author;; silverslivers
summary;; she wants to bury herself in those tunnels again and hold onto his hand like she used to and never let go, not for anything / Rebekah, Kol and family loss.
When she was just a girl,
She expected the world,
But it flew away from her reach,
So she ran away in her sleep
- Coldplay, Paradise
At the end of it all, she will always lose everything. Perhaps it is not only her mother's curse placed upon her; perhaps the fates themselves cursed her the moment she entered this world, doomed her to a fate of loneliness of the highest order. And so it is that she will lose yet another family member, because she is a cursed one, has always been a cursed one and will always be a cursed one.
It's like a loop, a stuck record, repeating over and over until – well, that's the problem. Until something. It's like it's her fate, to always lose the ones she loves because life has always loved throwing shit at her and she supposes this is no different.
When her brother dies – once her favourite brother, the brother she adored and doted upon as a human – she doesn't feel anything. It was the same with Finn, but not. She always thought she'd sense Kol's death somehow, or she'd be there to witness it or, even worse, be the one to plunge a white-oak stake into his chest. But she didn't, she didn't sense him, didn't even know he was dead until she was told and doesn't that just make her a brilliant sister?
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Memories of nights beneath a full moon will haunt her when she sleeps and she wonders whether Kol is trying to punish her from beyond the grave or something because that just seems like the kind of thing he would do. She misses him though and she hates that some of their last moments together were while they were arguing because that just isn't fair and she wants to bury herself in those tunnels again and hold onto his hand like she used to and never let go, not for anything, not ever.
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They won't hold a funeral; that's too normal, too usual for a family of vampires. Except they're not a family anymore, are they, not really, they're just a sister and her two brothers. How far they've fallen. They've claimed the lives of thousands, laughed and waltzed with death and eaten the souls of their victims, but when it's one of their own taken, they don't know what to do. They're invincible; she's invincible and when one dies she doesn't quite understand because in so many ways, Rebekah is still a child watching her brothers fight and daydreaming of her prince charming and that won't ever change.
Kol would have cared.
{again, rebekah angst. but kol's death affected me a lot; i had this weird sorta attachment to him, far more so than i do to elijah and klaus. so i figured i should write something in his memory, aha. besides, in my head kol was always the brother that took care of rebekah, and he was her favourite brother as a human. i just find it a little hard to believe that rebekah and klaus were close as humans, considering they can barely stand one another now, and idk, her and elijah i see him as sorta looking down on her as humans. anyway, rant over, aha.}