(Sarah) Sometimes I really do wonder when things changed. I mean it seems like just yesterday Jake and I would be hanging out talking about everything, Charlie and I would go for long drives into who-knows-where, Lorraine would be forever trying to give me make-over's, and Elliot and I were together finally. Now everything is all wrong.

Elliot, the "love" of my life, and I had started fighting. We live about an hour or so apart from each other and he'd text me or call me everyday. Until one day I started noticing something. Elliot was starting to get a little…clingy it seemed. He always needed to know where I was, what I was doing, and who I was with. If I didn't tell him exactly that, he'd get mad and say I was hiding things from him. When I told him that he should trust me, he replied with "why should I?"

Most people couldn't see it, but my oldest brother Charlie and I were always super close. Sure, I was also very close with my brother Jake, but when Jake started growing up, he seemed to grow out of me. One day this summer (school starts in 3weeks) Charlie found me and my skate board all alone on the front porch. Jake was supposed to meet me here but he texted me saying that he had to do something else. I wasn't mad, just bummed out.

So of course Charlie asked what was wrong, I glared at him for that, I didn't wanna talk about it. And what does Charlie do? Picks me up over his shoulder as I yell and hit him until we reach his car. I got quite and he opened the passenger side door, put me down in the seat, shut the door and got in the driver side.

"Strap in," he said, "we're going for a drive"

The fact that I did as told without complaining or making a sarcastic comment probably showed how bummed I was. He started the engine and took off. I looked out my window, then over at him.

"Where are we going?" I asked and he smiled.

"I don't know," he said and I just stared, "where ever the wind goes"

I mentally vowed to stay quite, since Charlie practically kidnapped me, but I couldn't stand the silence after while. I tapped my foot, played with my fingers, and Charlie just drove. Then he looked at me.

"What are you thinking about?" he asked and I froze.

"I don't know" I replied and he chuckled, "what are you thinking about?"

"I'm thinking about what horrible thing could've upset my favorite little sister," he replied and he seemed sincere, "wanna get ice cream?"

After what he was thinking and then that question, all I could do was nod. He smiled and turned on the radio. I didn't realize it but I zoned out until we reached the ice cream parlor.

Charlie didn't even have to ask to know which ice cram I wanted. We got the ice cream and he drove awhile longer until we reached a cliff. I was shocked, just how long had we been driving? Charlie got out and I followed. We sat on the hood of his car.

"I broke up with Annie last week," he announced and I didn't show it, but I was confused. They seemed so perfect together. He just kept licking at his mint-chocolate-chip ice cream.

"Why?" I asked and he shrugged.

"She's just not the one for me,"

"Elliot wont leave me alone," I blurted out and he looked over at me, "he's always asking about what I'm doing and stuff and its annoying and he says he doesn't trust me,"

"Relationships, long distance especially, are based on trust. But I don't think that's the only thing bothering you"

It still amazes me how Charlie can see right through me, like I'm a piece of glass. Fragile glass too, he never treated me like one of the guys, to him I meant more than that.

"It's Jake," I admitted finally, taking a bite out of my chocolate ice cream.

"How so?" he asked and I sighed loudly. In the end, I told him everything. Every little thing that was bothering me from Elliot to Jake, Lorraine and Nora trying to change who I am, having no friends that are girls, and my guy friends acting all weird around me now. Words couldn't explain how much better I felt telling someone about all of it. It was awesome.

Charlie told me about some of his problems on the dive home and I listened to every word. By the time we got back home, it was really dark. Luckily Charlie had texted mom to tell her where we were, so we went into the house quietly, not waking anyone up. My older brother walked me to my room and kissed my forehead, saying goodnight. I fell asleep smiling.

Things with Charlie aren't too different now, except he got his own house a few blocks away. He and I still drive out to "our cliff" and get ice cream but now sometimes instead of going back home I'll just stay at Charlie's. Jake doesn't seem to like this. Ever since I got closer to Charlie, Jake seems to be getting…sadder. He's not mad, or cold, just sad. When we go skateboarding and hang out though he seems like his normal Jake-self. I don't know what's up with him but I plan on finding out.

Lorrain, I think she really does hate me now. Before Charlie and I went on that drive, she was always his favorite sister. Now they still see each other but he's usually hanging out with me. When he's there, she'll play nice, when he's not all she does is glare and won't speak to me. I'm not sure, and it may sound crazy, but I think maybe there might have been something between them no one else knew about, something worth looking into.

Writing about all this really helps, guess I have to thank Kim and Jessica for getting me this journal.

~Sarah Baker.

(3rd) "Sarah!" Jake yelled as he ran into the house. He took the stairs two at a time, using his long legs to sometimes skip even three steps. When he reached her door, he knocked twice then just walked in. she was holding her journal, which she quickly put under her pillow and stood up.

"What?" she asked him and then shrieked as he picked her up in a big hug, spinning her around. When he put her down, she smacked his shoulder.

"Ow, hi!" he said cheerfully and she gave him an odd look.

"Are you ok?" she questioned him and he nodded, his long-ish wavy brown hair getting in his eyes. Sarah pushed back his hair for him and he grinned widely.

"Yeah, never better," he replied, sitting on the edge of her bed. She sat next to him.

"Ok…What's up?" she asked and he laid on his back as she looked down at him. His form-fitting black shirt and cameo knee-length shorts looked good on his, maybe a little too good.

"Trist was wondering if you wanna hang out with the gang later," he said and Sarah thought about it. The "gang" were Jake's friends, the ones that took him from her, but they were nice…

"Ok," she agreed and he beamed, hugging her waist while pulling her down to lay next to him. She cuddled up to him and her head lay in the crook of his neck, his arms staying around her.

"Yay," he said and she laughed. Such a Jake thing to say.

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