitting up on his bed, swinging his feet towards the side of his bed. Waiting for whoever was bothering him to speak. Having the urge to take a swing with Mugen at that person for interrupting his dark musings.
"Yuu…its Lavi, Komui wants you down in his office, he has an assignment for you…" spoke the voice behind Kanda's door.
Kanda grumbled softly to himself and slowly he got to his feet, placing his black leather boots on, grabbing Mugen as he slipped on his Exorcist jacket. He then walked over towards his door and opened it a crack, he could see the red haired fool standing there, being his usual cheerful self.
A scowl appeared on Kanda's face as he spoke.
"Stop calling me by my given name, Eye Patch…" Kanda then opened his door more to allow himself out and began walking down the hall.
"Geez who pissed in your soba today Yuu? Oh wait that's right you're always like that no matter what day it is." Said Lavi, trying to of course piss off Kanda.
Kanda just let out his usual sound of disgust escape his throat, as he walked towards Komui's office, deciding to take the stairs for once today. He listened to Lavi prattle on for awhile. Even though at times he found Lavi to be quite annoying, he sometimes found comfort in listening to Lavi's rantings, when he wasn't in a foul mood of course.
Kanda paused as he stopped at the top of the stairs, whipping around to pin Lavi with one of his icy glares for a few minutes. He then spoke up, trying to not sound so much like an asshole as he used to sound like in the past.
"Lavi…do you not have someone else to be pestering at this moment? Like Moyashi? I am busy at this moment, and have no time to listen to one of you're many stories, however…later if I am in a good mood, I will perhaps listen to them then?"
The look on Lavi's face was priceless, his jaw was slightly agape and the look in his good eye, Kanda didn't know how to describe it.
"Sure Yuu, later then. Good luck on you're assignment." Said Lavi, the red head quickly turning around to make a quick exit.
Kanda closed his eyes briefly and let out a soft sigh, he was just not in the mood today to start a fight. He didn't know why either and this was confusing him way too much. Slowly Kanda headed down the stairs towards Komui's office, perhaps killing a few Akuma would help this feeling he was feeling deep inside of him go away for awhile, then he would be back to his usual old self.
As he walked down the stairs, he spotted Noise Marie, and attempted to do his best to ignore the man. Another person Kanda at times would get along with, but today he just did not want company at all.
Once he was about half way to Komui's office, he spotted Allen and Lenalee talking to Reever.
"Oi…Moyashi…" spoke up Kanda, wondering what the boy was up to. All three of them turned to look at Kanda, as the older man walked over towards them. He figured he would have a few words with them before heading to his briefing.
"Hey Kanda!" said a cheerful Allen, as usual. Lenalee just waved at him, and remained quiet.
Reever spoke up to Kanda.
"Komui-shitsuchou is looking for you Kanda, you better hurry up before he starts tearing up the building looking for you…he's not in the best of moods."
"What else is new…" said Allen, shaking his head. Kanda couldn't have agreed more with the bean sprout.
"Nii-san's just been under a lot of pressure because of the Vatican Allen-Kun, ever since you returned with us." Said Lenalee.
Kanda made one of his usual sounds that he was in deep thought. He then finally spoke after being silent for awhile, not paying attention to the conversation, Allen and the others were in.
"I wonder what assignment this one will be…probably Innocence has been spotted somewhere."
Allen turned to look at Kanda for a moment and said.
"Um…Kanda, you're getting assigned along with me on this mission, I just finished getting briefed by Komui-san."
Kanda rolled his eyes and muttered under his breath that this was going to be probably a terrible mission then, before heading towards Komui's door and knocking on it softly.
"Komui…you wanted to see me?" spoke Kanda, after being allowed into the Supervisor's office.
"Hai, that I did, you and Allen-Kun are being sent to the Himalayas in Tibet on a retrieval mission, apparently the Asian Branch of the Black Order, wants to send over one of their top Exorcists that Cloud Nyne-gensui discovered long ago to be compatible with Innocence, to give us a hand in beating back the Earl." Spoke Komui, while tossing Kanda a small notebook.
Kanda closed his eyes and made a sound of annoyance in his throat, after catching the notebook before opening his eyes and asking.
"Fine, so who is this person? And why did you want me to go and retrieve her?"
"All I can say from the message Bak gave me over the phone, is that this Exorcist is a woman from the same country as you Kanda, and Bak wanted to send her to investigate a rumour that there's a fragment of Innocence in the Himalayas somewhere. Also Akuma and a Noah have been spotted there. Your mission is to get there before the Noah or the Earl find her, and attempt to kill her, we need all the Exorcists we can get Kanda, so don't let this one die under you're watch."
This piqued Kanda's interest, when Komui said that this Exorcist was female, and from his homeland. No doubt about it, Komui wanted Kanda to go himself, probably to make the woman more comfortable with hanging around them or something of that nonsense business.
"Che…I won't let her die under my watch, I would be more worried about moyashi screwing this up…" muttered Kanda as he turned his back on Komui and began walking out of the office.
"Good luck then Kanda, I look forward to all three of your return here…" said Komui, as he waved briefly at Kanda in farewell. Kanda didn't catch the glint in Komui's eyes, as the samurai walked out.
"Moyashi…don't screw this up, we aren't going to these mountains for a social visit, we have to retrieve that Exorcist and get out of Tibet as quickly and quietly as possible." Said Kanda as the two of them were sitting in the special cabin that the Black Order always reserved on the train for the Exorcists, a few hours later.
"Hai Kanda, I've never actually been to Tibet before, Shishou took me everywhere but there. I'm really looking forward to meeting this…Matsuri person…" said Allen as he took a look in the small notebook that Komui had given the two of them, which held information of what they needed to know for this trip.
"Hmm…she is probably just as weak as Miranda, in skill and in personality." Muttered Kanda under his breath, so softly that Allen had a hard time understanding him.
"Kanda, everyone's notice you've been acting really strange since I came back with you guys from Japan, are you okay?" Allen said more quietly, concern for the samurai etched on the boy's face.
"Che I'm fine moyashi…I'm simply just not 100 back to normal perhaps…thank you though for you're concern…" said Kanda as he turned his dark gaze at Allen, giving him a warning glare not to continue to push the issue.
But in reality Kanda wasn't well, inwardly, he felt so differently then his usual self, and he just could not put his finger on it.
"Kanda…if you need to talk to someone, let me know okay? I'm open to listening to anything you want to talk about." Said Allen, trying to be just a concerned friend, Kanda knew it. Kanda just gave Allen a brief nod of his head after silence ensued.
The two of them attempted to remain silent for most of the trip to Tibet, knowing though that Kanda was in for one heck of a shock when he finally met up with this mysterious Exorcist that Bak Chan was sending over to give a hand in protecting the European Branch of the Black Order.
"Kuso (Damn it)…first the Finders disappear on me, and then get killed; now I've got three level 3s on my tail…" Growled a feminine voice, as a shadow ran down a small rocky path, trying to escape from the sound of running feet that were coming towards the shadow.
The shadow paused to look up the mountain path and saw that it would have no choice probably but to stop and fight it's pursuers off. It was 3 hours after sunset, and the area was thrown into darkness all around, only lit up by the Monastery's search lights down at the bottom of the mountain path, and the moon's pale silver light.
The person then grabbed a hold of something that was latched on its back. The sound of metal being unsheathed from a scabbard could be heard. The feminine voice then called out.
"Innocence! Activate!" The eerie glow of silver and green light lit the area around with its deadly glow. The object that caused this glow was that of the hilt of a Japanese danabira (Japanese Broadsword), the glow then spread through the sword just as the wielder of this blade leapt up into the sky.
"Keibatsu! (Lit. means Punishment) Arashi…no…Kanashimi (Storm of Sorrow)!" cried the female voice. The blade quickly began to crackle with deadly electrical energy, just before the woman released some of that energy down on the Akuma that was below her. Two out of three of the Akuma were hit directly with the deadly Innocence related electrical 'storm'.
The woman quickly finished off the two that had been hit, having no idea where the third one had disappeared to at the moment, with a few quick slashes of her sword. Both exploded into a cloud of blood and shards of metal.
The woman quickly looked around, in search of the Third Akuma, the woman wasn't stupid after all, and she had counted specifically three level 3s that had chased her from the sacred temple that had kept the fragment of Innocence hidden all these years from enemy eyes and the Black Order.
"Where did he go?" murmured the woman, whose face was still hidden in darkness at this moment, the moon having moved slowly into the clouds above in the sky.
"Right here…Exorcist…" growled a voice, an explosion of rock shards and dust blinding the woman temporarily, as the level 3 appeared at the side, having somehow made a tunnel in the side of the mountain, during the girl's brief fight with the other level 3s.
The woman didn't have enough time to get out of the way before she was grabbed and sent flying into the rock wall not far off from where she had been standing. The girl let out a pain-filled yelp as the sickening sound of bones breaking was heard as she slumped to the ground after being thrown.
The Level 3 began to laugh and slowly it slithered over towards the fallen Exorcist.
"Now you die…Exorcist…" it growled, as it lifted an arm high above its head to attempt to finish off the wounded girl.
The girl quickly with what strength she had left managed to activate her Storm of Sorrow again and stabbed the level 3 in the gut before it could bring down its claws to finish her off, with Punishment.
The Akuma let out a shrieking cry of pain out before finally being engulfed by the electrical charges of Punishment, and it exploded just like the other two had done, but only all over the poor woman.
"Gross…Bleh…I got Akuma guts all over me…" said the woman, as she attempted to struggle to her feet. The pain in her ribs and back was just way too much at the moment. Plus the fact she had been running for four hours away from these Akuma, who had surprised her and the Finders during their travelling down the mountain side.
The girl passed out right where she had finished her battle, without even another word or cry, while clutching at her wounded side. She didn't even know that reinforcements were on their way at this very moment, all she wanted to do was sleep now. Sleep indeed then took over her, while the icy fingers of the Himalayan Mountains attempted to dig their way at her small frame.
Author's End Notes: I hope this was an okay chapter for my first Kanda Yuu fanfic...I won't keep you guys reading too much. Please read and review and NO FLAMES!
Take care everyone...and until next time my Fellow D. Grayman fans! JA NE!