Disclaimer: I don't own OTH. But I do get to claim the oh so fabulous characters that I made up in my crazy mind.
Summary: There are moments we find ourselves at crossroads, afraid, confused with out a roadmap, the choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days.
Authors Note: Okayy, so I know that I said I was going to wait until I finished, but I was thinking about it and this is going to be a very long story and if I wait to finish, we will be well in to next year before it was posted, so I have written enough chapters where I am comfortable posting now, knowing that you all wont be having to wait months at a time for an update. So with that said, this is NOT a "new" story, it is just a new version of the old one. It will have a lot of stuff from the old version, but I went through and changed a lot to insure that it runs smoothly and things aren't just popping up out of the blue. As you all can assume, I LOVE reviews and hope you all take the time to leave them, good or bad. I want to know what everyone thinks regardless of whether you are a fan or not, I can only improve if I am told what I need to.
Also a HUGE thanks to Lynn (justlikebrooke) for her amazingness with me. She is not only my beta but she gets to listen to me ramble on and on everyday. So thank you darling, I love you for everything!
When Your Dreams Died
Chapter One: I'll Keep Your Memory Vague
This won't break your heart
But I just think it could
Cause I haven't tried as hard as I should
To separate you from everything I do
But I would never want to come between us two
It was an oddly familiar feeling, one she thought would have gone away by now, but as her back hit the firm bed and his toned body pushed in to her more she realize that this was a feeling she was never going to forgot. It was like riding a bike and no matter how long it had been since the last time it happened she would still feel the same breath hick in her through as his large hands roamed her body softly. She would never forget the husky grunts that came for his mouth as he kissed her jaw line. This was second nature, and they were both realizing that, and before the two knew it, her arms were up waiting for him, before his finger tips could get to the hem of the thin shit.
She looked around the small apartment, letting out a small sigh as a smile started to spread across her face. Some people would call her living space nothing more then an over sized box, but to her it was her over sized box and there was nothing in the world she was more proud of. There was a small white couch n the living room with a matching white lounge chair to the size, a dark wood coffee table in front of it with a small TV on it. There was a small open space off to the size where there was a sewing machine and a small table with a sewing machine and then off to the side of that was a small kitchen. It was really nothing more then a small area with a stove and a refrigerator with a small counter but it functioned and that was enough to make her happy.
There was a knock at the door and she smiled, practically running over and opening the door before letting out a small squeal before she practically leap forward to take the short hair burette in to her hand before she pulled away and turned to the tall burette pulling him in to a hug before she finally made her way to the small of the trio.
"Hales he has gotten so big!" She squealed causing her two old friends to laugh
"I am four" the light haired child said proudly
"Really?" She smiled "That's pretty old if you ask me"
"No, mommy and daddy are old. I am just a kid" he shrugged causing all the adults to smile before a kind of awkward silence fall over them
"Um, Brooke?" Nathan questioned as the four stood outside
"Oh, oh I am so sorry come in come in" she said ushering them in taking the bags out of there hands "I know it is nothing much, but I hope you guys will have enough room"
"Brooke this place is great" Haley smiled admiring all small accents that just screamed Brooke, there were pictures and small paintings all over the cream colored walls, fresh flowers in a small vase on the kitchen table, a warm blanket over the back of the couch
"Thanks, assistants don't make much, but hopefully this is only temporary"
"Well, for now it is great" Haley smiled
"Well thank you. Now, I kind of tried to make dinner, but…"
"You burned it?" Jamie asked looking up at his godmother "That is what the smell is isn't it"
"Sadly" Brooke frowned looking down to him "But… I order a pizza, it should be here soon"
"Sweet" Jamie smiled "Who are you again?"
Brooke laughed and knelt down so she was at eye level with him "I am your godmother"
"I know that, but I thought godmothers were suppose to like fly and do magic and stuff"
"Well… I can't cook… but I can sow,"
Jamie shrugged "Good enough"
Brooke chuckled ruffling his hair slightly "So I pass the godmother test?"
Jamie studied her for a moment before he let a small smile spread across his face "I suppose you will do"
"Well good" Brooke smiled widely picking up the small boy "Because I would have been very sad if I failed"
The evening seemed to shift in to night smoother then Brooke though and before she knew it Jamie was asleep in her room and her, Haley and Nathan were laughing over beers talking about the "good old days" and it made Brooke smile. It had been so long since she'd seen any of her friends, let alone Haley. When she had left for New York, she left with every intention of keeping in touch with everyone, but life got to them all and so now here they were sitting on a couch talking and laughing for the first time in four years.
"Okay, so now that Natey here is playing for the Knicks, what is tutor girl going to be doing?" Brooke questioned
I'll keep your memory vague
So you won't feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
Sometimes so it reminds me
"So are you sad that you are leaving in two days?" He asked as the two walked in to the empty café
"Yeah" she shrugged "But I am excited, I thought I would be stuck in California with my parents and then I found out I got this internship with Victoria Secret and then that I got in to that fashion school right in the city, it just feels like everything is finally falling in to place"
"Well I am very proud of you" he smiled at the brunette as he went be hind the counter grabbing to mugs
"Well what about you, UNC is a great school…but I always knew you would get in to whatever school you wanted" Brooke winked at him as she shock the packet of chocolate that he had just handed her
"Well actually…there is this school about three hours from here, it isn't that amazing or anything, but Whitey is coaching and he offered me the assistant coaching job. And also Nathan and Haley are going there…"
"Well that is great Lucas, but what about UNC, that was your dream I thought"
"My dream was to be playing basketball at a college, this is as close as I could get"
"Well then" Brooke smiled lifting her mug "Congratulations" she said pressing her mug to his before pulling it away and taking a sip of the hot liquid before looking up and sending him a wink.
"Well I don't really know, I mean I kind of have always wanted to teach, but it's a new city with new people an I think maybe I am just going to take a year off and spend it with Jamie, I mean he is going to be going to preschool soon and I feel like I have missed so much as it is with school and everything"
"Well that sounds good to me, I wish I could take a year off" she sighed tossing the pizza crust in her hand in to the box
"I thought you were working for Victoria Secret?" Nathan question
"No, that fell through pretty fast when I got here, it just didn't work out, but I am working for Ralph Lauren at the moment, it is just a small branch and I am only an assistant, but I figure if I stick with it long enough something is bound to happen"
"Well I hope it does because you are way to talented to be an assistant" Haley said taking a sip of her tea
"Well thank you but New York doesn't seem to think that same" She smiled sadly.
"So what else have you been up to, I mean it's been four years, you have to have been doing more then just school and work" Nathan asked
"Nope, really, it was just school and work, and well…" Brooke's sentence was cut off by the ringing of her phone, she looked up to the clock on the wall realizing it was always eleven o'clock at night a suddenly got slightly worried as she stood up to make her easy to the kitchen where her phone was "Excuse me" she said politely to Haley and Nathan before she answer.
She talked for a few minutes, and it became clear to Nathan and Haley that Brooke knew who ever it was on the phone. Her voice didn't sound panicked or uneasy, just a bit unsure and when she hung up she let out a small sigh
"Everything alright?" Haley asked
"Yea, listen guys, I hate to do this on your first night here, but I have to run and go do something, it shouldn't be to long though"
"That's is totally fine, don't worry about it, we were getting ready to head to bed anyway" Haley assured her
"Okay, well I am really sorry again" Brooke sighed putting on her jacket "Take my room, feel free to use whatever you need and I told Casey to stay out of the bathroom in the morning so it is all your guys when you need it"
"Who's Casey?" Nathan asked as him and his wife stood from the couch
"Oh, she is my roommate, we met in college and now we work together, she is gone for the night though and I doubt you will see her in the morning but she should be home for dinner tomorrow"
"Alright, well we are looking forward to it" Haley smiled as her and Nathan made there way to Brooke's room, Nathan going all the way in to check on Jamie but Haley stopped and turned to Brooke
"Brooke are you sure everything is okay?"
"Yeah, of course" she smiled "There's just something I have to take care of"
Now I'm thinking back
To what I said before
I hope your heart won't have to hurt anymore
Cause it's really not that sad from here
Because the moments I can feel you near
They keep you close to me my dear
And if they ever become too clear...
Her back arched as his swollen lips made there way down her heaving chest. The slight task of salt hit his lips from the small beads of sweat glistening on her chest. She moaned out as he made his way further down her body, knowing exactly how to touch her and caress her. Her nails dug in to his bad as she then pulled thin up leave a trap of white lines up his back as she throw her head back in pleasure. God she forgot how amazing he was.
The next morning Brooke mad her way in to the small apartment, it was just after six thirty. There were dark circles under her eyes and the clothes she had on from the night before were winkled and hung loser on her then before, but when she saw Haley cooking in the kitchen she smiled through her tiredness
"Hey Tutor Mom"
"Hey Brooke" Haley smiled laughing slightly at the old nickname "You had me a it worried"
"I know, I am sorry, I guess I didn't think I would be staying the night, but I didn't want to call and wake you. I figured I would be home early enough, I forgot that you are like a robot and don't sleep past six"
Haley laughed as she flipped a pancake "Well there is coffee all ready for you and I am making breakfast, I hope you like pancakes"
"I love pancakes" Brooke smiled as she made her way over to the coffee pot "But you shouldn't have cooked, you are my guest"
"Oh please, we are crashing at your place, in your room non the less it is the lest I an do"
"Well I appreciate it; it is very sweet of you"
"Anything for my Brookie" Haley eased "God it has been so long Brooke, don't ever make me go this long with out seeing you again"
Brooke chuckled slightly as she hopped on the counter next to Haley "Trust me, if you are making breakfast every morning you will be lucky if I let you move out."
Haley laughed before she turned the stove off and turned to her friend "So where was it that you went last night?"
"It wasn't a big deal I just got a call and I had to go down to" Brooke started when the door of her room and opened and the small light haired boy that had been asleep in it appeared with his blanket in hand as he rubbed the sleep out of his eyes
"Mommy?" His whinny voice called out causing the two women to smile
"In the kitchen baby" Haley said as he made his way to them
"Morning Jamie" Brooke smile down to him
"Good morning Brooke" he said as he climbed his way up on to the chair before Haley set a plate in front of him
"So what are your plans today?" Brooke asked turning to Haley again
"Oh nothing much, maybe do a little shopping for the new apartment, I might take Jamie to go see Nathan at practice, nothing to crazy"
"Are we going to go see Uncle Luke again?" Jamie asked with a smile
"Jamie, Uncle Luke lives kind of far away" Brooke said as she grabbed a banana from behind her
"No, we just saw him at his new restaurant yesterday"
"What? Since when does Lucas have a restaurant?" Brooke asked know seriously confused
"I was meaning to talk to you about that" Haley sighed turning to Brooke "Lucas kind of took his money from his book and bought a restaurant"
"What? That is crazy" Brooke laughed
"Yeah… and it is here, in the City, it is actually right down the street" Haley assed biting her lip slightly
"Well why the hell did no one tell me?" Brooke asked getting off the counter
"Ew! You said a bad word"
"Sorry" Brooke said with a frown before she turned back to Haley "How long has he been here?"
"A few months" Haley shrugged
"A few months?" Brooke screeched "Why didn't he call"
"Maybe he thought thing would be to awkward"
Now you've gone away
Don't worry it's ok
That you're gone away
Further than yesterday
But you'll never leave these scenes
My mind replays
The sheets were tangled around him and the pillows had practically been tossed off the bed, his clothes were god only knows where and as he stirred he knew how swore he would be, but it was worth it after the night he had had. He let a smile spread across his lips as he stretched out, only to have the smile fall when he realized that the space next to him was empty and cold. He opened in his eyes and sat up looking around the room, drugging a hand through his hair when he found it empty. Sighing he looked down and then to the empty space, only to find that it was all that empty, there was a small folded piece of paper with his name on it. He adjusted him self to lean on the head board as he furrowed his eyebrows in confusion before he picked up the piece of paper and let his eyes read the words before a full frown grace his face as he looked away, crumbling the letter before throwing it as hard as he could across the room.
"Why would it be awkward?" Brooke asked in confusion has she chewed her food
"He told me about the day you left" Haley said softly
Brookes face fell slightly, as did the thing yellow fruit in her hand "That wasn't what it seemed"
"It is not my business but he was pretty torn up about it. He wouldn't say way for a while, I just figured it was because of Peyton for a while, but then last year he told me what happened…"
"It was a mistake, Peyton had just left and I was leaving and we just…"
"Brooke you don't owe me an explanation"
A comfortable silence fall on the three before the door opened and a slightly dishevel blonde walked in. she was very thing and she ware a nice party shirt paired with a pair of dark wash jeans, her heal hung front her hand as her thick, long blonder then blond hair was large and curly. She looked up and her bright blue eyes gave out a slight sparkle as she studied the new bodies in her apartment
"Oh, that's right your friends from hick ville were coming" she smiled
"Your funny" Brooke said sarcastically as the blonde stuck her tongue out "Casey this is one of my bestest friends in the world Haley and this is her son Jamie"
"Nice to meet you finally, Brooke never shuts up about you"
Haley laughed slightly before smiling at the blonde "It is nice to meet you too; I hope we aren't putting you out to much"
"Oh please, I am hardly here anyway, and plus you are in Brooke's room" Casey smiled to her burette friend before taking a sit at the table, stealing a small piece of cut pancake from Jamie's plate, receiving a death glare from the four year old before shrugging innocently
"So where have you been all night?"
"There was a club opening on 18th"
"It is almost 7 in the morning though" Haley said
Casey shrugged again "There were a lot of guys at this club opening, many of them drop dead gorgeous, and so my night was expended"
"As are all of your nights, but I am leaving in an hour so go get ready I am sick of you making me late" Brooke said walking away from the kitchen
"Fine but I call shower" Casey called to her
"Shower is in my room"
"Well I called it"
"Well Nathan is in my room and he doesn't know you" Brooke fought
"Nathan is at practice" Haley chimed in "And also, Nathan might now you, but I really hope you weren't going to be taking a shower were he could see"
Brooke scrunched up her face at the thought "Gross"
"Well from what you told me, if this is the right Nathan, he has already seen you naked" Casey smiled as both girls reached Brookes door. Haley glared to Brooke for a moment at the memory and Brooke glared to Casey
"Thanks for that"
"Anytime, now, I need to shower, I would hate to me late" Casey smiled before slipping in to the room locking the door behind her leaving Brooke to groan outside
"She seems simply charming" Haley smiled
"She's just delightful."
Where in the world have you gone now?
So that was chapter one. Hope you enjoyed it and trust me this is onlyy the beginning. Please let me knoq your thoughts. The more I know the more I can write and the faster I update. So let me now... god, bad, so so?