I wrote this fanfic a long time ago... I fell in love with this story, unfortunately I lost so many chapters for this story, only this one survived. I'll write more soon.

Enjoy.

"YOU FUCKING LIAR!"

The sound of glass plates and cup break can be heard from miles, "BASTARD!" Roxas spat with venom. Roxas' fists have formed into a ball… Calm down, Roxas, remember the anger rule; take in breath… 1...2…3… yes, that is it. Breathe. He closes his eyes. Roxas, just breathe. He then opens his cerulean blue eyes and see those lies behind his glorious golden bronze eyes. Roxas' whole body shakes in an aggravating way yet in fear, "You need to tell me the fucking truth, Xemnas."

The guy with a long silver hair stood in front of me raising his eyebrow like he was nuts or something but, is amused, "What are you saying? Hell, I have no idea what are you talking about." Xemnas lies through his teeth. Roxas knows when he lies and when he tells the truth. He has watched Xemnas carefully since Xemnas starts laid his finger on him years ago… Xemnas smiles, "Darling, calm down I just got home from work… I have no time for this."

What the fuck? How can he manage to able to smile like that, with these lies he told. What have I seen in him anyway? Roxas thought.

"Sweetie, you know my work schedule and I told you earlier that I will come home late." The sound of him walking up to Roxas slowly, and about to grab his hands but he snatch it away like it was on the fire.

"Fuck you!" Roxas picks up another plate to throw at him, unfortunately, Xemnas ducks. "What on the earth are you doing?!"

"You have been cheating on me!" Feeling sick to his stomach but continuing this anyway, "I am not stupid than you think! I mean, you have been coming home late with these hickeys." Hickeys, which Roxas rarely gave him one... "And, every time I sleep with you, all the sudden you have the same scent on you which aren't yours… you never wore a lavender scent " He growls, "Who is the tramp you have been fucking with anyway?! I bet it was this whore Sai—" The next thing it happens is Roxas is on against the wall; Xemnas' hand is holding his throat threatening to crush his windpipe. Coughing violently and whimpering. Tears in his blue eyes are formed and he have tried to hold them back but failed.

Nobody knows how badly I wish for this to be over…

"You need to shut the fuck up. You're giving me a damn headache." He hisses.

He abuses me, rapes me, drugs me, and controls me like a dog…

He chuckles darkly, "But sweetie, why do you care anyways?"

He even let his friends used me…

He slams Roxas against the wall only god knows how many he does that, and then he throws him on the hard, cold ground.

"I did everything for you! I cleaned your clothes, made you food, I even fucking gave you my love and all. You took it for granted, you bastard! What the fuck do you want from me when I have nothing left to give." Roxas finally able to breathe right. He rubs his achy throat and trying to hide the muffled sobs, "Why..."

It is getting hard and hard to hide these scars and bruises.

"If you never start being friends with those worthless people and sit back being a good whore... and I might never think of cheating on you." Xemnas swings his fist across his face. It stung so badly, it is going to leave a mark. "I was going to leave you soon anyways."

I should've left him in the first place…

Roxas wipes the blood off of his lip. He didn't move his head but glares at him through his blond bang, his eyes are not able to be seen.

"Saix is now my lover." He winces as he went on, "Nothing you can do about it, whore."

Xemnas grabs his arm and bent it like a stick as the sound of a bone snapped. He screams and screams for mercy.

"S-S-Stop! Dammit!" He groans and pants. Great… a broken arm... again, He curses under his breath as he glares at this bastard. Hard.

"Nobody cares about you, you fag mutt. If it wasn't for your hot body, I could have you killed right here, right now." Roxas whimpers and then he had a desire to escape. He bit his arm and made a run for it.

Xemnas bellows, "YOU LITTLE UNGRACEFUL BITCH!" But it's too late; he clutches his honey golden hair and pulled it. "Now, now, now you little bitch! If you say a word about this, even to this redheaded friend of yours…" Xemnas whispers in his ear before he throws him across the room, "I'd make sure there is no more daytime light for you to see and no more tomorrow for him neither."

But hey, he was my first love, I was a fucking coward and it fucking disgusts me. Why does it have to be me out of the people exist?

Roxas' eyes are all blurry from having his head hit countless time. And tears he has shredded is making it worse. He made a little whimper sound. Xemnas walks over to the kitchen table and gets a needle out of the drawer. He and seizes Roxas completely so he couldn't move. This fucker stabs a needle on his side. Roxas' body feels nothing but pain, soon he feels so numb. About 30 seconds later, the drug starts kicked in.

I'd do anything to make my relationship of 4 years with Xemnas disappear.

"Or I have a better idea, would you like to watch your family and friends get killed in front of you and left you alive… It'd be the only way you would stay alive and remember that they are dead because of you." He scoffs disapprovingly, "How pity… both sounds nice... I'm not really sure which to pick." Xemnas laughs. Roxas' eyes opened wide as he shivers in fear.

I, honestly, thought I could change him, his mind, and his heart.

He has found a voice before he starts to speak, the coughing out blood interrupted. "Sta… stay away from them… I promise I'll be good…" Roxas' voice breaks as he cries out, "I promise... please… please… stay away…" Xemnas picks the small boy up and holds in his arms. "I'll be a good boy…"

I was wrong.

Xemnas coos, "Shh.. It is ok honey, I will make everything better." His chapped lip brushes on Roxas' soft lip, it wasn't a nice kiss. It's more like rough and fills with lust… it's neither warm nor gentle. He cannot push him away… Xemnas is too strong. Here he is; a pathetic broken doll fills with false hopes.

I'm nothing but a pathetic and worthless fool.

He wanted to puke, but he couldn't... His eyes are getting heavy.

All he have ever remembered is seeing Xemnas getting his pants off and then the darkness has swallowed him whole.

Mom, Dad, Namine… Cloud, Sora, Leon… Demyx, Hayner, Xigbar…

There is a pair of beautiful emerald eyes appears on his mind,

Axel…

I'm so sorry…

As much as I'd love to tell you about this,

I couldn't.

I have to keep you all safe.