Hey guys! So I'm obsessed with this song and I thought this would be how Jade would feel after her breakup with Beck. Some... ok MOST of these are my emotions from when I called off my engagement a few years ago. So this was therapy for me! Anyway, I hope you enjoy it, even if it's mostly sad.
Payphone
I'm at a payphone trying to call home All of my change I spent on you Where have the times gone Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?
Despair. That was all she could feel walking away from Tori Vega's door, knowing Beck had made the choice to not continue their relationship. Two years and it was gone. No, she didn't need to slam the car door and no it did not make her feel better. But she made sure everyone knew she and Beck were done.
Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember The people we used to be It's even harder to picture That you're not here next to me You say it's too late to make it But is it too late to try? And in our time that you wasted All of our bridges burned down
The next day at school was excruciating. Outside, she appeared to be sad, a little heart broken, but all around ok. Inside, she was bleeding, crumbling, dying. But being Jade, she knew she couldn't… or wouldn't give in. No one would know a vicious pair of scissors was stabbing her heart. No one would she was dying. She was falling into an abyss inside herself. She walked the halls like she still owned the place. Everyone still cowered in fear of her. But walking the halls without Beck at her side killed her.
I've wasted my nights You turned out the lights Now I'm paralyzed Still stuck in that time when we called it love But even the sun sets in paradise
It was terrible, but Cat made her feel a little better. She had spent the past week crying herself to sleep and needed to get out of her bedroom. The night she hung out with Cat and broke the guitar had been all fun and games until Beck showed up. It felt like he stabbed her in heart. It felt like he ripped her heart out, stepped on it with his sexy boots and threw it in a blender with shards of glass.
I'm at a payphone trying to call home All of my change I spent on you Where have the times gone Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two? If happy ever after did exist I would still be holding you like this All those fairytales are full of shit One more stupid love song I'll be sick
After the earthquake, after she'd had to protect herself and have Beck protect little Cat, she realized her heart couldn't take much more. She stormed out of the house, still making Robbie and Cat terrified. Beck chased after her, knowing he probably shouldn't.
"Jade… Are you ok?" He ran his hands through his hair.
"Of course I am! I'm a big girl Beck. I don't need someone to protect me from the earth's quaking!" She spun on her heal, her hair whipping around in a flurry of black and green.
"I meant… Look. I know you and I know you must be hurt over our break up. But I'm so damn tired of fighting. I loved you and you will always have a place in my heart. But I cannot be with you anymore." He sighed and looked at his boot, stuffing his hands in his pockets.
She angrily turned back to face him jabbing her pointer finger into his chest, "If you came out here to tell me we'll never be together again, you need not have wasted your energy. I figured as much for myself. Like I said before, I'm a big girl, Oliver." She put extra emphasis on his last name. "If you're done with your shit, I'm leaving," and she turned around again and left.
The next week, everyone noticed the lack of cowering in fear or running for their lives. Most people felt good about this, everyone except Tori, Andre, Beck, Robbie and Cat. They were all worried something had happened. They decided to take a drive to her house after school that day and found the house for sale and a note for Beck in the mailbox.
Dear Beck,
You turned your back on tomorrow Cause you forgot yesterday I gave you my love to borrow But just gave it away You can't expect me to be fine I don't expect you to care I know I've said it before But all of our bridges burned down
I've wasted my nights You turned out the lights Now I'm paralyzed Still stuck in that time when we called it love But even the sun sets in paradise
I'm at a payphone trying to call home All of my change I spent on you Where have the times gone Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two? If happy ever after did exist I would still be holding you like this All those fairytales are full of shit One more stupid love song I'll be sick Now I'm at a payphone...
I will always love you. And I'm sorry for this. I can't keep going like this. It's too hard for me. Most people will not understand I have more feelings than anger, but please tell everyone I loved them… even that Vega girl. Perhaps her most of all… Please don't come looking for me. I don't want to be found. Maybe, some day, when I've healed myself, I will come back. But until then, leave me be.
Yours always,
Jade West
"I can't believe she's gone…" Beck whispered, his hands shaking as he held the letter.
"She was really hurting Beck. You were together for two years. You can't expect her to be ok!" Tori nearly yelled at him.
"I know, but…" He dropped the letter to the ground.
"No buts! Jade is a complex person. She has many emotions, most of them were dark. You knew her the best so how can you not expect this from her?" Tori shook Beck's shoulders.
"Why is she gone? Jade! Jade!" Cat, who didn't understand, tried knocking on the door.
"No Little Red. She's not here anymore." Andre guided her back to the group.
"But why? It's not fair. I miss her!" Tears started pooling in her eyes. "Our group won't be the same anymore. I can't take this!" And she threw herself on the stairs and cried. Robbie sat next to her, trying to comfort her.
Tori leaned her head on Beck's shoulder and Andre wrapped an arm around her waist. "What are we going to do?" she whispered.
"I don't know…" Beck leaned his head against Tori's. "I really don't know…"
So I'm planning another chapter but I want to know if you think I should leave it as it is or add the next chapter. I won't do the "if I get so many reviews I'll do this" line because I don't write for reviews. I write for myself and for people to enjoy my work, review or not. But if you enjoyed and want to add your opinion, please review or PM me! All your opinions and ideas help and are valued! :)