Waking up every morning is always a struggle for me, always has been, I suppose.

I get up, brush my teeth, comb my hair, prepare for the day like anyone else would.

But I'm not just anyone else.

I have a problem. Something is wrong with me.

My memory decays at a very specific rate, I suppose it always has. I forget a single day, a week, a month maybe, never to remember it clearly again. It's not like amnesia, and I can't help it. I've had this problem for 10 years.

I forgot how much I hurt people. Even though I still feel the guilt reading over my pages now.

I forgot how much people laughed at me, even though reading over my words from so long ago, I can understand why.

I forgot how ashamed I should be of myself, but reading over what I did, so long ago, I feel a greater shame and guilt than I ever did.

I forgot how to smile along the way. I suppose that's just how life goes.

I remind myself, so that I won't ever forget it completely.

My name is Rin. Rin Kagamine.

I know that's my name, it's tattooed on my arm. I know I won't forget that.

I am 14 years old, although, for the last 10 years, I haven't changed. I haven't gotten any older.

My body doesn't change, doesn't grow. I've been 152cm tall for ten years now, and nothing has changed.

I've grown wiser, yet more pained with every look I take at my past. I miss my friends, who have all grown up and left me.

The wonder and magic of my youth is fading. But I'm still so young. I am 14 years old.

I try to play with kids my age, just silly, childish games, but most look at me weirdly.

Why? I haven't changed. I still look my age- everyone says so.

I don't relate to anyone my age... they all seem to love memes and I just can't understand how they're fun.

I'm too peculiar for most people's tastes. They all tend to forget about me.

I made a couple of friends a little older than me...but they seem so distant now. I met one of my friends three years ago...the others, two years. They seem to resent me for some reason.

I decided I'd play games instead. I'll be mature. I'll act older. They'll like me then, right?

They're still very distant... they don't even reply to my messages now..

I need help on this main quest...it says I'll need a party of four or more. I'm afraid of people. I'll upgrade my equipment and solo it.

It's not working. I guess I'll give it up.

I tried to be an artist. The best I could do was edits.

My hands are too shaky to draw anything beautiful...

I'm so discouraged from doing anything. I'm so lonely.

I don't have a brother. I never did. I wish I did. He'd keep me company.

I'll make a brother.

I'll take a bit of this, a bit of that, a few of those.

Mix them together, shake it up in a bottle.

Ow...I cut my finger. I'm bleeding pretty badly. It dripped into the mix.

Oh well, I think it'll be okay. I got a bandage.

Seal the bottle, Find the tree with a hole in it. It dropped in and down, somewhere I can't get it ever again.

I am Len. Len Kagamine. I am 14 years old. My sister is my entire world. Literally. I love you Rin.