The words I try to lock away inside,
I can no longer run, I can no longer hide.
I want to break free, how can she not see,
My biggest supporter, my number one fan,
She is my mother I am sure she will understand.
The fear of disapproval and look of disappointment,
Will break my heart and crush my soul, for so long I did not know.
I finally see who I am meant to be.
The emotions flow through me, happiness and fear shift into gear
The first moment I met his lips, I knew I couldn't resist.
I pace my floor, behind closed doors,
Is the only way I can be me, somebody save me and set me free.
I look in the mirror as tears fall from my eyes,
It is like for years I've been wearing a disguise.
I have walked these halls my whole life, filled with sadness, pain, and strife.
A smile on my face is what she has always seen, after all, she was the Evil Queen.
If anyone can understand about keeping a secret locked away,
I have to come out to my mom and tell her I am gay.
She has shared her story of feeling alone,
It is something we have in common if only she'd have known.
I take a deep breath and open my door,
I hear my mom and Robin talking on the first floor.
This is it the moment of truth, I have hidden it away for all of my youth.
I feel like I cannot breathe, the door is close, I can run and leave.
What will that do? If only she knew,
I just want her to look and see the real me.
I step inside on the cold tile floor,
I stand there looking at them shook to my core.
She can read my face, she is my mother after all.
When Robin's stands from the chair, I suddenly feel so small.
The moment of truth, the irony is real,
It is time to lay the cards on the table and tell them how I feel.
My own thoughts drown out their voices,
"My boy, are you alright?"
"Henry ….." she reaches for me.
I stand before them, like a deer in headlights.
Her touch is soft, Robin's expression shows worry,
The tears fill my eyes, my vision becomes blurry.
"I'm sorry" is all I can bring myself to say
Maybe I can do this tomorrow, wait another day.
"I'm here for you always." Her voice is low
"We are a family, Henry. I hope you know, nothing you can do or say will make that go away."
I try to smile, hide my fears,
It is a struggle through the tears.
"I don't know." I stop and look down to the floor
This is so much harder than I thought it was before.
Accepting who you are, and self-love is hard
I look up to them both, a little less guarded.
I take a deep breath and close my eyes.
"There is something I need to tell you, it may come as a surprise."
I feel her hand caress my cheek and Robin sit's down, it is my time to speak.
I shouldn't feel ashamed or the need to hide,
They are my parents, they are on my side.
"I fell in love and my world is brighter. There is something you need to know; his name is Ryder."
I look at them both, and they almost seem relieved.
It is not what I expected, I wouldn't have believed,
What happened next, I never would have guessed.
"Henry, you made us think something was wrong" is all she said, her lips were soft on my forehead.
"My boy, next time don't give us a fright." A smile fell on Robin's face, his eyes grew soft. "Henry, we love you. Everything will be alright."
She took my hand and her eyes were bright.
"I love you for all that you are, and all that you will be. I hope you see, you mean the world to me. Nothing can ever change my love for you. I wish you knew, I wish I could make you see, how every day you inspire me. Your courage and strength are things I admire, I would like to meet thing young man named, Ryder.
I feel like I can breathe again, strong arms wrap around us both.
"Henry, my boy I am proud of you. I just want you to be, who you truly are, I want you to be happy"
"I love you Mom and Dad." is all that I can say. I've never been this happy.
This is me, I'm gay.