Chapter 1: Emotions
November 28th, 2006. It's a very cold day in England. So I stay in my office in Wammy's House. A house for intelligent children who are here to be in line to be successors for… L. Just thinking his name makes me shudder back to memories. Memories where I… was by L's side. You could say that I helped in the BB case.. But L said otherwise. He says I give too much emotion for intelligence to be clear. Right now, I am looking at agent files. Or rather, my file:
Name: Akira, Momo L.
Origin: English
Status: Retired
No longer reading the rest of it I lean back in my chair. It was too upsetting to read the rest for I already knew what it said. Also, I never retired, I was "fired". L is right though, my emotions are keeping me from reading the rest of my description, and they would also be a reason why I would be in a depressed mood for the rest of the day. But I wondered why L would not write down the status of fired. If I were not a good agent wouldn't he want to keep that in reference for himself? Or is there something more to this than I can see? A headache is starting but I cannot stop thinking. I wasn't always so emotional. In fact, I was more like L. Something happened in my life that changed myself completely around. But what was it? I cannot remember I don't recall what happened to me. There is yet another reason why I am of no intelligence. For I cannot remember something so important that happened in my life that changed me around so significantly.
But… I have to be of some intelligence, right? For, I am in Wammy's House. All the children here have great intelligence, for they could all be L's successor. I wouldn't exactly say that I am a child… But I am still here. Here, hacking the system of L's to look at my agent status… again. Dropping three sugars into my tea, I mix it with a lollipop and think. What could have happened to me that made me forget? Maybe I had a car crash to where memory of it was damaged from my brain… no that's impossible, I had my checkup last month and my brain was not damaged one bit. Plus, my "accident" was long ago. I sat up straight with one question in my head: What if L knows what happened?
Before I could ponder that any longer there was a knock on my door, "Come in," I say bluntly. The door opens silently and shaggy white hair peeks through the door opening. "You may come in Near," I say quietly sipping my tea. He slides in sitting in a chair in front of my desk.
"It's a very rainy day," he starts off, "and I know that you always make tea on rainy days." I give him a small smile and pour tea for him. Leaves the sugar cubes out for him and he sips his tea. Near was the only one who knew my real name. But here in the orphanage they call me Mora. His spoon clanks around in his cup, "Looking at files again?" He sips his tea and I nod.
"I still can't understand why he would put me as retired," When I sip my tea it needed more sugar.
"It's because he will need your assistance again," Near stated, "He would pull you out of retirement and back on the case," he realizes he drank all his tea and holds his cup out to me, his face asking innocently for more.
Pouring more tea for both of us I sigh, "But I thought I messed up? So, why would he need my help again?"
Near stays quiet for the longest time, sipping tea in between thoughts. Finally he sits up and looks at me, "Well, you must have been of some use to him," he smiles encouragingly. I smile back drinking the rest of my tea.
"Well Near, I will see you later," I get up getting my raincoat.
"Where are you going?" he asks.
"Next month is Christmas. I have to get my favorite boys some presents," Putting my coat on he looks up at me.
"Well then, Mora, I shall see you later, yes?" I nod and grab an umbrella, "So, what are you getting me?"
I let out a laugh, "You already know," from saying that I walk out into the rain.