Title: Dear Danno-Letters from War
Author notes: Hi is me again, I love this fandom so I´m going to stay here for a while.
Thanks to my beta Jerseybelle.
This is an AU where Steve never went to prison but was called back and was deployed.
Again this will be slash so if you don´t like it.
Daniel Williams was in his office trying in vain to work. He had been very worried about one Steven J. McGarrett for the past nine months. His crazy partner had been called back and they hadn´t had contact with him, and that scared Danny to the bones because Steven had left not knowing how he felt about him.
Chin and Kono saw the men standing there with Danny and they knew, they knew in that minute what had happened. Kono had fallen and would have hit her head if it wasn´t for Chin.
"No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. The boss, Chin, the boss can´t be dead, please, Cuz, he can´t be dead, please, please, Chin."
"We don´t know yet, let´s go see Danny."
But when they got there they knew, Danny was pale and clearly in shock, his hands were shaking so bad and the officers were trying to help him.
"He went into shock..."
"Let us help him."
"Danny, Danny it's me, Chin, Danny"
Danny focused his eyes and Chin has to take a deep breathe because the pain in Danny's eyes was so deep that it hurt to see. And Chin Ho Kelly knew for real that their friend had died.
Commander Steven J. McGarrett was dead.
Two weeks Later
***Danny was in his home now, he had finished the new bottle of whiskey and was about to grab another one, yep, whiskey helped Danny to numb the pain. Danny could drink to obliviouness, he could drink until he passed out, and because it was the only way that he didn´t eat his gun.
Gracie wasn´t there. Rachel and Stan had taken her on their trip around Europe and he didn´t have one fucking clue where they were and for the first time in his fucked up life he was glad He loved his baby but couldn´t deal with her now. He was in too much pain and despair; he was broken and didn´t want to live and knew his baby would be afraid. He didn't want her to see him right now.
Besides, how do you explain that your best friend, your husband was dead?
Yes, Steven had been his husband, well he was, his goof has left the signed papers for the Domestic Partnenship and had taken Danny´s name and then left the papers for Danny to sign. Steven didn´t wanted to die, he wanted to come back home, come back to Danny and tell Danny that he loved him. Someone had stolen that from them, and left Danny with nothing but a broken heart.
Steven's funeral had been full of all the pomp that war hero had earned. They had awarded him another medal, which was handed to Mary. She had begged Danny to sit next to her because she knew what Danny felt and what her brother felt and what his plans had been.
"You´re my family, my brother in law, you stay here."
"They won´t like this."
"Who the fuck cares? This funeral ends and we´re taking Steve home where he belongs, so he can be buried and mourned by our family like he wanted, as Steven James Williams-McGarrett"
"You would do that?"
"That was his name, Danny. He left the papers he signed and if you want to take his name, you just need to sign yours and make this legal."
"First thing after we get home."
"He loved you, Danny."
"And I loved him, we just never got the chance...life is just so fucked up."
"Amen to that."
After the funeral they had taken Steven´s body back to Hawaii. Danny had signed the papers and taken it to a judge that allowed the name change. and his husband was buried as Steven James Williams-McGarrett, taking with him half of Danny´s soul.
Mary told him that the house was his and Grace´s. Steven had bought out her part a few years ago and even if he hadn´t, she couldn´t stand the pain there. She hoped he could change that. Most of Steve´s money also went for him and Gracie; Mary had her parents money that Steven had invested well, so she was taken care of. but all of Steven's money, which was plenty went to him along with his life insurance.
Danny would gladly give it all up, the house the money, to have Steve back.
Later Mary handed him an envelope. He didn´t understand why she was giving to him because it said "Mary" but she explained it to him.
"It was my job, to bring them to you. He couldn´t expose himself like that so he made it look like he was writing to me. But they were for you, Danny. We had nothing to say each other although we knew we loved each other to death. They're for you."
So now, with his glass full of whiskey, he picked up the first one.
"I didn´t want this fucking letter, I want you, but..."
TBC