She is beautiful, she is everything to me, how could this happen? How come it was her, the only girl I have ever loved. My life is over without her, she is my rock, the love of my life, my mate. Why did I have to be so selfish, so stupid? If it wasn't for me she would be here, alive, with me. She has such a pure soul, she didn't deserve to die such a painful death. I will regret my decision to try and turn her into the monster I am for the rest of my life. There is no hope for me. Without her, I am nobody, nothing. I am nothing but a shell of the young boy I used to be, an idiotic, ignorant, pathetic boy. I didn't deserve her.
She was the most beautiful thing in the whole world. One look and I was captured by her beauty. She was an angel sent from Heaven above, sent straight towards me, God only knows why it was me she loved. How did she love the monster within me? I thought I hid it well, but she knew, and she didn't run. She didn't run screaming away from me, she stayed and told me she didn't care, she loved me anyways. I should have told her, I should have just stopped thinking about just myself and what I felt. I should have known that she wouldn't run, that she would have stayed anyway, she's just that type of person. And to think, she's gone, gone from this world, infinitely. She was laying in my arms so close to death asking for me to take the pain away, to make it better or at least make it go faster. And I did. I finished her, I looked right into her eyes, said I love you one last time and then ended it. I thought we had forever but apparently forevers are not supposed to last.
I will always love you Paige, FOREVER.