Authors Note; The story has not changed, I am simply re-posting what I took down a few years ago, because more than a handful have asked me where they could find it. I still plan on re-writing the sucker some day but until that day arrives I will leave this one up. Hope you enjoy it, whether it's the second time around or your first time through the gate.

Full Summary; Bella and Renesmee end up back in time to the first page in the Twilight book, forced to live through everything for the second time in a row, at least for Bella. But maybe, together with the help of her daughter, she can make this time a whole lot better, for everyone involved. Except, of course, the bad guys. But fate can be a funny thing and perhaps doesn't like it when you mess around in its playground. Bella needs to be careful where she treads, if she's to succeed in her dangerous plans.

Prologue

Forks, Washington
January 17th, 2082

"Mom?" I turned towards the forest line, looking into the familiar brown eyes of my daughter. "Are you coming?"

I smiled at her. "Of course, Nessie. I'm right behind you."

True to my words, I ran after her, through the thick, dense forest of Washington. It had been a long time coming, but we were finally back. Back where it all started.

"Oh, Mom," I heard my daughter gasp. "is this it?" She turned to me, a teary smile on her face.

"Yes, honey, this is the place your Dad took me to, on our first official date. This is the meadow."

She smiled through her happy tears and turned back around, dancing slowly into the middle. I swear, at that moment, she looked so much like her Aunt Alice. She spread her arms out at her sides, closed her eyes and leaned her head back. She looked so serene and I couldn't help but once more, thank whatever entity decided I should have this miracle.

Even after all these decades, it still hadn't quite hit yet.

I was someone's mother.

"God, this place is exquisite. I can almost see you and Daddy here, falling in love. Oh, I wish I could've been there back then, to see you in the beginning." She truly didn't know what she was asking for.

Of course, myself, Edward and even Jake, had filled her in on our story, but we had glossed over the details. There were some things you just didn't tell your child, regardless of how old she was. This was one of them.

"I know you do, sweetie. Now, you'll have plenty of time to spend here, over the next 5 years, so why don't we go hunt. Before your uncles come looking for us." I finished with a wry snicker.

Her eyes widened in mock fear and she ran quickly out of the meadow and into the widening forest, trying to hide her giggles. I rolled my eyes, smiling at her ridiculous behavior and followed behind her once more. She was fast... for a human.

I was faster.

God, now I'm starting to sound like my husband. I think I've been married for too long. It can't be healthy, I'm telling you.

"Mom! No cheating. Hasn't Grandma Esme taught you anything?" I heard the laugh in her voice, outweighing her words, as I launched right past her and took over the lead.

"It's not cheating, my little half-human monster." I jokingly shot back at her, running backwards so I could look at her.

Now it was her time to roll the eyes a bit.

Just because I had given in to the ludicrous name, Nessie, didn't mean I had to like it. So I did what any mother would do. I came up with my very own, a mock of the original one. And, to myself and Edward, a sort of inside joke. It may not be the most original, but I liked it. My daughter did not. Which was why I liked to tease her with it.

Yeah, so maybe Emmett rubbed off on me a bit as well.

Monster caught up to me and put her hand in mine, as we ran side by side in the forest we called home. Even if we hadn't been here for approximately 75 years.

There were going to be a lot of changes.

Unlike the last time around, Dad wouldn't be here. He died 20 years ago, at the old age of 88. Monster saw him often, right up until the very end. He never questioned why none of us aged, staying true to his need-to-know request. There would also be none of the friends, I had kept as safe as possible in my murky memory vault. Of course, that also meant none of the bad.

No James. No close call in Port Angeles. No persistent Mike, who just wouldn't take no for an answer. No Jessica to be jealous. No mysterious secrets to unravel about the 5 strange kids.

But I think I might trade all those in, if it meant getting back some of the good. The first time I talked to my husband, in biology. The first time his smile was meant for me especially. The meadow. The first time I was introduced to Alice, Emmett and the rest of my family. Yes, even Rose. Even something as simple as cooking for Charlie. Even something as abhorring as going to Prom. I would do it all again in a heartbeat, knowing it would turn out the way it did.

Although I was quite content with the way my existence was now.

"What are you thinking about, Mom?" My daughter shook me out of my thoughts and I realized we were far away from the meadow by now.

Wow. Even as a vampire, I zone out.

"The past." I said and she knew enough to let it be.

What I said earlier, was every bit the truth. I took after my husband and my brother, but those weren't the only ones. Like Esme, I found myself often wishing I could cry, just to get an outlet of my emotions. And to lessen Jasper's pain. While I did not enjoy shopping and never would, some of Alice's exuberance had rubbed off on me. Carlisle's calm and patience, although my family tried to convince me that it had always been there. But the one I saw as most important of all, was what I had gotten from Rose.

I was not the same girl that moved to Forks almost 80 years ago and I don't mean because of what I am. I mean, because of who I am. Who I have become. Thanks to my sister.

More outgoing. Immensely daring. Able to speak up about anything I feel like. At times even thriving in the public light. Showing my true emotions and not just humoring someone to be nice. Rose, most of anything, taught me to never do things just to please someone else. I should always follow my own heart and mind.

I loved my sister to death.

I felt my daughter squeezing the hand that was grasped in hers and I looked beside me to see what she wanted. I did not need to watch where I was going. She was gazing at me with a secretive smile and then she launched into the fastest speed she had in her. I could feel her excitement, over the metaphorical mother-daughter bond we had. Although I could not guess at the reason.

Until we came closer.

Most of the witnesses from all those years ago, including the Denali family, refused to enter this particular field, ever again. The memories brought forth too many shattering emotions. Fear, pain, anxiety, shock and so many more. Jasper had tried to explain each and every one of them to us, a few years after the confrontation, but even he hadn't caught them all. The point I am trying to make, is that it is quite possible, that Monster is the only one who is still eager to come here.

I understand her reasons though.

Despite the life lost here that day, Renesmee was filled with pride at the memories. Pride that so many of our kind had stepped forward, to protect not only her, but our family as well. Pride that the wolves had put aside their differences and mistrust, to work together against a common foe. Pride that even a few of the Volturi witnesses had gone against their Masters. Pride was in every pore of her body, whenever she stood in the large field.

Me? I still couldn't look at it without picturing a game of baseball.

Go figure.

Monster ran around the grand field many times, getting her fill of the land and trying to figure out what the next big event would be. Of course she had been told about the first meeting with the nomads, that ended in the deaths of all three. The battle against the newborn army, alongside the wolves. And she was there for the confrontation so I wont even mention that.

She was sure the next big thing would come, now that we were back.

I hope to God that she's wrong.

"Come on, Mom," I saw that my girl had plopped down right in the middle, sitting cross-legged on the grass. "join me for a moment." She petted the ground next to her, as if speaking to a little child.

I rolled my eyes to cover the clenching of my heart, at the memory of the relationship between me and my own mom.

I dropped down behind my girl, placing my legs around hers and wrapping my arms around her midsection. I needed the comfort right now and I knew she felt it. Besides, unlike myself before the change, Ren was very comfortable with emotional displays of affection and I knew it didn't bother her a bit.

God, I couldn't love her more than I already did.

"Are you okay, Mom?" She whispered, after we had been sitting there for a few hours. We had yet to hunt, but were instead caught up in the moment.

"Yes honey, I'm fine. It's just... this place." She knew I wasn't simply talking about the field we were currently in. "All those memories... they may have seemed dull in the last many years, but being here now... they're stronger somehow." I sighed out the last part, trying to convey my meaning.

"I understand." She said, still whispering slightly.

She had been told of our past, but it was difficult for her, since most of her time spent here were happy memories. Times with Jake in the beginning and meeting all of those nomads who were so entranced by her. Connecting with her parents and family, before anyone really knew her. Developing her personality and gift, in the warmth of a loving home.

She had missed it as completely as me, just for different reasons.

I decided that we needed a lighter topic, so I changed it to one I wouldn't have expected to call lighter when I was still human. My... son-in-law.

"So, what's Jake up to right now?" I was curious. He was still my best friend in many ways.

A serene smile came on her lips, as it always did when her wolf was mentioned. "He's visiting his old house and meeting up with the Pack. With Sam out of the picture, he's anxious to meet the new Leader. Size him up, y'know?"

I laughed in response, I did know. It was typical Jake.

I myself was curious to hear about the new Alpha, as I had aptly named it many years ago. Sam wasn't gone yet, but he had stopped phasing a long time ago, choosing to start a family with Emily. Last I heard he had four descendants and eleven grandchildren. Jonah was the new head now and I was sure he would meet Jake's scrutiny.

How could he not with a grandfather like Samuel Uley?

"What about the others, honey?" I lay my chin on her shoulder, just breathing in the calming scent of her skin.

"Well, Seth and Embry are busy setting up the new house in La Push. I think Leah went to Seattle to order the furniture. Loren is visiting Sam and Emily, Cale is at First Beach with Hallie, and Jalin is registering everyone at the school." As a wolf's imprint, Monster knew the pack business almost as well as her husband. They were her second family, after all.

"It's sounds like everyone's very busy." I smiled. Even after all these decades, the Pack was still just a bunch of boys. And Leah.

"What about our family, Momma, what are they up to right now?" She turned her head to me and her eyes showed genuine curiosity.

I had to think for a few seconds. "Now, I'm no Alice, but I know what they said they were going to do." She laughed, knowing that at least her Uncle Em was doing something completely different than he said he would. "Alice and Rose are in Seattle, shopping of course." I said, with a wry grin. At least I had an excuse to bow out this time. "Carlisle is at the hospital, getting acquainted with the new facilities and fellow colleagues. Esme is working on the house. Your uncles are supposed to be getting food for you and writing us up for school next week, but who knows really." I laughed and shook my head.

"What about Daddy?"

"Oh, well I think Edward is getting our cabin ready. Your room needs to be updated, since I don't think you'll want to sleep in a crib anymore." She rolled her eyes at my words. "Some newer technology needs to be installed as well and we're updating the bedroom too. So he's busy, just like the others."

Ren snorted. "Yeah and how exactly did we get out of doing any chores?"

I laughed out loud. "We pretended that we needed to hunt and have some bonding time." I remarked sarcastically.

We really did need to eat, we had just gotten a bit off course.

When the laughter died out, we both laid down on the grass beside each other and clasped our hands together. We looked up at the gray sky and the clouds floating above. It had been a long time since I had gotten used to this kind of weather and I no longer wished for the sun. In fact, I disliked it, since it meant having to hide out. I never felt more like a vampire than when the days were sunny.

Time passed and I knew it wouldn't be long until darkness fell. I turned to my daughter and gently shook her shoulder.

She had fallen asleep.

"Honey? We need to go hunt now, so we can get home before the others start to worry." I heard her mumble an agreement and I waited for her to wake fully up.

Sleeping was another thing I missed.

Ren stretched her body until I heard a distinct crack and then jumped up to stand beside me. Her smile was sleepy, but I knew she would wake up as soon as we began running. Even after so much time, she still had the same excitement for the hunt that she did when she was just a few days old. She grabbed my hand in hers again and ran out of the field, into the forest.

It didn't take us long to find our target.

I couldn't help the laugh that escaped me, but thankfully it was too low for animal ears. Emmett would pout and whine, when he learned that we had come across a bear on our hunt. And not just any bear, but a grizzly. Ren turned to me and knowing where my mind had gone, smirked in response. She put her hand out in an offering gesture, knowing her uncle would be that more upset, if it were me who took the animal down and not his 'can-do-no-wrong' niece.

I laughed a bit louder this time and set off in a run, crouching when I reached the unsuspecting carnivore. I could vaguely hear Monster in the distance, having found her own prey. I quickly made work off my meal, knowing that if Em had been the one to get his claws on this animal, it's death would not have been swift.

He was the embodiment of a child, playing with his food.

I buried the carcass and ran off into the direction of my daughter, finding her just as she was getting rid of her own evidence. It seemed she had stumbled over her favorite Washington meal, a coyote. She said that she couldn't explain why she liked it better than bear or lion, but that there was just something about the taste. Her uncles teased her relentlessly, but she took it in stride.

She saw me standing there watching her and ran up to join me. "So, what now, Momma?"

I brushed some hair out of her face and cupped her chin. "Why don't we go back to the field for a little while. It wont be dark for another couple of hours."

She grinned her acceptance and quickly ran for our destination. This time I did not rush ahead of her, simply enjoying running behind her, enveloped in the calming wave she sent out. While Jasper was very adapt at his gift, no one calmed me down like my husband and daughter. It was actually quite extraordinary.

We were back in the grand field in no time, but something didn't feel quite right. There was a sense of foreboding in the air and I quickly ran to my daughter and grabbed her arm.

"We have to go." She looked at me, confused by my sudden change of heart. "Now, Renesmee."

It was very rare for me to use her full name and so she knew I meant business. She nodded, not saying a thing and we quickly made our way to the tree line. We were mere feet away from it, when we heard something moving in the bushes to our right. I could almost feel my metaphorical heart, pounding in my chest and all I could think of was protecting my little girl.

"Faster, Ren!" I shouted, even though she was standing right next to me.

"I don't think so, young one." Called a masculine voice, stepping out from behind the trees.

He was wearing a pair of gray sweatpants, but had no shirt, shoes or socks on. A nomad would've been my first thought, except that his skin was too dark and his eyes blue. And yet I knew instinctively that he was not human. So what was he?

"Who are you?" I heard Monster speak up, as I was too shocked to do anything other than stare.

"Ah, you are the sweet Renesmee, yes? I've heard much about you." He never answered her question, I quickly noticed.

"What do you want?" I finally spoke up.

He looked thoughtful for a moment, a strange smile on his face that did not sit well with me. All I could think of, was that we were in danger and I hoped that Edward was on his way. Surely he was wondering where we were by now.

"What I want... is a complicated matter, Mrs. Cullen." His smile widened, noticing my unease at his knowledge of who I was.

"If you know who we are, why not tell us your name?" Ren's voice was slightly irritated, mixed with fear.

He ignored her question again and continued to gaze at me. His eyes seemed searching and I wondered if he found what he was looking for. "I've been looking for you, for quite some time now. You are not an easy lady to find." He smiled, trying to be pleasant.

It just creeped me out more.

"Why? Why have you been looking for me?" I asked, desperation in my voice.

He laughed before responding. "You are the legendary Isabella Cullen, who dared stand up to the Volturi. Oh, I just had to meet you, young one."

Why does he keep calling me that?

I saw a strange glint in his eyes suddenly, as his right hand reached up to fondle the necklace around his throat. It was a leather string with a simple symbol attached. A ring with what looked like an ancient letter inside, from a language I did not know. His thumb rubbed over the silver jewelry and I saw a dark green glow begin to spread from the ring and out towards me.

I panicked and grabbed my daughter's hand, pulling at her and quickly backing away. Something big was about to happen and I momentarily wondered if Ren didn't have a bit of her Aunt's sight. She had said that she thought something would happen and it would seem that she was right.

Unfortunately.

"There is no need to run, Mrs. Cullen. My intent is not harmful."

I didn't trust him and narrowed my eyes, showing him that I knew the truth. Why he wanted to hurt me, I didn't know. Was he working for Aro, who had tried so hard to get me on his guard? Was he a renegade, looking to move up in our world? Or was his vendetta more personal? I didn't know and I was beginning to think that I didn't even care.

I just wanted him to stop.

The mysterious emerald glow was growing with each second and in just a matter of seconds, I knew it would hit me and Monster. There was a chance that my shield would repel it, but what about Ren?

I quickly took hold of the inner rubber band, enveloping my daughter underneath it. A glow different from the other, wrapped itself around her in a protective bubble and I mentally breathed a sigh of relief. But what if my shield didn't repel whatever this man had thrown at us? What if he was too powerful? After all, I had only fought off vampires with it before and this stranger was no vampire.

My panic returned, full force.

We were still backing away, but were no match for the glow. A spine chilling smile was placed on the man's lips, as we were finally surrounded by the emerald brightness. My fears came true, as it passed right through my invisible shield, as if it wasn't even there. I closed my eyes against the truth of what was coming, wrapped my daughter up tightly in my arms and prayed to whatever God that might be looking out for my kind.

Blackness began to take over my mind and I vaguely heard the shocked exclamation of the stranger. "What?" He seemed surprised and I tried to open my eyes to see what had made this emotion occur in him, but something was holding down my lids.

I felt an intense pressure and realized that the body I had held in my arms, was gone. I wanted to scream out her name, but I couldn't speak. I wanted to find her, but I couldn't move. I wanted to do something, but I was almost completely lost in the darkness. It came closer and closer, bringing with it a sense of defeat. I couldn't fight it, I knew that much, but I couldn't give in either.

Before I could make a choice, the decision was made for me, as I felt my body falling to the ground and my mind became an utter void.

And then I was no more.