Summer was definitely not what I was expecting. My boyfriend unexpectedly broke up with me, and here I was thinking everything was going great. We'd been dating just a little over a year, he was my first kiss, the only guy I had given myself completely too. Though that one only happened recently so it just makes me wonder. I stare out the window as the Hogwarts express speeds passed the beautiful scenery. My friends are all chatting about their vacations, but I don't have the energy to deal with them, and I'm thankful they leave me to my thoughts. Everything seems to just blur together these days. It's been a couple weeks since the break up, and I tell myself it was bound to happen, especially when it comes to him. My friends tried to warn me, but I ignored them, defended him saying it's different with me. I shake my head just remembering how naive and foolish I was a year ago. I close my eyes pushing back the tears. I've cried enough over that boy. This year will be different, hopefully. I'll not swoon over the first boy who gives me attention. I'm stronger than that now.
"Olivia? It's time to change into our robes you coming?" Shaking me lightly out of my thoughts I look over to see Courtney with a look of worry on her face.
I smile softly and nod. "Yes, I'll come with you. Thank you." I stand up and grab my case to grab my robes and follow her to the women's restroom.
"You doing okay Livvie?" She asked as we walk back.
I nod my head softly. "Yes, I'm okay. Please don't worry. Every girl goes through their first break up right?" I try my best to assure her.
"Why yes but-"
"Court," I stop her for a moment with my hand on her shoulder. "I'll be fine."
She smiled and nodded her head.
We get to the changing room but see it's occupied so we stand outside the door and make small talk. The door clicks open shortly after and a girl from Ravenclaw comes out giggling and stops when she sees us. A boy comes out after her.
"Why did you stop?" He asked and his ice blue eyes look over to me and he looks shocked for a moment before recovering himself.
My heart literally stops in my chest seeing my ex with the girl.
He smirks. "Miss. Kendall, what a nice surprise."
"Malfoy -" Courtney begins but I shake my head stopping her.
"Don't Courtney. It's fine, he's not worth it." I turn around heading back to my seat.
Back at my seat, I bite my lips and close my eyes tightly. I can't believe he's already moved on! Hold it together Olivia, don't give him what he wants I tell myself. I sniffle and feel someone's hand rubbing my back softly. I look over and see Courtney and I give in and start sobbing into her chest.
The welcome feast and sorting ceremony finally finishes and I'm in my room with my roommates Courtney and Alisha. They're of course talking shit about my ex, which puts a small smile on my face.
"I can't believe he got to a Ravenclaw though, I thought they were the smart ones," Alisha comments.
Courtney shakes her head. "He probably paid her."
I gasp and then we all start laughing.
"But seriously Livvie, just forget about Malfoy, I hate to say we told you so but…" Alisha shrugs her shoulder with a sorry not sorry expression.
"I know, and I am sorry for not listening to you ladies. I was just…"
"He was your first boyfriend, we can't exactly blame you. You got swept up in the Slytherin Prince fairytale," Courtney stated.
"He was my first everything," I added.
The girls look at each other and then back at me.
"So you gave it to him?" Alisha asked.
I blush and nod. "On our one year."
They both exhale deeply and come over to sit next to me. "We're sorry." They both rub my back and I rest my head on Alisha's shoulder.
"Can I get Drew to kick his ass?" Courtney asked.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~Draco's POV~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm in my room with Goyle and Zabini lounging in the chairs, while I sit on the edge of my bed. Today's events have been quite interesting to say the least. I know her and I are in the same house, but to run into her so soon… I shake my head, I got what I wanted. I even stayed just a little longer with her so it wouldn't seem so obvious. Then why do her eyes haunt me since this morning?
"Probably because this is the longest you've held out to get a girl in your bed?" Zabini suggested.
Had I spoken out loud? "So what? Seeing her crushed eyes should have been no problem. I've seen that look before in the other girls, never had this happen."
The two of them shrug their shoulders.
"Ugh, you two are worthless, just go, I'll see you both tomorrow."
Once the door was closed I look around the private room. I'm thankful Father pushed for this, having stupid idiots as roommates is pathetic and nauseating. I get up and go to the bathroom suite. Turning on the hot water in the sink I wash my face. Closing my eyes I see the look in Olivia Kendall's eyes as she sees me with another girl, the look of sorrow and pain at it's breaking point. I grab the hand towel and dry my face off taking a deep breath. I set the towel on the edge of the sink and run my hands through my hair. I need to let her go. I thought I had already done so, but for some reason this time is different. I shake my head, no it's not different, it's just annoying.
I undress and get into a pair of green and black plaid pj bottoms. I drop to the floor and begin my workout. I need to get her out of my head, I need to focus and move on. I mean, not that I'm hung up on her, but she's lingering and that is not okay. Eight...nine…..ten…. I am surprised that I did last that long, it was pretty fun though, she wasn't a horrible girl to hang out with and be with. In truth, she was amazing. She didn't nag me about anything, totally let me be myself, it was refreshing. Fifteen...sixteen...seventeen….eighteen...nineteen….twenty...Stop thinking about her! I snap to myself. I stop my workout and just lie on my back. I covered my face, deep breath in...deep breath out. I finally get up, take a quick cold shower, and go to bed. Tomorrow is a new day.
~~~~~~~~~~~Olivia's POV~~~~~~~~~~~~
Today's a new day! Today is the first day of classes, it's going to be great! I can do this. I give myself a little pep talk while applying my makeup. I finish my eyeliner and put everything away before giving myself a final look over. I smooth out my white shirt, and make sure my tie isn't crooked. I do a final brush off of my skirt before finally leaving the bathroom. I smile to my friends who are finishing up themselves. I grab my robe and put it on getting reacquainted with the uniform for the sixth time. Once we're all ready we leave for the Great Hall for some breakfast. We compare classes, and notice we only have one class that we're all in. I knew I wouldn't be in a lot of classes with them, because I'm taking more advanced classes, but still, it was disappointing.
The hall was buzzing with students chatting with one another, getting ready for the new school year to start. We sit at the end of the Slytherin table and start filling our plates. We talk about nothing important, and eat all we could, the food here is top notch, a lot better than my step-mother's cooking. I pause mid bite, and look around, I feel as if someone is watching me. I look down the table, and see platinum hair move, as if to look away. My heart tightens, but I do my best to continue to eat as if nothing happened.
We go our separate ways and head to class, my first one being Advanced Transfiguration, I'm really looking forward to it, it's one of my favorite subjects. Arriving to the classroom, I notice I'm one of the first ones here, Hermione Granger is of course here before me. I never had an issue with the "Golden Trio" but I never interacted with them either. I sit down, taking out some parchment, ink and a quill. I also pull out my assigned textbook and align everything, so it's in place. I tuck a strand of my hair behind my ear and prepare myself for today's lesson.
"Good morning class," Professor McGonagall walked in acknowledging us.
"Good morning Professor McGonagall," we reply.
"This is Transfiguration five hundred and seven, the advanced class to sixth year standard. If you're in the wrong class I suggest you leave now." She turned to face the class.
The doors suddenly swung open and McGonagall arched her brow. "Mr. Malfoy, not only are you late, this is the advanced course."
My chest tightens hearing the name. I carefully glance next to me seeing the spot empty, and I close my eyes praying to someone that he sit somewhere else.
"Very well, there's a free seat next to Miss. Kendall you may sit there."
A few people began whispering, and I tried my best to ignore them and not make eye contact with him. The best thing to do was just pretend he wasn't there. Just focus on the lesson…. Oh god he's wearing my favorite cologne….Focus! I mentally shake the thoughts away. I casually and quietly move my chair a bit farther away from him, so I'm not close to him. A girl can only take so much. As I adjust myself, I feel his eyes on me. Do not acknowledge him... . Acknowledge him. It takes all of my strength to ignore him, and finally that beautiful bell sound rings throughout, I packed everything up real quick and got out of there as fast as I could.
~~~~~~~Draco's POV~~~~~~~~~
It was so amusing watching her struggle to ignore me. I knew she was stubborn but damn this took the cake. The only reason I'm even in this class was because I surprised everyone by actually Exceeding my OWLs, so the headmaster and other professor's wanted to see how well I do in advanced courses. Whatever, like I care. I had to hold in a chuckle when she moved away from me. I grab all my things and wink at the Ravenclaw chick from the train, she giggles with delight. I motion her to follow me and she does so without question, gotta love that.
[PDA by Backstreet Boys]
"Intimacy
Fresh from my dreams
Over a triple X movie screen
I couldn't care less about being seen
A higher self esteem if you're on me?" I push her against the wall and trap her between my arms.
"Ain't that the way it's supposed to be?" she asks.
"I say baby do you think
Sugar so sweet should rot my teeth
But instead it just rottens me
Spoiled crazy" I run my hand down the side of her body.
"I said,
Public display of affection
Pointing in that direction" I kiss her neck.
"Watch em, watch em" I hear by passers whisper
"Public display of affection
Makes them wish they had it this way" I kiss her lips hungrily. I hear a small gasp and I look over to see her and I smirk, and she hurries off quickly, acting like she didn't just witness me.
"We'd be at the club, the restaurant, the grocery store or the movies
Kissing and touching with my hands all over your booty" My hands roam all over her body, and grab her ass especially.
"Wherever it is, we is, I love it truly
Your P-D-A hey hey
(I want your P-D-A)
Your P-D-A, hey hey
(I want your P-D-A)
Your P-D-A hey hey
(I want your P-D-A)" I pull away from her, seeing as she's out of breath and I'm bored.
"See ya around," I tell her and walk away towards next period.
~~~~~~Olivia's POV~~~~~~~
Why? Why on earth did he have to be in that class? Why did I date him? Why did I have to watch that snogging fest between him and Meghan Barnes? Why is life playing this cruel joke on me? Did I do something bad? This just isn't fair. I can't just grab a random person and start snogging them! I'd be called a whore and a slut of course. But not the Slytherin Prince himself, god forbid he ever get called a slut. UGH! I'm so angry, and hurt. I stop outside my next class, which is potions, trying to catch my breath and rein in my emotions. After a moment I walk in and sit down. I can hear the whispers and feel people looking at me. I guess this is the price I pay when I date the most popular boy in school. I carefully wipe my eyes and tuck my hair behind my ear again.
Luckily he wasn't in this class, or if he is he didn't show. Probably too busy snogging off that poor Ravenclaw's face off. I finally have free period, then it's lunch and finally Herbology with Courtney and Alisha and last but not least, my night class Advanced Astronomy. I usually go to the library during free period, but today I decide to go back to my room. I enter the common room and stop in my steps, and see him sitting on the couch which his back toward me. Just act like you didn't see him I tell myself. I continue to walk and as I'm approaching the steps I hear him clear his throat. I close my eyes and look over my shoulder at Draco. He's casually lounging on the sofa with one leg resting on top the other. He smirks as we make eye contact for the first time since the train ride.
"So now you acknowledge me," he says.
I arch my eyebrow and slightly turn my body toward him instead of heading upstairs, like I should be doing. "Excuse me?"
"I have to say I was impressed how you stubbornly ignored me in first period."
Of course he could tell. I'm sure everyone could. "Did you need something Malfoy, I have things to do." which wasn't far from the truth.
He stands up and smirks. "Oh am I keeping you?"
I roll my eyes and turn to walk away.
He dashes over to me and grabs my hand. "Would you just look at me?" he asked.
I shut my eyes tightly and swallow hard. "No," I answer and pull my hand away from him before jogging up the stairs quickly.
Finally in the safety of my room, I let the tears loose and sniffle softly. Why is this so hard? I ask myself. I wipe the tears away and sniffle more. I walk to the bathroom to wash my face and re-apply my makeup. I look at myself in the mirror and try to smile, but it's no use. I sigh deeply and hang my head low.
[Better in Time by Leona Lewis]
"It's been the longest [summer] without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming
Thought I heard a knock (Whose there, no one?)" I turn to face the door and sigh facing the mirror again.
"Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now I have realized
That I really didn't know
If you didn't notice
You mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all I know is)
Imma be okay" I look at my reflection trying to believe that I will be okay.
"Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeah (It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
Oh (It'll all get better in time)" This time I smile, thinking of my friends and family who love me and are there to help me when I need them, and that makes me smile for real.
"How could I turn on the TV
Without something that'll would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To put aside your feeling" I close my eyes picturing him with her both on the train and in the hallway.
"If I'm dreamin'
Don't want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And I know that, time will heal it
If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
Oh turn up again (All I know is)
I'm be OK
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeah (It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
Oh (It'll all get better in time)" I walk out of the bathroom and stand in the middle of the room.
"Since there's no more you and me (No more you and me)
This time I let you go so I can be free" I close my eyes, take a deep breath and exhale slowly.
"And live my life how it should be (No no no no no no)
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes I will" I sing with determination and strength for the first time in a while, I believe it when I sing those words.
"Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeah (It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
Oh (It'll all get better in time)"
With the last words, I pick up my stuff and get ready for the rest of the day. Luckily by the time I came back downstairs, Draco was already gone. Judging by the time, I have a good fifteen minutes left of free period, enough for me to grab a snack on my way to Herbology class.