A/N: Hey again. This time I decided to play little bit with Rei from PGSM universe. Thsi was written in two parts; first part was writen at last summer and second just a while ago (I bet you can tell where first written ends). And same as before; I'm not native english speaker, don't have beta and haven't attended english classes for almost a year. Contains spoilers for episode 47 of PGSM as well kinda one sided Rei/Minako. I also don't own Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon, obviously. If I owned, Motoki and probably Nephrite (was it his name?) would end in some deserted island. And Rei and Minako wouldn't be only little hints here and there. And now, off you go

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"Mi-na-ko"

It can't be!

Why?!

"MINAKO!"

You curse every god and deity you know inside your head.

She is dead.

But she can't be.

Not yet, she was supposed to be cured thanks to that operation. All of you should have celebrated that.

And maybe, just maybe, you would have confessed. Confessed you have remembered your past life.

Confessed that you're in love with her, like you were in past life.

But you didn't fall in love with her because it just happened somewhere in time you don't remember that great.

You, Hino Rei, fell in love with Aino Minako.

And you don't have foggiest idea when that happened.

Just somewhere along the line you noticed how important she is to you; how you always watched live her moves, how your heart always skipped a beat when she smiled and when you found out about her illness it became your daily mission to try to convince her to go to operation.

Just somewhere she become like air you breath. Vital, something you couldn't live without.

And you feel like suffocating. Like someone was trying to take your air away. And succeeded in it. How you were supposed to live now? Pretending to breath, was that all you could do in the future? No! That isn't possible. Trying to live like you really don't love the person you really love.

Because she is dead.

Dead.

Gone.

How can you live when knowing you're not going to see her smile? Or when there isn't going to be anyone who calls you Mars Reiko? How you're supposed to wake up when you know you're not going to see her. Ever.

And how can you become the leader she wanted you to be? You can't help but think that maybe she knew this day will come and tried to make sure you could be the leader others needed.

But why, why she kept talking about past, like wanting you to remember you two together?

She had to know what would happen. What have happened inside you

You, Hino Rei, Sailor Mars, can't feel it anymore. The flame inside you has been killed.