Note : I do not own Twilight! No matter how much I pray, not matter how much I cry and beg, I don not own twilight. (Sob)

Edward's Pov

I heasitated. I knew Bella was awake and I had never been in her room with her awake. She was talking to her mother on the phone. A smile stretched across my face and with out thinking I listened harder.

"I'm loving Forks." Bella had replied to a statment I wasn't able to catch. That confused me. She hated Forks. Absolutely loathed it. I scaled the building so I was hanging by one hand from her window.

"This doesn't have anything to do with a guy does it?" Bella's mother, Renee asked.

"Mom! Of course no-, yeah." Bella admitted quicker than I would have thought. The urge to kiss her was stronger than ever before and I decided right then and there I was going to tonight.

"Tell me all about him!" Renee squealed and I suddenly realized that Bella wasn't joking when she said she was young for her age. Before Bella could respond I was already in her room.

"Ah mom I have to go." Bella responded looking at me in shock and happiness.

"Wait I want to know about this boy. Are you being safe?" Renee asked but Bella hung up.

"How did you get in here?" She asked.

"Window." I admitted with a secret smile. But of course Bella was a little too observent.

"How long have you been doing that?" She asked, narrowing her eyes at me now, thought they still shown with happiness which pleased me.

"Not long....." I shrugged. "Only the last 2 months."

She grinned at that to my utter ashtonishment. And the gentle pull to her lips drove me over the edge.

"I just want to try one thing." I whispered. Her grin faded when I sat on the bed closer to her then I had ever been before. "Be very still." I warned and then leaned forward slowly. She shifted a bit which didn't help. "Don't move."

I kissed her softly, loving the feeling of her warm lips against my cold ones more than I should. But I was in controle. I wish I could say the same for Bella.

She shifted again this time getting on her knees to get closer to me. I knew I should have stopped but I couldn't. The monster inside of me was purring in satisfaction. My head tilted back as she wrapped her arms around my neck, but I had to stay in controle. These were not my actions. I pushed her back down still kissing her so that I was somewhat laying on top of her. And that's where it all went wrong.

Bella parted her lips slightly and her breath, the place with the best scent other than her throat, hit me. I had to stop or I would end up killing her, that I was sure of.

I jumped back a little to quick and a little to strong crashing into the wall behind me. I took deep breahts letting her scent burn me so that I could get used to it. "I'm stronger than I thought." I breathed still gasping for the air I didn't need.

"I wish I could say the same." Bella mummbled. "I'm sorry."

"It's fine, but I should-" I turned planning on going back home and talking to Carlisle. Maybe he would understand why I was able to stop myself before I killed her.

"Wait! Stay. Don't go." Bella stopped me. A small crooked grin spread across my face. We talked for hours, untill Bella was too tired to stay awake. But she made me promise not to go. So I was laying on her bed a few inches away from her. with one arm behind my head so I could resist the urge to wrap it around her.

Bella said my name a few times like always, but she wasn't tossing like she usually did. But then she did move. She turned in her sleep so that her head was resting on my chest and her arm sat limp next to it. Her warmth froze me in place. She didn't flinch away from the coldness of my skin, she grinned when she touched it.

My unbeating heart swelled with happiness then. Bella was my life now. The only thing that mattered.