I told myself I wouldn't write a Rachel story but I couldn't help it. This is what my creative side gave me. Don't own anything.

Watching Commander McGarrett with Danny and Grace I feel a pang of jealousy. I know it's pointless but seeing Danny look at him the way he used to look at me hurts. I know I messed up and I let the fear control me. Their laughter floats on the wind and memories of my time in New Jersey as Danny's wife start playing in my mind.

"I love you." I looked into two ocean blue eyes. Love and affection were shining through until that was all I could see and feel. "I love you too, Daniel." Grace's cries come from her crib. I could hear Danny's laughs behind me. "Something funny?" "I just can't stop thinking about how lucky I am." "Sure you were, Danny."

A phone ringing wakes me in the middle of the night. "Williams." I hear from beside me. "Alright. I'll be there in 20." "Work, Daniel?" "I'm sorry, Rach. I'll be home soon. I love you." He was gone before I could repeat his words.

Finally after three hours Danny's eyes opened. "Danny. I'll get the nurse." I release the hand I had been holding for those three hours and leave the room so I can have a chance to get in control of my emotions. By the time I come back with the nurse he is already sleeping again.

My cell phone rings and fear runs through me. I'm not sure when I started being afraid to answer the phone but this is the first time I've managed to place the emotion and what that means for us. I look at the screen. Mom. I'll call her back later. Right now, I need to find a lawyer because I can't live in fear like this.

I watched the tears flow down Danny's face and the guilt hits me again. I know I'm responsible for putting that pain in his eyes but sometimes loving someone just isn't enough. I wasn't strong enough but I can be strong enough for Stan. "Grace, baby we have to go. The plane will leave soon." Danny's eyes meet mine and hate flares in them. He looks down at Grace. "Hey Monkey, you have to go but I'll see you soon okay?" Grace nods. "Okay. Remember, Danno loves you."

Now Danny's eyes have nothing but hate for me. He saves his love for Grace and Commander McGarrett. Steve talks on the phone for a few minutes then I can hear him speaking to Danny. "Come on, Danno. We have a case." Danny bends down to Grace. "I have to go, Monkey. Gotta go catch the bad guys. I'll see you Wednesday. Danno loves you."

I watch them get in the car and drive off, Danny's hands flailing around and Steve's increasingly amused expression. Danno. I could never call him that. It was only for Grace. It shouldn't hurt so much but then again, I also shouldn't still be in love with the man I divorced.

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. Thanks for reading.

~Five-0Forever