It had been a while since she had heard Troys deep voice, and she feared the worst as he opened his mouth.
"Y-your what?" He stuttered, clearly shocked with the news.
"I'm pregnant." She said, biting what was left of her short black nails.
Guilt clouded his brain as he searched her face for what she was feeling, "How?" He asked, already knowing the answer.
"You know how Troy. If you mean when, it was the night after your conditioning." She pulled at the hem of her shirt and bit her lip. Her mind immediately went to the life she had growing up with all the moving, lack of contact with friends, and the constant rejection she always felt not having her father around. Whoever this baby was, she was already adamant that it would not grow up the way she did.
His own mind was clouded with 100 different emotions, all of which were battling to come to the surface. "I uh....I know how." he said slowly, running his hands through his sandy blonde hair, " I, don't know how to say this....bu-"
Her head over-powered her heart and took control over her mouth, "Troy don't." She sighed digging out her roommates skeleton key chain. "I don't have the luxury of thinking this through, but I love you enough to let you make up your mind. You have a bright future, and I don't want to be the reason you don't go places." She turned on her heel and slammed the door behind her, rushing down the hall.
She flung open the door to Jocelyns car and told herself not to cry, and that she would be okay. The whirring of the engine cut through the darkness and she turned the car towards her school. Her roommate was having a booty call, but she was sure the guy was long gone. She never understood how girls could just have sex with a random guy every night, but was glad she lent her the car.
They always shared their lives with each other, and kept their freezer stocked with pints of their favorite ice cream. They would sit on the sofa and watch girly movies and discuss their boyfriends, or her 'recent victim' as Jocelyn referred to it. Or their classes or life in general, and she couldn't wait to open up that mint chocolate chip pint waiting for her back home.
She slammed the dorm door, and headed towards the freezer ripping out the ice cream and grabbed two spoons. "Hey Joz, care to join me?" She said, fighting off the urge to cry right there.
Jocelyn jumped off the couch and hugged her, "I'd love to join you kiddo, what happened?"
They sat there for a while, and Gabriella told her everything including the look on Troys face when she told him she was pregnant with his baby. It was a look that she wishes she hadn't seen, because it haunted her. They had made love to each other for the first time that summer before they went off to college and it was nothing short of amazing. The last time, was only their second time and the whole 'making love' thing was still very awkward and new to the both of them.
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*FLASHBACK*
Gabriellas chest heaved and her legs burned as Troy rolled off of her. He laid his hand on her stomach and tried regulating his own breathing.
"Wow." Gabriella said softly, her mind reeling from what they had just done.
Making love was still new, and it still hurt her physically but she couldn't believe how much more she loved him when they would make love.
Troy laughed softly, stroking her stomach with his fingertips, "Yeah."
"Where did you find all that energy after running all those suicides?" She asked, lacing their fingers together.
He smiled and pulled her towards his chest. He brushed his lips against her temple and took in the scent of her strawberry shampoo. "I don't think I would ever be too tired for this Gabby." He tickled her hip with his fingers and smiled. "But damn Gab...Your...amazing."
She giggled softly and ran her hand down his chest, "Me? I don't do anything but lie there."
"No, trust me.........that isn't true." He said, still trying to catch his breath.
"What do you mean? You were there." She laughed, tickling his chest with her hair.
He chuckled, and squeezed her tight. "I mean, the way you react to me and what I'm doing. You are 'interactive' you know? You do more than you think."
"Oh, like xbox?" She joked.
He laughed, "yeah, like that only better. Though I do love halo. It's a tough call."
She giggled her sweet giggle, "Mmh, nice."
She frowned as he started to sit up, taking her with him. "Where you going?" she asked, showing off the infamous Montez pout.
"Bathroom, don't give me that pout Gabby. If I stay we'll have a bigger mess on our hands, I'll be right back. Keep the bed warm" He said, giving her tiny nose a peck before pulling on his boxers and padding to the bathroom.
She flopped back on the bed and pulled the sheets up to her chin. She smiled as she thought about her life and just how near perfect everything seemed right now. All the moving around, arguments with her mother to stop, the painful goodbyes. But right now, none of it mattered because she was happy with Troy.
"Shit!" Troys voice was muffled in the bathroom, as he flushed the toilet.
"What's the matter?" She called out into the dark room.
Silence was heard, followed by "Nothing, I just hit my head."
"Aww, not your face I hope. Otherwise I'm afraid we'll have to call it quits. That's your only attractive quality." she said, laughing at her own joke.
He headed out rubbing his head, and crawled into bed next to her.
She frowned when she noticed he hadn't laughed at her joke, "Babe I was only kidding."
"Yeah, I know." he said, smiling weakly as she let her head slide back between his shoulder and head.
"What's wrong then? Your mood changed drastically."
"Just tired, you wore me out." A smile danced on his lips, "I love you Gabby, no matter what ever happens remember that okay."
"Well I love you too." She sweetly pecked his mouth, and cuddled up to him.
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"I'm so sorry honey, you deserve better tha-" Joz began, but was cut off by a raging Gabriella.
"No." Gabriella interrupted, "Don't finish that sentence. Troy is one of the reasons I am who I am today. He taught me to stand up for myself and encouraged me to follow my heart."
"Gabriella, that isn't what I was going to say. I was going to say that you deserve better than a guy not wanting to be with you. Maybe it's hard to hear but god, he knocked you up. If he runs he's not worthy of anything from you!" she said, finishing off the ice cream.
"It's not that easy Joz. I really expected more from him. I mean he's always been right there trying to fix everything, and make things work." she pulled her legs up to he chest and hugged them.
Jocelyn bit her lip, knowing the next sentence was a hit or miss. "Don't get upset with me, but is it possible you over-thought his reaction?"
Gabriella whipped her head towards Jocelyn shooting her an icy look.
Jocelyn sighed, knowing she missed. "Okay, okay. I'm just trying to help here, I mean he was trying to say something and he didn't finish. It could've been anything." She hooked her arm around Gabriellas shoulders and pulled her into her, giving her a hug. "I love you kiddo, but sometimes you jump to conclusions and maybe with your hormones kicking in, you just....snapped?"
Gabriella sighed, she wasn't too happy with what Jocelyn had said, but couldn't argue with her. She hadn't let Troy finish his sentence, and she reacted off of her own thoughts.
"You're right I guess. I'm sorry. I'm already over-whelmed." she sighed, and felt guilty for leaving Troy the way she did. "Thanks for helping me Joz, i don't know what I would do without our little ice cream socials"
"No problem Gabs, I love you too" she smiled, she had never heard Gabby say "I love you" to anyone, but she knew she meant to. "Do you want to hang out some more?"
"No. I think I'm going to finish up my term paper. It's due Thursday. Thanks for everything." She said, hugging Jocelyn. "Oh, how was..." She shrugged her shoulders, waiting for her to fill in the blanks.
Jocelyn laughed, tossing their spoons into the sink. "David, he was mediocre. I've had better."
Gabriella smiled, "Well, tomorrow is a new day"
"Damn straight." Jocelyn said, laughing. "Night honey."
Jocelyn closed the bedroom door and Gabriella sat down at her laptop to review her term paper for printing. She hated trying to focus on her school work when she had other things on her mind, especially when they are this huge.
bzzzzt her cellphone buzzed, but the vibrations fell short against the keystrokes.
After a while she checked her cellphone for the time, out of habit and noticed Troy left a voice mail. She opened her mailbox and listened to his message.
"Oh my god!" she gasped.
Jocelyn opened her door, "Hey, do you need a break already? You just started."
"No, Troy called and left me a voice mail. The mystery is gone. Take a listen." She punched in her pass code and handed the phone to Jocelyn who pressed it to her ear.
"Oh lord sweetheart..." Jocelyn said, putting her hand over her mouth.